I hate what I'm becomingAs everyone who has met me in person knows, I'm chilled and laid back, with just about everything, and I'm cool to do whatever.

Yet, for whatever stupid reason, when I'm at my computer, a side of me that doesn't care about the consequences comes out, and is slowly ruining the social life I've been careful to grow here.

I'm not gonna lie, and say it's not my fault. Because it's atleast half my fault. I admit I fuck up every time I post a stupid journal, attacking someone, or whenever I start an argument, and refuse to back down.

I don't like that I do this, and I want to change for the better.

'Whats the reason for this sudden change?' I hear...

I hate what I'm becomingAs everyone who has met me in person knows, I'm chilled and laid back, with just about everything, and I'm cool to do whatever.

Yet, for whatever stupid reason, when I'm at my computer, a side of me that doesn't care about the consequences comes out, and is slowly ruining the social life I've been careful to grow here.

I'm not gonna lie, and say it's not my fault. Because it's atleast half my fault. I admit I fuck up every time I post a stupid journal, attacking someone, or whenever I start an argument, and refuse to back down.

I don't like that I do this, and I want to change for the better.

'Whats the reason for this sudden change?' I hear some of you ask.
Well, Ben (Caiti's housemate, and I can't for te life of me remember his RT username. sorry Ben) recently contacted me, and asked for my side of the story, which has helped me get rid of enough negative thoughts, that I can see how much of a dick I've been.

So, I wanna ask you guys for some help/advice/whatever I need, to help me become the person I want to be.

All I ask, is that those who aren't happy with me, give me a second chance (or a 3rd, 4th, 5th or whatever chance I'm up to). You don't have to, and I'd understand.