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Difficulty: StrenuousA few years back I went to Tennessee to visit my girl friend for the first time. It was quite a trip and it was the single biggest thing I had ever done in my life. While we were there we climbed a mountain together, figured it would be fun, take pictures and the like. When we got there at the foot of the mountain there was a sign that had the number of steps and a message "Difficulty: Strenuous"

My girl friend is now my wife and to do so she has chosen to make and unbelievably difficult choice to move to Canada with me to start a new life. When she arrived I hired a lawyer and we began the process of a spousal sponsorship. My God. This has been the most difficult thing I have ever had to do in my life. But while I stress and worry and tire she is forced through all the same but worse. She can't have a job until she gets this finished so she needs to rely on me to support her. She doesn't own a car, she doesn't know the city, she has no friends, she can barely get around and thus she is forced to live out the days of this legal process in my small room alone for most of the day.

When we climbed that mountain I remember taking all the bags so she wouldn't be burdened and I remember me demanding that I do so. I remember that it was hot as hell an we were sweating ourselves dry and we didn't have the foresight to bring water. And I remember having to stop several times on the way up just to rest our wobbly legs. We tried to keep spirits up by taking pictures and telling jokes but it was still a daunting task and we just wanted to go home.

I feel like we are climbing that mountain again. Cursing all the way and struggling to stay on our feet. I carry the weight of our packs and I try to keep us going but its with every step we take we feel its harder to lift our bodies up the next one. We stop to take a breath but its only making the journey longer. And we know that once we get to the top we still have to get back down.

I hate doing this to her. I keep looking over to see her feeling tired and frustrated and I wish I could some how make things better or make things go faster but I can't. We just need to keep going. This is the hardest thing we have ever done, we had no idea it was going to be like this and we continue to feel the sting of this painful process but as I climb I have no regret for the things I am unable to do while I walk beside her. If I chose not to climb this mountain with her I would have extra money, extra time and such but even as things pass me by that we both know I would love to indulge I honestly feel no remorse or regret. For I feel that I'm doing something positive in my life by walking with the woman I love. I don't feel alone, I don't feel ashamed and I don't feel ignored or thought less of. The only thing I regret is not being better, not being stronger, not being faster, smarter, wealthy etc. But now I have the motivation to achieve those things and know that its not just for me either.

So I'm not going to stop and I'm not going to leave her behind and just as I asked then when we climbed that mountain and she felt like her legs were going to give out I will offer to carry her if needed.

We mastered that mountain and I know we can master this. Its just that the Difficulty is Strenuous.
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