Why is it
that when I think i have a leg up, things finally going my way, i was just false fucking hope and i get knocked down on the ground and trampled on.
someone said why are you so negative
well if something positive would happen and remain positive for a long time, i would not have the chance to be negative, However positive things are just a precursor for more negative feelings, I honestly believe that if there is a god he wakes up everyday and decides to fuck with me and make me happy for a minute then crash it down only to get me to slowly build up my trust and repeat. Its miserable everyday knowing someone is going to fuck with you, someone is going to build you up then crash you down, it hurts a lot