it really has... and im sorry
so where do i start? ok... after new years i recovered pretty quickly, sorry about the drunken celebratory journal

and since then ive been suffering throuhg my a-level courses... started out with modular exams, and we shall get to those later... then had a couple of gigs to go to, rather than participate in: yay! then came wintereenmas, a solid week of gaming bliss, unfortunately had to be at school for much of it though, thank god for PSP's
february began easily, and unbelievably well for me

I finally worked up the testicles to ask out Becky, and she said yes! we shall getr to that saga in a tick... half tem spent a lot of time with becky and did a couple of county brass band gigs, good stuff!
and so began march... went to a ball at becky's school and stayed the night... draw your own conclusions

nah nothing too NSFW happened but it was a great night! then this last week i came under massive pressure from my teachers to get a few retard year 7's to play trumpet for a school contest this week... and finally i got my results from my A-level modules... and nearly contemplated murdering my music teachers...
still to come this month, driving lessons, house music, party at bex's, gigs and i get the house to myself for the first part of the easter hols
so...
A-level modularstook five exams, in music, maths, biology, chemistry and general studies... at the time i thought it all went pretty well... boy was i every wrong...
Music- D
Maths- D
general studies- D
chemistry- C
biology- B
needless to say, i was not a happy bunny... the chem and bio results i can live with, the GS noone gives a crap about anyway, maths i'll retake but music... holy fuck was i ever pissed off! we were rushed into the 2andahalfhourfuckingexam anyway... noone got higher than a low C and apparently, i was 1 mark off a fucking C anyway!
lifewell, general life got a shitload better this new year, with the obvious exception of exams! after new year, i told myself i'd cut right down on the smoking, i started a little before christmas and had absolutely no problem with it at parties and such, but i decided it got out of hand when i started smoking most lunchtimes... the last thing i need is a nicotine adiction trust me! anyway since then ive had about 2 when i was sat in the hot tub with my mates so no biggy there...
and finally... (Warning: the following content may get slushy)
Beckywow... just wow, i have finally found happiness and shes a 5ft10 blonde flute playing babe! i asked her out just before feb. half term and she said she'd love to go out to dinner with me... i spent 5 minutes dancing round my room, seriously! anyway, we went out for the day on saturday and had an amazing time then headed home for a party that evening of a friend, kissed her for the first time: Ace!
then saw her on tuesday, went out for coffee before she went to work, again had a great time, and there was plenty more kissing

, next day was valentines day so we went out for a meal and wandered aroung town for a bit, next day she came over to mine with a couple of mates for a mini-party in the hot tub, cue much more kissing, still very awesome

unfortunately she fell ill the next couple of days so i didnt get to see her before we went back to school... saw her again a week later, we go to different schools. this was the first time id really got her to myself and had an amazing time with her... feelings really starting to develop now! the next weekend was the ball at her school so we both dressed up in our finest and danced all night

. that was the night i stayed over... then we went out yesterday and spent the day together again.
i really think this could be something special, and i havent been this happy in a long time! i really do think this could be my first proper love
so im gonna go to bed now, goodnight and im gonna try and get some more regular updates going...
see y'all