Austin0434

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from Nacogdoches, TX

  • Activity

    • Another Friday

      3 weeks ago

      Austin0434

      so I’m at the house doing nothing tried planning things no response from anyone so I slept I hope you all have a wonderful Friday I’ll be on later 

    • Hello

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      hello I'm just checking on everyone. How are you? I'm getting better. I'm still trying to find value in my life and know that sounds negative but as long as I can recall I never held myself with much worth I mean I sense people care about me but I never cared for me. I value others before myself and I don't know how to explain it. There are days I'm void of all emotional boundaries but I follow the unspoken rules of nature. I laugh because I don't know what to say or think about it because words are very substantial to what I actually mean. I been trying to choose my words carefully but sometimes they don't work out so well. So I'll make this long post short I love you all so very much there is greatness in you all. I'll be back on in a few hours until then 

    • Heading back home

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      well went to Austin it wasn’t bad wish I could stay longer than a few hours but maybe next time. I recommend going to the museum of the weird.

    • I'm heading to Austin Monday hoping to meet a couple of you guys let me know

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      first time in Austin looking forward to it let me know if you want to meet up I'll be there Monday I don't know when I'll return 

    • Been busy and gone for too long.

      1 month ago

      Austin0434

      well I’m sorry I was gone but I can’t stay for to long I’m dealing with a lot and I’m going to need my friends here to help me. For starters I’m trying to learn how to forgive and and not worry about others. Second like I said before getting old sure does suck My injuries are catching up with me. Third my Aunt is dying so there’s that I’ll share details later. Fourth I still haven’t found value in my life I don’t know maybe I’m going crazy? Fitfth I’m losing my friends I’m drifting more into loneliness but I know their is a light I just have to keep going. Sixth I still have my job lol but I hate it. Seventh my wonders more each day and am afraid I will not come back it’s been a year since I buried my grandfather my best friend I’m not going to tell you I will be fine because I’m not my world is less colorful I wake up go to work and repeat I’m in a rut I need change but I’ll admit I’m to lazy and unmotivated to do anything. It’s funny I been helping one my friends pull together and keep moving forward and I’m stuck in the past talking about a deadman no here knows nothing about or cares. I don’t drink my problems away or do anything all I do is walk or lay down and wonder. If anyone reads this thank you from to the bottom of my heart and I’ll try to get back on later I promise.

    • Good news I got my gun back

      5 months ago

      Austin0434

      So "who" ever stole returned it but as the report will say it magically appeared on my back AC unit

    • Well I just got robed

      5 months ago

      Austin0434

      don't worry I'm fine but someone end up stealing my new gun som I'm a little bummed up. I hope you all have a good day

    • I'm back

      5 months ago

      Austin0434

      thank you all who was there for me when I need  people the most. I'm trying to get back in posting on here and stay positive. Not going to lie it will be  difficult journey but I think with the help of the five amazing inviduals who helped me out I can do anything I wish I knew how to tag them but I'll just name them instead.

      StryfeRyder

      grenou

      KistyNocturn

      death5750

      IronBridge

    • Should I do post on here anymore?

      7 months ago

      Austin0434

      I mean I hate come off as a downer but does anyone actually reads these? Or am I just typing for a sea of space. Either way I'm feeling a mixture of things recently I gave up trying to hangout with some people and I also found my friend has cancer and no one told me I found out via text when I was asking them when will be a good time to get lunch and catch up on life and other things. I'm have moments when I feel like I'm alone and other times I am alone actually. I wish I could cry sometimes but it has been to long and I'm afraid that person is not with us anymore. I burned my notes on my experience of the human condition. I hope someone actually reads this and gives me good news because I really would like that. I love you all so much. I'll message more later today as for now I must think and sleep 

    • I'm surviving

      8 months ago

      Austin0434

      ladies and gentlemen at last my health issues are getting better I don't have so many nosebleeds and my coughing is getting a little bit better other than that my new hobby isn't exactly safe but are they really?

  • Comments (8)

    • IronBridge FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keeper of Knowledge

      1 month ago

      How you doing buddy?

      Haven’t heard from you in a while.

      Hope your doing okay.

      • Austin0434

        1 month ago

        Thank you for checking on me I’m trying to make it. Life is taking a good couple of jabs but I’m not down just yet

    • grenou

      10 months ago

      Checking in, m'man. Haven't seen any new posts from you in a while. 

      • Austin0434

        1 month ago

        Thank you I’m just trying to make it. I’ll live but my old wounds make new ones lol

    • StryfeRyder FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      2 years ago

      Merry Christmas mate, I hope you have an amazing new year!

      rwby___happy_holidays__2013_by_essynthes

      • Austin0434

        2 years ago

        Thanks and same too you.

    • Merksmirs FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTGermany Admin

      3 years ago

      Hey there! Thanks for always being around to chat to. My answers may be short most of the time, but it really brightens my day when I sign in and I have a message from you. Thanks for that

      • Austin0434

        3 years ago

        Thanks and i hope you know your messages mean the same to me. smiley1.gif

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