My first scareJust got back from the hospital where my wife is convalescing. She had to have half of her thyroid taken out after they thought it might be cancerous. After 2 hours of surgery (and another 3 of recovery time) she's finally resting in her hospital bed with the knowledge that her thyroid is fine (although half gone due to the biopsy) and she's cancer free. It's a load off my mind, but I really get worried for her. She's my rock and I chose her to be with for the rest of my life. I just get a bit scared when I sit in the house alone for the first time in a long time. The day will come when everything won't be all right, and she and I will have to make serious deci...

My first scareJust got back from the hospital where my wife is convalescing. She had to have half of her thyroid taken out after they thought it might be cancerous. After 2 hours of surgery (and another 3 of recovery time) she's finally resting in her hospital bed with the knowledge that her thyroid is fine (although half gone due to the biopsy) and she's cancer free. It's a load off my mind, but I really get worried for her. She's my rock and I chose her to be with for the rest of my life. I just get a bit scared when I sit in the house alone for the first time in a long time. The day will come when everything won't be all right, and she and I will have to make serious decisions for each other. I know this, but I won't let it dominate my thoughts.

I'm just going to try a bit harder to be more mindful of her needs and make our time together more special so that heaven forbid that time comes, I can look back with a smile and not a heart full of regret. As my son sleeps in my wife's spot in our bed, I'll make sure to give him an extra kiss as well. Without Amy, I would never have had the chance to be my son Garrett's father. Amy was the one that first suggested we look to adopt. It was her that met his birth mother and jokingly suggested that she work with us with adoption instead of a cold and heartless adoption agency. It was Amy that pushed us as a couple to grow, change, evolve.

Too often I resent change and hate the ramifications of changing the status quo just because. Amy is my ultimate foil. She does what I'm too afraid to do. For that, I can only say thanks honey. I'll be with you in the morning and that I love you now, just as much as ever, for being you.

Love,
Mat