After the holidaysWell it seems to be sticking. I can actually keep up a full day without too much pessimism. Ok writing this kind of reverts me back all the way but as long as I don't think too much I'm holding on alright for now.
It's still hard to look forward to anything but at least I drown myself in enough menial activities that I enjoy so that it's actually bearable.
Now that I'm thinking about all this I realize that I'm just not looking at the problem that's why it's not so bad. I see other people complaining and I just find it real hard to feel empathy.