Jillers

Female
from Staten Island, NY

    • Jillers

      RTSQ Community Content

      6 months ago

      hey whoever actually reads this and is going to RTX

      A short video I made is going to be in the RTSQ Community Content showing on Thursday at The Alamo Drafthouse Ritz along with a bunch of other awesome content made by amazingly talented members of this community!

      I won't be able to go but if any of you can you should! Not only to see my video but to support everyone else in the RT Fandom that is getting their stuff shown.

      You need tickets so get them while you can (they're free!) http://rtsidequest.ticketbud.com/rtsq-presents-com...




    • Jillers

      Rest in Peace

      1 year ago

      To The Rooster Teeth Community -

      I'm sorry to have been away from this community so long and come back only to bad news.
      I'm gutted. Not nearly as gutted as those who knew him personally. I know what it's like to lose someone close to you, suddenly. And there is nothing that I can say that will make everything better - not that any of those will see this of course. But should they stumble across my little area over here, should any of you reading this be struck with the sudden loss of a loved one, then I can only offer you this:
      They say time heals all wounds, and that's a lie. You will never get over this. In fact, for the next year or so, you'll be looking over your shoulder, expecting him to be there, and be struck with that death all over again. You will cry until your eyes hurt, and you pass out, only to wake up thinking they're right there, and cry again. Everything will seem fine, and suddenly you'll realize, for no reason, that they're gone, forever.
      You'll handle your own thoughts about death as best you can, rationalize it, come to grips with whether there is or isn't an afterlife, and then doubt your ideas time after time.
      It's going to suck. And you're never going to stop missing them

      But somewhere, down the road. It will stop hurting. There will be a scar, and that's forever. You'll never forget them, and you'll always feel cheated that they missed out on this. But you won't feel sad. You'll tell a story about them, and it makes you laugh, or smile, and in a way they are still alive in that moment, and it doesn't hurt, and the memories don't hurt, and it's ok.

      Somewhere down the line, and it will vary for everyone, you'll be ok again.

      For now though. Mourn. Don't let anyone tell you you're doing it wrong, because there's no one way to mourn. The stages are a lie, because they don't happen neatly. They come when they want to, and sometimes all at once, and sometimes acceptance isn't the end, but that's all ok.

      But for his wife, and his family who lost someone way too early. Please remember that you will need to move on at some point. Please don't get trapped in your misery. It seems harsh. But it's understandable. Please remember that at some point you have to say goodbye to all those things you were holding on to.

      Because what we're really mourning is that this wonderful human being will not get to experience more life. The memories, however, don't change. They will always a warm and wonderful part of you. That are excruciating to bear sometimes, but a wonderful burden because that person is yours in your heart forever.

      There's a quote. A quote I love. It's from East of Eden. And sometimes when I am so missing my dad that it hurts, I think about it, and that fiery sharp bit of me that is irrational and could lash out at anything is soothed for a moment at least. It says: "It seems to me that if you or I must choose between two courses of thought or action, we should remember our dying and try so to live that our death brings no pleasure on the world."

      Monty's death has brought no joy to the world, and so we can soothe ourselves at least knowing that he was intensely loved by so many people. He shone brightly. And we miss him, but his life is something to be celebrated.

      With all my love,
      Jill

    • Jillers

      Netflix, you're weird

      1 year ago

      "Because you liked Red vs. Blue and Mock the Week, we suggest you watch Auschwitz: Inside the Nazi State"

    • Jillers

      1 year ago

      WOOO! Internet in the apartment now! I've missed you RT, and internet

    • Jillers

      1 year ago

      In London. That is all

    • Jillers

      1 year ago

      On the one hand, this shit aint my problem anymore. On the other, it's all my shit. And this is why you don't put off packing for moving to ANOTHER COUNTRY until the night before.
      Oh, hey internet. Why don't I spend hours on you instead of doing anything else.

    • Jillers

      1 year ago

      In 24 hours, I will be 46 minutes into a plane ride to England.

