BlueWildfire

Male
from Genoa, IL

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    • This Thing On?

      5 days ago

      BlueWildfire

      So its been quite a while since my last journal entry, think at least 3 years? Well, whatever the amount of time I'm back. I was away for a while because I grew apart from Roosterteeth and Achievement Hunter, mostly because of school and my social life, as well as growing up a bit. During all that I started to think that it wasn't appropriate for me somehow to be watching their content anymore... but now I'm on my own, out of high school and in the military. I've had a huge perspective change since the last time I was on here, and I want to start getting back into what i used to love, and part of that is Roosterteeth. Lately I've been thinking and I've been feeling detached... I don't want to say depressed because i don't want to take away from the meaning that that word has for some people. Its because of this that I've decided to get back in touch with what makes me happy. I've been feeling like I'm slipping away from how I used to think, how I used to behave, and sometimes thats a good thing, but I don't think its a good thing this time. I'm 1500 miles away from home, I have little to no social life, I started "dating" on Tinder, going on Craigslist for casual encounters and engaging in other "risky behavior". When I take a step back and look at the person I'm becoming, I'm not impressed. last month i spent about $400 on cam girls.... like that's just not okay. I joined the Marine to become a part of something that's bigger than I am, to make a difference, and to help people. One of the selling point for me was that they say "some people spend an entire lifetime wondering if they've made a difference, but Marines don't have that problem." Well, every morning I wake up and wonder if I'm there yet, if I'm making a difference yet, and maybe in some ways I am, but not the kind of difference I want to be making. That being said, I love being a Marine, it's become part of who I am because of the struggle that I went through to earn the title, and I hold it with Honor, I just don't particularly agree with the Corps 100% of the time, and a lot of the time it seems just like any other job, but I want to be doing good. So as of my current mindset, I most likely won't reenlist, and after I'm out I think that I'll go into either firefighting or the police force because I still want to serve, but I want to be able to see the difference that I'm making. My childhood dream (when i was like 12-15 that is) was that I wanted to work for Roosterteeth, to go and learn how to edit and produce videos that people would love and might help bring someone back from the edge, and that was how i wanted to make a difference... but now I see that that might have been a kind of foolish dream filled with childhood imagination and backed by the "special snowflake" idea. Finally, I'm comingback here because I need somewhere to vent, somewhere that people don't know me personally, and somewhere that people have similar mindsets to my own. I'm going to try to get back into step with myself, to try to surround myself with good people, and to give back more than I take.

    • :(

      3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      This morning I woke up to find that my bird has passed away, as he was laying on the bottom of the cage. I'm sad to see him go, although I was somewhat expecting him to go soon because his sister had just died a year and a half ago. The were old birds, I've had them since 4th grade and I am now in 10th. They have been a part of my life for about half my life, and they will be missed.
      R.I.P.- Cloud the Bird
      R.I.P.- Spirit the Bird

    • Finals...

      3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      Well, if you don't know what finals are, they are the end of semester tests covering everything that you learned during that semester. That being said, I'm totally screwed. Every time I had homework over the semester, I pretty much just didn't do it, either because it was too long and I didn't feel like it, or I was doing something more important at the time... like browsing the RT site or playing video games. So now I'm pretty much cramming and studying like hell for finals... except for right now of course, this is more important. But anyway, wish me luck!

    • Creepin...

      3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      Ok, so it may be kind of weird, but I'm going back through all of Ray's journal entries... I know that you may be thinking, "But why?" Well, he's obviously a successful guy, so I thought why not get to know the struggles he faced as he was going through his life. And what better way to do that than go read his journals, from beginning to end. For those of you wondering I'm on page 50 of 78, going backwards. So far I gotta say... pretty depressing at times, while at others uplifting as he achieves his goals. It's kinda like an autobiography...

    • Bored...

      3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      So I'm gonna just go re-watch all of Season 1 of RvB...

    • UPDATE!

      3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      So, I was scrolling through my Milestones, when I noticed that I had not yet gotten the "Have 50 Friends" Milestone. I then scrolled back up to my Friends. It said I had 66. Well, it turns out you have to update your Milestones manually. So I did that, and I got a notification in the right-hand corner of my screen saying, "You have new Awards!" I look at the time stamp and it says "4 Years Ago". Well, its good to know that I'm a Time Lord...

    • Happy Thanksgiving! (In the USA)

      3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      Ok, so I know level 15 isn't much for a lot of people, but it's obviously more than I've ever had. At the time of me writing this, I'm not yet at level 15, but I believe this Journal will bring me over. But that's not the only reason I'm writing this. I've been a fan of RT (and AH) for about 2 years now. Those 2 years have been filled with the laughs and joy that their content brings to me, so I just want to say thank you to all the Cast & Crew for producing such great videos!

    • New Primary!

      3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      So, I just updated my Primary photo, which was made by ImACreep of the site. She has some really cool stuff that everyone should check out, all of which you can find here:

      Twitter: UniformInsanity
      Instagram: UniformInsanity
      Youtube: UniformInsanity

      And here's my new Primary:
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    • 3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      Where is the fucking warning that says "this is irreversible"? (Found this on Reddit, thought I'd share my childhood)
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    • Awesomeness!

      3 years ago

      BlueWildfire

      O.K., so I almost forgot about this. Yesterday in French 150 I had just sat down when I hear the words "Rooster Teeth". I turn around to see who it came from, and lo and behold it came from a classmate that I had been sitting next to for about 3 months! I'm so excited that I found another fan that I just interject and say, "Rooster Teeth? As in 'Going cakeless!' Rooster Teeth?" And then the person behind her speaks up and says, "Dude, they are so funny!" I found two new people to share my excitement with in one day! French class is going to now be the BEST class of the day!

  • Comments (5)

    • Shinny

      3 years ago

      Hey Wildfire, Thx for the add and welcome!
      I don't know you and you don't know me, but that's about to change.
      I'm Mr. Shinny, Godfather of the Confetti Mobsters

      • Shinny

        3 years ago

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      • BlueWildfire

        3 years ago

        Unless I have a long-lost brother that I don't know about, no.

      • Shinny

        3 years ago

        Alright, I'll be sure to remember your blue, is there a RedWildfire?

      • BlueWildfire

        3 years ago

        Thanks for the welcome, looking forward to the change, and I'm BlueWildfire (just in case you didn't know)

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