It's been 9 months since I complained that I couldn't post/upload photos since the "update" rolled in. Well I guess they finally fixed it. Was I suppose to be dedicated to this site when they couldn't fix the simple ability to upload photos onto your account?
This site made me find a lot of friends who I still keep in contact with, who I see in person.
But they're not here on this site anymore.
This site made me find a best friend, one who I fell in love with and got married to.
But he's not really on this site anymore either.
I want to still be a part of this community but I bet you anything only 1 person on my entire friends list will even see this journal and respond to it. My sense of community is lost. It has been for a while. And I feel like, because I'm not a 13 year old boy, this site is no longer dedicated to me (who am I kidding, it was never dedicated to the female gender in the first place).
I ridiculously bought a 2 or 5 year sponsorship (I dont remember).... thats how dedicated I thought I was going to be (and I thought I could use COLOUR font forever, but I guess we can't have that huh?). I still love some of their shows like RWBY and Red vs Blue (though I'm not up to date on RvB). And I dont think I'll even check in on Achievement Hunter since I doubt they cleaned themselves up (abelist, sexist, rape-like lingo that they use).
*sigh I wish I could travel back in time, to when I spent hours on this site. Making friends, talking to them, joking and making memories. Now thats all they are, memories.
I will always be grateful to this site, because of the friends I've made and for the partner I found in life, but.... I'm exhausted just being on this site. It use to be a easy, I would slip in to this site no problem, now I feel like I'm in a giant cross-walk. There are tons of people walking past me, but it's silent because I know nobody and I try to connect with them, but it turns out they're all just teens and pre-teens looking at the weird adult like wtf you doing here?
And I guess that's the question. What the fuck am I doing here?