    • Jillers

      1 year ago

      Billy Joel is the best and worst thing to listen to when you are feeling very sentimental for NYC. And when you've had the realization that this is the last time you will see Manhattan for a while, and New York State of Mind starts playing as you cross the Verrazano for, also, the last time... it's hard to keep it together.
      And by you, I mean me. Because that is how this night came to an end. It was a very good night. But it was also a very sad night.
      This is going to be a very good, but very sad, weekend.

    • Jillers

      1 year ago

      I desire nothing more in life than to be this pug in a ballpit

    • Jillers

      1 year ago

      Is it possible to be homesick before you've even left home?

  • Comments (61)

    • brittbraylor

      1 year ago

      Happy FU x2 smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • LeoHashee Hausmate

      1 year ago

      Congats on being FU! :D

    • ailsarocks Fashion Jedi

      1 year ago

      Woo! Happy FU Daaaaay! smiley0.gif

    • LadyOddDuck RTX 2016 Guardian!

      1 year ago

      Happy FU Day again! (When's it going to be my turn? *sniff*)

      • Jillers

        1 year ago

        I'm just going to assume this is a mistake, and roll with it.

    • Bosence

      1 year ago

      Congratulations on being FU'd!

    • KortBlueEyes

      1 year ago

      happy featured user day my dear and may it be awesome!!! smiley0.gif

    • Kythrae Creator

      1 year ago

      Happy FU Day smiley0.gif

    • IdkBlue Praise Newbs

      1 year ago

      merry featured user day!

    • Bellzebob

      1 year ago

      Congrats on being Featured User!

    • Gar_Hardt

      1 year ago

      Look at you and your face being all featured user. Congrats!

    • sedahren

      1 year ago

      Woo, featured user! Go you!

    • JDunlap The Dude

      1 year ago

      Happy FU!

    • Cpt_Raygun

      1 year ago

      Congrats on being featured. I hear it's a great honor.

    • ahbrody

      1 year ago

      Bow before the great Featured User

    • sunyshore queenie

      1 year ago

      HAPPY FU DAYYYY!! smiley9.gifsmiley9.gif

    • NeutralGreen

      1 year ago

      Happy FU Day! smiley13.gif

    • Kiwi OCC Time Lord

      1 year ago

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      HAPPY FU DAY smiley11.gifsmiley11.gifsmiley11.gif

    • Bellzebob

      1 year ago

      Congrats on being Featured User!

    • IdkBlue Praise Newbs

      1 year ago

      Merry FU day!

    • MysticSnipes The Doctor

      1 year ago

      Happy FU Day!!!

    • AsianFTW

      1 year ago

      Happy FU Day
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    • scottster246

      1 year ago

      Congrats on the FU Jill smiley7.gif

    • LadyOddDuck RTX 2016 Guardian!

      1 year ago

      Happy FU day!

    • Stuart

      1 year ago

      Yay for being featured user!! That's awesome and so are you smiley1.gif

    • sedahren

      1 year ago

      Be my valentine! In a purely platonic, awesome friend type way XD

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    • brittbraylor

      1 year ago

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    • nessarose

      1 year ago

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      I admireth thy loveth f'r theatre and shakespeare. Ye art such a kickass individual and I cannot waiteth to shareth many moo shakespearean conv'rsations with thou. Happy Valentine's Day Jill! smiley1.gif

      • Jillers

        1 year ago

        I just want to say that this made me laugh more than I think anything ever should.

        I mean...
        Upon this image did mine eyes linger, and lingering so sent shivers to my very soul that shook me in convulsions so loud, it were like a demon possessed. smiley8.gif

    • LadyOddDuck RTX 2016 Guardian!

      1 year ago

      On this great day of St. Valentine, my duck army and I cordially offer you a day of peace. We are noble and righteous enough to acknowledge your great prowess in video/audio editing and providing humorous commentary, and always appreciate your willingness to step in when you can. Happy Valentine’s Day!

      This comment brought to you by the Warm Fuzzies Project. Now go spread the love. smiley12.gif

    • scottster246

      1 year ago

      Jill, happy valentines day

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    • Joel

      2 years ago

      Ok. Where'd you get the gif?

