The Truth is He doesn't feel the same way. And I've been upset about it since Thursday but I can't stop feeling this way because something about it doesn't seem fair or right or deserving. So much invested into one person and I didn't get anything I wanted. I didn't get what my heart needed. And my heart is broken and it hurts and I want to throw things and scream. But I think I cried all I can. I think that the tears I feel here, now, I think they are fake. They're here to make me feel sad. But I don't want to be sad. I just want him.