it's been a while since i wrote here or even check the site.
truthfully, I have no idea what to do now, I been diagnosed with bunch of health problem and issues and ever since I was three year old, it's always one issue after another after another. That's what you get for being born deaf and blind (technically I am hard of hearing and legally blind). so back in feb, I almost died without having a treatment because at that time, i didn't know I was having acute kidney failure. since then I been on dialysis and already got fistula and already on list of getting donor and being on the list of transplant as well all in three month or so.
I'm not gonna lie. it truly have put me in a emotional rollercoaster, that to the point where, I almost driven everyone away from me, it's hard to explain to my family and friends how exactly I am going through. they may think they know what it's like, but in my mind, they don't really understand at all. In all honestly, I don't think I even understand who I am.
being disabled suck, there are always more of the negatives that will impact and affect your life and other surround you than there is of positive, I mean I do see few people that I follow have their own issue and problem and only some made it while other just disappear without notice,
I guess this is my somewhat attempt at reaching out, not for support or pity or anything, just reaching out and seeing what happen...