Austin0434

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from Nacogdoches, TX

  • Activity

    • Happy fourth everyone

      3 weeks ago

      Austin0434

      like many people before me I believe this holiday is to remember what it's worth being a little rebellious. Unfortunately I like many other have to work :( so ya. I'll talk to you lovely people later today peace

    • I need your help!!!

      3 weeks ago

      Austin0434

      I have an idea for a great Indy game but I don't know crap about coding. So who wants to help me I'll pitch my idea to anyone who wants to hear it. 

    • That old familiar sting....

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      Today been in a long time I felt pain in my left leg mostly my hip.

      For Those of you who don't know I have metal in my left hip been with for thirteen years. I revived this "gift" at age of eight, and today I finally pushed myself hard enough for it pop and grind against my skin. Good news I don't have to go to the hospital bad news I'm going to have to take it easy for today. I hate feeling older than what I am I'm twentyone an at times I feel like I'm seventy but my mind is as young as ever. I don't know who said this but it goes like this "old people are not wise because of their age it's because they were once young and stupid." I love that because believe or not I have a lot of wisdom maybe not knowledge I don't know people tell I'm smart but who knows. Either way I'll talk to you lovely people later goodnight good morning I love you all.

    • I'm going to regret this, but....

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      I decided it would be in my best interest to secluded myself from friends for awhile. I know it's not wise but I been feeling more and more lately I been not myself I want to be violent towards others and don't get wrong I'm not a good person but I don't want to just harm anyone so that's why I'm going to seclude myself from my friends and family. Please try not to join me to harshly 

    • I had a good day at work!!!

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      if you don't know I work at Wally-World aka Walmart. I'm cap team 2 that means I unload a truck or trucks and stock the shelves pull out palliots (sorry if I can't spell) and clean up the back room. Occasionally I get picked to push carts I don't mind because no managers on my ass and I enjoy the day I don't get to see. Well today I got to operate the forklift and I'm not even certified. Thought tell you all how happy that this little thing me so happy.

    • Call me Ishmael scratch that am a fool!!!

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      I been running from my past for way too long. I'm finally happy and for first time in awhile I don't know what to do with it besides live in the moment. Thought I share my happiness with you all. I love you and stay beautiful. Quick question I'm trying to expand my vocabulary and taste in hard liquor any words or drinks you have in mind? 

    • A thing someone once told

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      "people like you and me don't and will never receive true happiness."

      I never understood what they meant by that.

      But I do understand happiness isn't chased after that's how you get tired. I been walking a lot lately and I don't feel like doing it anymore but more like running and I don't know why.

      Maybe it's my blood or something more dark. I have been honest with you all but not to some not in my life. I lie because it's me hiding from my true self. I look in my eyes and you know what I see? A young man who has no idea what he's doing with friends and family that love him. Everyone tells they see greatness in me but where is it? I may be blind at times but I can still see and sense someone aura their glow. All feel with in me is nothing. I'm sorry for the dark post but I can't sleep. Love you all I'm going for a walk.

    • How are you lovely people?

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      I'm well it could be better and not be so damn hot. Upside I'm sweeting off my weight:) bad news none I'm just really sweaty. So how are you?

    • A little thing came to mind

      2 months ago

      Austin0434

      I never been one to show my true nature in front of anyone. I never really understood why but I guess to me shows weakness and I'm not ready to admit that I'm still in the dark though I'm no longer depressed I still been in this state of pondering of what or who I am. I'm afraid that I let my heart guides me too much. So there for I battle emotions with logic and love with pain. I should go to Hollywood and try my luck acting with how well I act fine but I'm secretly falling apart how I hide my true feelings under so many faces I can't even look at myself because I know I am not doing well. I tell you all these things not because I want to be accepted but more of as the record sits kinda per say. I love you all goodnight good morning and good day

    • Sorry I haven't been and news/life update

      2 months ago

      Austin0434

      I'm still working at Walmart and I finally got my paid raise. I lost my grandfather last month and I'm lost more than ever. I been dealing with depression for over the past few months but I finally found the light. But now im torn into a crossroads either go to college suck it up and be an adult and buy nothing but school esscientals I mean books and limit my budget by ten times as much or continue working and hope I achieve something better for me. I know in the end I can only choose the one best for me. But I'm not working and going to school not with my 32hrs shifts going on.

  • Comments (4)

    • StryfeRyder FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      1 year ago

      Merry Christmas mate, I hope you have an amazing new year!

      rwby___happy_holidays__2013_by_essynthes

      • Austin0434

        1 year ago

        Thanks and same too you.

    • Merksmirs FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      2 years ago

      Hey there! Thanks for always being around to chat to. My answers may be short most of the time, but it really brightens my day when I sign in and I have a message from you. Thanks for that

      • Austin0434

        2 years ago

        Thanks and i hope you know your messages mean the same to me. smiley1.gif

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