      • Jillers

        2 years ago

        The pug or the gif?

      • Joel

        2 years ago

        I want it.

      • Jillers

        2 years ago

        I don't remember! I saw it one day and thought "I will need this in the future" because. I mean. Wampa pug...(wampug?). How is that not going to come up in my life?

    • LoadedInOwls

      2 years ago

      Loving the Girls Play videos! Especially since I play a lot of those kinds of games in my spare time. What can I say, I'm a bit of a masochist. but hey, you keep doing it too. Anyway, yeah! funny!

    • PinksTheWord

      2 years ago

      I just looked through my friends list, and you know what?.. No Jillers on there. *sadness* This is an easy fix, eh? ;D

    • TheForge

      7 years ago

      So I heard you like to RP? I'm trying to gather all the RPers I can find on the site into a think tank thread.
      the S&D thread. a place where you can:
      1) Learn what RPing is and how to do it / become better at it.
      2) Find an RP to join or RPers to join your RP.
      3) Bring your RP ideas for comments, suggestions or just to square it off for posting.
      4) Discuss Design, Characters or Arcs for new or existing RPs.
      5) Work on your character sheet so it can be approved.

      You may also be interested in the Asylum.

    • chihirosan

      7 years ago

      Bioshock ftw. Glad to know that I'm not the only girl that's pwned that game (assuming you're enjoying it) :D

    • Knuckles_D

      7 years ago

      Ehhh, there are probably worse people in the world to punch when you're drunk... or at all...


      That almost sounds like a compliment.

    • jack I Like Lego

      7 years ago

      You may be on to something with your big glasses == small boobs theory. I will research it more and get back to you.

    • Demotros

      7 years ago

      Basically I'm two people.

      I just said you should be more worried about kittens than zombies.

      I've got a great deal of wisdom coming from dragons, and a head full of fluff coming from kittens... Its nice having thick skin underneath and being soft on the outside. Five sharp ends.

    • Demotros

      7 years ago

      I'm not impossible. Just improbable. And as I think I mentioned... that says a lot more about me than the sum of the words convey at face value.

      Being half kitten makes me random, and being half demon makes me chaotic.

      Nifty. I tried dating a pirate once... but being ninja and seeing as how ninja and pirates are mortal enemies, it didn't work out so well. You don't have to be afraid though, I'm much too far away to be of any danger.

    • Demotros

      7 years ago

      You obviously didn't look at my profile.

      I'm half kitten half dragon, half demon, and half ninja.... I guess you work for me. I like tuna and string.

      Wow... I can't believe I'm a kitten stereotype...

    • Demotros

      7 years ago

      You should be more worried about kittens... Zombies are just misunderstood... humans think they are evil because they eat humans... You can't define something as evil just because it needs to eat... does that make humans evil since we eat most other species on the planet?

      Now kittens... how can something be that adorable all the time? I'll tell you how. We're plotting.

      Be afraid.

    • Jillers

      7 years ago

      Hey, me again, from the future.
      Blue button.
      ... You'll know what I mean...

    • stew1617

      7 years ago

      Hey, what's up?

    • jack I Like Lego

      7 years ago

      Or a male nurse.

    • jack I Like Lego

      7 years ago

      That would be a horrible way to spend a trip away from home...getting punched by a trannie.

    • jack I Like Lego

      7 years ago

      Is Dominique a male or female? ...or both?

    • bobthebuilde

      8 years ago

      Yes, you are a winner

    • bobthebuilde

      8 years ago

      Staten Island ftw. One of my most favorite authors lived there

    • Xorda

      8 years ago

      Well, "Do you and your workplace both use Microsoft PC's" will be my first question to help you, small mortal.

      --The Internet Gods

    • blaze1221

      8 years ago

      You have some nice drawings here. Hey, go to my journal on my page. Check out whats it says, and i think, the artist you are, will contribute to it. Thanks.

      ~AW

    • Bryy

      8 years ago

      In reply to Jillers, #32:

      So what were people'd opinions on the last episode - I thought it was a case of lazy writing myself.


      Why? I thought it was rather good and clever of them.

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