Secret Cords Every so often you might hear something or see something that makes you feel bad. Bad as in a personal manner. At the moment perhaps its nothing and in end perhaps it is nothing just an innocent phrase or sight. But its that small thing that strikes a hidden cord deep within you. And when it rings out it connects to a memory. A memory tied to a feeling and that feeling you thought might be dead but turns out you just hid it away and kept it secret. And as the dust settles you recall those days that made you feel ruined your spirit sinks and you feel yourself hurt. And you honestly don't know why. It doesn't effect you and it can't hurt you. Why would you let it pain you so muc...

Secret Cords Every so often you might hear something or see something that makes you feel bad. Bad as in a personal manner. At the moment perhaps its nothing and in end perhaps it is nothing just an innocent phrase or sight. But its that small thing that strikes a hidden cord deep within you. And when it rings out it connects to a memory. A memory tied to a feeling and that feeling you thought might be dead but turns out you just hid it away and kept it secret. And as the dust settles you recall those days that made you feel ruined your spirit sinks and you feel yourself hurt. And you honestly don't know why. It doesn't effect you and it can't hurt you. Why would you let it pain you so much.
I was not the most popular kid around. And despite my rather solid faith on being independent and true to myself there were many times I yearned to be a part of the group, a hound in the pack. But when the times came I was never quite the cool guy. And in hinge sight I'm proud of it. But never the less the call of acceptance is luring and is shamefully persuasive. And even after several years the pain can still bite.
But you know after all of that, after the so called friends turning me down, after the long dull pain of loneliness and even after the embarrassment of lowering myself to be accepted I know that out there right now there is at least one person who thinks im cool. And in the end. Thats enough for me. So thank you. You know who you are.