BeardOfZeus

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from Colwich, KS

  • Activity

    • I don't know where to put this.

      4 months ago

      BeardOfZeus

      I've started writing again, more for therapy than anything. I wrote a paragraph in the story that pulled from some all too real experiences. It feels authentic to how I feel sometimes, and was compelled to share it. So here it is.


      "I didn't move for a long time after that, just sitting half in my car, with my feet on the ground. My perception started to close around me as I started to take sharp, uneven breathes, the chorus of nature from the birds to the wind in the trees were muted and drowned by an almost electric hum seeming to come from miles away within myself. With clenched jaw, elevated heart rate, and immense blood pressure, I felt my body fold in on itself burying the hardened outside into my chest while simultaneously exposing raw nerves to the harsh outside in my back, shoulders, and neck. I tried to hold myself together with my right hand reaching across and grasping my side as my other hand rubbed my head feebly trying to comfort myself. The vibrant colors of the park started to lose their hue and the entire image began to compress, the edges of my vision became unintelligible, not dark, not blurry, just not being processed. I gazed down at the earth, my eyes focused a hundred miles down, trying to penetrate through the top crust with my stare. My eyes welled up, but never brimmed over, I hadn't the energy to cry, to bawl in anguish like a babe who doesn't understand the world... and every stimuli is foreign and confusing and painful. I whimpered softly to myself."


      I feel really exposed sharing this, but felt obligated, maybe someone could relate.

    • Level 7 guardian achieved.

      9 months ago

      BeardOfZeus

      I'll see y'all in August.

    • Well FU!

      1 year ago

      BeardOfZeus

      Apparently I missed I was Featured User yesterday, and now I'm sad I didn't get a screen grab of it. Maybe next time! 

    • Obligatory Guardian Acceptance Journal

      1 year ago

      BeardOfZeus

      Guardian Level 6 Achieved!


      Never actually received my acceptance letter. Which as you may imagine ran my anxiety through the roof, but nevermind that now, I'm just glad I get to work with amazing people again! I'm thankful for all the old friends I'll see and all the new ones I'll make in July!

    • The Division: Saving Christmas

      2 years ago

      BeardOfZeus

      So I made another video, this time from a new game! Constructive criticism welcome!



    • BattleBlock Theater

      2 years ago

      BeardOfZeus

      Finally edited and uploaded a video to youtube.


      If you have time let me know if you liked it or disliked it.



    • Resume

      2 years ago

      BeardOfZeus

      Just finished up updating my Resume.


      The reason for this has been a long time coming. Simply put I have not been happy at my job for the past year or so, which is fine, jobs are jobs, but I have also lost the sense of pride and accomplishment I once had. I haven't felt valued at all, and it really shows, my work ethic is something I am no longer proud of.


      The final straw that pushed me into updating my resume though was after I asked to be moved back to first shift so I can actually take care of my new puppy and not having to leave her at my parents house for days at a time because I get home to late. I was told very quickly no, even though I know my boss has moved several other people around.


      So now I am looking at a job closer to where I live in the same field (NDT for those of you who know what that is), and also possibly looking at a job at a brewery where my friend works, but it's an hours drive from where I live so that would suck...


      We will see what happens.


      -Jordan



    • 2 years ago

      BeardOfZeus
    • Lvl 5 guardian rank achieved... Also stuff

      2 years ago

      BeardOfZeus

      Hey all, how are you doing?


      So I just realised I never made a post Rtx 2015 journal. I feel it may be a little to late for this but I'm saying it anyway... I didn't have a good time last year, not because of the event or the people, more because I was 2 weeks into a very rough bout with my depression, I tried to make the best of it, put a smile on and kept going on. It was like I was a kid in a candy store who very quickly finds out that no matter what they try it all tastes like uncooked potatoes, while everyone is having a great time.

      The only reason I bring this up is for my friends, both old and new ones, I was not the best me I could be and I hope I didn't inadvertently damage any friendships (anxiety tells me I must have). So where is this train of thought going? Haha I don't know but I hope this year is all about health for me, physically yes but mostly mentally.


      Also I miss you all... Hugs and such!

      -Jordan

    • Test streams

      3 years ago

      BeardOfZeus

      Hey me and my friends are tying out streaming some fibbage and drawful!

      Come join us, there may be room for you to play too!! http://www.twitch.tv/genuinejordan

      Thanks guys!

  • Comments (48)

    • aeon1 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold aeon1

      1 year ago

      Happy FU Day! 

    • Desayjin FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Guardian Emeritus

      1 year ago

      Happy FU day!

    • OsageOrange

      1 year ago

      Happy Featured User Day!

    • Toptoast FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keeper of the Breakfast

      2 years ago

      Hello!

      • BeardOfZeus

        2 years ago

        Why hello new friend! (unless I met you at RTX and then you would indeed be considered an old friend) Thank you for the add!

      • Toptoast FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keeper of the Breakfast

        2 years ago

        I haven't been to RTX, so I'm guessing being an old friend is impossible! Hello, new friend!

    • supertits No Longer Super!

      4 years ago

      Hey Jordan! You are fucking awesome.

    • deadsnake01 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      BAM Greatest picture ever.
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      I'm happy I got to meet you this weekend. You are a prime example of the awesome people in this community.

