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35 years old
Male
from Delafield, WI

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    • Change of plans

      2 months ago

      Kythrae Creator

      I find I am tired more lately.  Tired of trying to make sense of the world, tired of planning a path I am unsure will even continue, and mostly tired of reading anger.  I was once a very angry person and while I did not always feel justification for my anger, I never let it spread beyond me if I could help it.  I am not sure why I do it to myself, but I keep reading comments on both biased and just plain factual articles and it is always the same.


      Just anger, unbridled anger at ideas, people, and the world in general.  I have decided to stop with reading comments altogether, even if I think a discussion is needed, because there is no longer a point.  I am not going to generalize it and say all of America/the world is like this, but it is clear that discussion is no longer the point.  


      It has become about the loudest voice, the most vitriol, or the most debasing one.  I am feeling far older than my 35 years and I just feel tired all the time.  I can't argue anymore, I can't even hope anymore.  I am fine for myself, but if you gave me the option to just hop a starship and go, I would not even ask a destination.  


      I am going to focus on my stories, focus on worlds I wish could be or might yet be.  I am going to stop looking for rational discourse because I can no longer find it.  I am a fallible creature and relish challenging my ideas, but now it matters not what is true, false, or even just an opinion.  All that matters is you "win."  I would love to know how that is defined because much like ordering pizza, there seems to be as many answers as people.


      I think I will have far more regrets about things I did not do or that I screwed up because the odds of ever finding such times again seems to have vanished before my eyes.  I go back to my dreams, I walk with a midnight blade, tattooed flesh, golden eyes, or see the world fall into Mist.  I go back to seeing what the Guyver and Ryuko can get up to.


      Most of all I just walk away from what was once a source of ideas and now I can only stick to my safe roads of entertainment.  Rooster Teeth remains a bastion for me, but it was once one of many, now I feel like it is a scattering of starlight in a morass of darkness.  Maudlin perhaps, but right now I just feel tired.

    • Stupid drivers

      5 months ago

      Kythrae Creator

      So....I was coming home and we have roundabouts up here in Wisconsin, for years on this one.  I have been on it literally hundreds of times and had zero issues.  Even when a semi too big for it has to do curb roll, they do it as safely as possible.


      Tonight, it was me and 2 other cars rolling and a dude comes at me HEAD ON!  He honked at us and nearly ran into me as I swerved out of the way and he executed an illegal turn while flipping me off.  I thank the 2 drivers behind me for NOT running into me but now I am tuned up and downing whiskey.


      It is times like this I wish I had a girlfriend or friend to talk me down at home or nearby.  I may be doing stupid texts later, God help people.

    • Sigh...I hate good intentions sometimes

      1 year ago

      Kythrae Creator

      This will be short. I won a wee bit of money on Powerball tonight (did not break even but better than 0). This makes the 2nd time in as many attempts as I wind something. I had the sad comparison to online dating come up to Powerball. Essentially I have a random set of characters strung together in messages, profiles, and selection of characteristics to put out there trying to fine the "winning" combination.


      My friends felt it was time to try this online roulette wheel as I have been the solo amigo for too long in all their opinions. I have not given much of a shit but also live by the credo: Never hurts to see what can happen. Well what I learned is that there are apparently no human women on 3 apps I have used for the last 3 months. The 60 or so phishing bots were in fact the ONLY responses I got.


      For those I have learned that never had this lesson taught to them...in the dark days of early chatrooms and internet, there were either asshole programs or scumbags themselves trying to get your email/info to use for the usual reasons. They graduated to more lazy identity theft later in cyberlife when records went fully digital I am sure.


      These things still fucking exist of course and are the only interaction I have had across 3 popular options for the hermit loners of the world. So while I have indulged the whim of my friends, I am going back to my life of not giving a shit and will always remember...I was made to be single or I would try harder. It is possible I will recant this later when I am not steaming mad from the idiocy of the world, but I doubt it.

