Another Long winded rant...........
Gotta get this off my chest!
so earlier this week, I did something that I felt to be selfless and tried to help out a friend and in doing so helped out someone I really do not care for, but felt that as our differences are due to something that happened 18 yrs ago that we had both grown. Guess who was wrong in that assumption............once again...........ME!

Look, we have all done things in our lives that were not our shining moments! I have never said that I was above being guilty for my sins! The fact of the matter is that in the particular, ancient history of which is being once again brought to the surface I was not the only one involved and the someone I do not care for was just as ...

Another Long winded rant...........
Gotta get this off my chest!
so earlier this week, I did something that I felt to be selfless and tried to help out a friend and in doing so helped out someone I really do not care for, but felt that as our differences are due to something that happened 18 yrs ago that we had both grown. Guess who was wrong in that assumption............once again...........ME!

Look, we have all done things in our lives that were not our shining moments! I have never said that I was above being guilty for my sins! The fact of the matter is that in the particular, ancient history of which is being once again brought to the surface I was not the only one involved and the someone I do not care for was just as wrong in her part.........yet she still plays the victim to my actions!

Cryptic..........yes it is because the fact is that since what happened was so long ago, I am not still 100% sure of every detail. I can say this much........... I lied and let people believe something was going on that WAS NOT........At the time I did do it to be hurtful, which is completely out of character for me! At the time I thought I was helping a friend get out of a situation he did not want to be in........I was the perfect out, and at the tender age of 19 I had no grasp of how it might truly effect my friend, his family, the person I did not like or my own relationship at the time or as I found out yesterday.......now too.

I am sorry, I can't take back what happened so long ago..............neither can the others involved and I am tired of continuing to defend myself. I admit that my part was wrong and wish I could take it back, but for the love of pumpkins, can we just grow the hell up and accept responsibility for our actions???????????

I wish I could just forget about this and move on...........I actually thought that I had...........but now I am once again mad and angry!

The worst part is that then and now I was just trying to help a friend...............and I am the bad guy!