      • BeardOfZeus

        5 years ago

        #BananaEnvy

      • deadsnake01 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        5 years ago

        lol I honestly can say I have never heard that one before but on an important note this shows that the Bananamen are growing and soon we shall take over the world.

      • BeardOfZeus

        5 years ago

        Such kind words! On another note I am slightly jealous because your banana looks a tad bigger and more erect :/

    • JJ FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Hey Jordan! thanks for the add...diggin that default @joker239 did a great job

      • BeardOfZeus

        5 years ago

        Ya man, I look forward to seeing more stuff out, and keep doing what your doing.
        I also strongly encourage to check more of his stuff out!

    • Izzman

      5 years ago

      My house sat night for nathans 21st btw.

      • BeardOfZeus

        5 years ago

        I will be there if I dont have to drive my mom up to see my sister saturday.

    • aeon1 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold aeon1

      5 years ago

      Hey man how are you! Currently home sick bleh

    • aeon1 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold aeon1

      5 years ago

      guardian app out. you?

      • BeardOfZeus

        5 years ago

        Good! I have been working way to much it seems, although I have gotten a couple raises this fall, so that makes it a little more ok.
        Not much of anything has been going on besides looking for some better paying jobs and apartments.
        How about yourself?

      • aeon1 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold aeon1

        5 years ago

        how life been treating you man

      • BeardOfZeus

        5 years ago

        Just submitted it!

        Now we play the waiting game to see if we were picked....

    • Izzi

      6 years ago

      Didn't realize it was still there, but I had the stout you brought for the exchange still in my fridge. I thought I had finished them all. So I'm going to drink it tonight while watching the livestream podcast.

      • BeardOfZeus

        6 years ago

        I'm glad it is being put to good use! And thank you for reminding me I have a beer or 2 left from that in the fridge, going to follow your lead and grab one myself while the podcast is going!

    • aeon1 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold aeon1

      6 years ago

      good deed of the day bro. next time sponsor yourself if you can smiley4.gif

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Thanks so much !!!! Really appreciate the kind word, means the world to me. So glad that you are enjoying the music smiley0.gif

    • Connor

      6 years ago

      Nice. Hope to see you there, man!

    • Connor

      6 years ago

      Friday through Monday.

    • Connor

      6 years ago

      Yeah, I snagged a ticket the second they went on sale. Even got a hotel! Just gotta get a plane ticket now..

    • HelloApril Not Kakarot

      6 years ago

      I know for a fact I am going to fail one of them. My political science class. I thought the astronomy course I took my freshman year was bad. This one doesn't compare. At least in that class our professor actually tried teaching us something. Aaaanyyywayyyy.... I'm just here to keep it real. smiley7.gif
      Well, it's a three-part job. I work at Subway/Juice it Up!/Sammy's Market. They're in the same building, so I work at all three. Guess which uniform we have to wear, though? smiley7.gif

    • Connor

      6 years ago

      Hello to you too, sir! I've been doing rather well! Pretty eager to be done with this semester! Summer ahoy!

    • HelloApril Not Kakarot

      6 years ago

      That's good to hear. I'm with you there on the slacking off part. smiley7.gif This semester has been....interesting. It doesn't really feel like much has been going on at school. My classes this semester were....well, not the usual. I don't know how else to put it.
      I have been pretty well, thanks! Just been working a lot and going to school. Then trying to relax and chill any time in between.

    • HelloApril Not Kakarot

      6 years ago

      Hello there, sir! What are thou up to? How has thee been? Words words words. Type type type.

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      6 years ago

      Greetings, fellow RTX Guardian! smiley13.gif

    • Connor

      6 years ago

      Thank you for the beard compliment sir! I get another three months to see how it turns out!
      And sorry for the confusion with the name and the picture haha

      • Connor

        6 years ago

        My heart goes out to you.

      • BeardOfZeus

        6 years ago

        haha it's quite alright.
        I shall try and upload some photos of my new shirts soon and then my beard will also be there, but sadly... i can not grow a mustache :/

    • HelloApril Not Kakarot

      6 years ago

      Nothing. ...Yet.
      I also don't know what I mean by that.

    • HelloApril Not Kakarot

      6 years ago

      Damn youuuuuu!

    • HelloApril Not Kakarot

      6 years ago

      Very well then! ...But if I have an off game, and I get last, forgive me!

    • Connor

      6 years ago

      All good things to know. After this weekend, I'm gonna have really odd times because I go back to school and back to work.

    • Connor

      6 years ago

      Ah! Too bad! But yeah, that sounds good! There's a whole new batch of achievements that I have to get now anyway! smiley13.gif Why not make it a hunt with a friend! smiley13.gif

    • Connor

      6 years ago

      Saw that you had signed up for AC Revelations! Wish we could have played together smiley13.gif

    • HelloApril Not Kakarot

      6 years ago

      Indeed, it was!
      Aw. Haha. I've mostly been playing snipers, so I guess it helped my game some. smiley6.gif

    • BeardOfOdin

      6 years ago

      Am I do this right?

    • Miles FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Miles

      7 years ago

      And don't you forget it.



      lol nah seriously, that's funny

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