    • 1 year ago

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    • Vacation

      1 year ago

      Kythrae Creator

      Although I have been VERY bad about chatting with people on the site, many apologies. Just wanted to give heads up I will be flat out gone for the next week on vacation to see family, friends, and whiskey....the whiskey may be at all the locations I go but we are Irish so no problems there. Be safe all and of course continue to be awesome. smiley0.gifsmiley13.gif

    • Internetbox...wins for 3rd time

      1 year ago

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      I have just finished looking at all the comments and visited the IB page, who am I kidding I loop some of my favorite ones just for laughs at work!! Still, after all the requests to fans to get us to vote I can't help but picture all the IB cast just mouths dropped open that they won again. Whatever the future, or lack there of, I think it was well deserved. Every year that panel reduced me to tears, and Andrew's hotel video will live in infamy. smiley0.gif

    • Official Guide

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    • Twitch Recommendation

      2 years ago

      Kythrae Creator

      www.twitch.tv/punkytay

      Got invited to this last night and was VERY entertained. Keep an eye out for her. smiley0.gif

    • Time to concede

      2 years ago

      Kythrae Creator

      Clearly I do not possess whatever quality it is to attempt to date a lass. Even my wording should make that clear. Thankfully this is not a pity party post, just a concession that I need to get help and admit I am powerless alone to just be with a woman. Sad that it took me 1/3 of my life to work it out, so much time wasted and opportunities burned behind me. Course one thing I DO know to work on is my own health...let it slip for various real and imagined reasons...none such exist anymore (thankfully). Back to square one but already on the path for that. To sum up...I am tired of being idiot who is alone because he wants to do everything himself. smiley3.gif

    • The little things

      2 years ago

      Kythrae Creator

      Never sure how this day will go, it is not a bad day, but it is a reminder of one of my worse ones. I should be celebrating the birth of my baby sister today, and I may still. The only problem is, no matter the memories shared or the joy found....she can never be there. I ever find the idiot that coined "Time heals all wounds" and I will knock his lights out. I delved into heroes tonight, I needed to believe in them again because the world can be far too cruel sometimes. Just rambling exhaustion here, but before I go, the thing I miss the most is her unshakable ability to pick the ONE topic you never want to discuss, and wheedle away until you give in to her. She would have made a great negotiator...if the point of it was to drive your opposition into submission with blackmail of embarrasing stories.

      Happy Birthday little one...I miss you even down all these years.

  • About Me

    If you can read it, watch it, or hear it and it has some kind of entertainment value, and little to no factual information, I probably like it. Except that fucking Twilight...my checklist for Time Travel now includes undoing that unholy series.

    From my profile pic I am both a Doctor Who fan primarily and like being creative. If you are looking for someone to talk about the wide world of Sci Fi or fantasy, even writing in general...bring it on. Insert evil laugh here.

  • Comments (18)

    • Cecelia_9 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      1 year ago

      Hey! Let's Catch up!

    • Caszie FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Fishy Queen

      2 years ago

      Thank you for wishing me a happy FU day!! smiley0.gif

      • Kythrae FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Creator

        2 years ago

        No problem at all

    • AMingDynasty FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      3 years ago

      I love your TARDIS picture!

      • AMingDynasty FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        3 years ago

        That sounds awesome, who is your fav Doctor, companion, episode?

      • Kythrae FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Creator

        3 years ago

        Can't claim Whovian status (despite great collection) my father on the other hand....that man could walk onto the show and just go....he even has weird ability to do accents I don't think are possible normally...it is really not fair smiley8.gif

      • AMingDynasty FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        3 years ago

        A true Whovian would never abbreviate Doctor smiley8.gif

        But I love meeting fans so we can discuss a lot!

      • Kythrae FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Creator

        3 years ago

        Glass Garden stone = 3 hrs of proving I really am a Dr Who nerd smiley8.gif

    • Barbara FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      3 years ago

      Hey- the event you submitted would be more appropriate on our community projects section. It's closed at the moment so we can catch up on the ones submitted, but will open again within a few days!

      • Kythrae FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Creator

        3 years ago

        Understood and will remember for future, TY

    • jillen triangle??

      4 years ago

      Oh, yes. THE god of triangles.
      I've been asked a lot, haha. I just think triangles are great and I like the way it sounds.

      • jillen triangle??

        4 years ago

        That is fantastic smiley1.gif

      • Kythrae FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Creator

        4 years ago

        appeared in my head

      • Kythrae FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Creator

        4 years ago

        For some reason the classic line to Ray Stanz, "If someone asks if you are a God, you say YES!" smiley0.gif

    • Bagradash

      4 years ago

      minecraft.jinrah.com :)

    • peej216

      5 years ago

      and you just made my day with quoting doctor who smiley8.gif

      • Kythrae FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Creator

        5 years ago

        I can quote damn near anything from Pertwee, T Baker, and Sylvester onwards. Before DVDs and Blu Ray vanish I am trying to make my most complete collection of the adventures I want.

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