Matt_Ryan Russian Czar

Male
from New York State

  • Activity

    • Internet

      1 year ago

      Matt_Ryan

      Its been four months since I've had actual internet at my home, at the moment im using my neighbor's (which is actually legal).
      Firstly, this past week has been very eventful, I've gotten a new laptop (i7 intel, 2.4 Ghz, 8gb ram) and have successfully made and edited 4 youtube videos so far (which i will upload next week) for a total of 730 dollars for the laptop (open box from best buy) i say thats a sweet deal since it runs for 1,099.99$ on the Lenovo website where i planned to get it originally.

      I also discovered that the only internet company I can get in this area is Time Warner Cable/Comcast

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      But i was able to get one of THE best packages (that they offer in my area of Central New York) so that basically makes it perfectly okay, but we'll see. I did have to pay off my grandfathers past due bill so that sucked, but worth it.

      That concludes to what the title is really about, I actually get internet tomorrow (Saturday) at like 5pm est so whoop whoop!

      TL;DR: I get internet saturday provided by time warner. :D

      Also be sure to check out my gross face on my gross youtube: CZAR Enko
      I'll be uploading a Minecraft (ew what am i 10 again??) series for this weeks video theme!



    • Pictures

      1 year ago

      Matt_Ryan

      SOOOO, if you didnt know, which only a select few actually would, my IPod didn't work ALL of RTX so I had to buy a disposable camera and I finally developed the film.... only to discover that HALF of the pictures didnt even develope, either FujiFilms sucks butt or Rite Aid does, I don't know which, but at least I have a semi cool photo of the Capitol building.... but not of the inside, gg me.

    • Scared

      2 years ago

      Matt_Ryan

      Okay, aside from the whole Hype post. I am hella scared.

      This will be the first time in 5 years ive been away from my grandparents for more than a week.
      And having Social Anxiety and Paranoia does not help at all, but I mean I'll get by since I'll be with the best people ever!

      It will also be a sad time though. This trip was a birthday present from my grandfather who actually died 20 days before my birthday this year, on April 7th. I miss him everyday since he was basically my dad to me, but shit happens ya know.

      EITHER WAY HYPE AFFFFFFF

    • RTX

      2 years ago

      Matt_Ryan

      Hype?

      HYPE

    • Internet

      2 years ago

      Matt_Ryan

      I don't have it, whoops smiley2.gif
      Finally making a post about it ayo. May get it next month or late July idk yet.
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    • Hi, I'm Ry!

      2 years ago

      Matt_Ryan

      (This is from early 2013 don't mind me)
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      [] I love the cold weather

      [] I live in pretty much the ghetto

      [] My life is like an unpaved road

      [] I procrastinate things WAY too much, to the point of NEVER doing them.

      [] I've dated a handful of people, but only truly loved 2 of them.

      [] I get teased a lot by being called 'babyface' or voice wise at my high school 'pipsqueak'

      [] I'm not very tall at all

      [] I have really bad social anxiety and paranoia.

      [] All my friends but two are online

      [] I'm jealous of facial hair

      [] I get mistaken as a 13 year old a lot

      [] (Self confidence here but) I like to think i'm really smart, STEM subjects come easy to me

      [] I get "phases" but they usually only last two-four weeks, so I often get pissed of when people say anything i've been going through since i was like 10 or something is a "phase"

      [] I've been all but expelled from school

      [] Only teacher's I've ever felt open with were my science teacher for 7th grade and my english teacher for 8th and 9th. Then we stopped talking and I feel apart to talk to any teacher.

      [] I have depression which is triggered by another "mental illness" i have, which cause me to self-harm when I was younger

      [] (Depressing much Ryan?) I honestly can't go two nights without looking at myself in a mirror and crying myself to sleep.

      [] I once had a dream I jumped out of an oil tanker i was driving because the breaks locked and it was headed off a cliff, but then I hit a guard rail on the side of the street as i fell and was in the hospital for a week... and I felt pain (like i just got fucking stabbed in the chest pain) through the whole dream.

      [] I LOVE ENERGY DRINKSSSSS (but not Rockstar or really AMP)

      [] I slept with a nightlight until i was 14 and im not ashamed tbh

      [] I'm not very confident about my personality

      [] I can go from... holy shit i want to just fucking die rn so bad to 'fake smile and much laughter because im with the squad and they cant see me weak' as fast as I need to

      [] I want to join the Air Force Reserves

      [] I'm pretty clingy to my friends

      [] I lover playing video games and analyzing the characters backstories in depth

      [] I'm wayy too obsessed with McChickens from McDonalds... that all I at for the last week and a half and I gained 12 founds of fat....... fuck dude

      [] I'm fond of saying 'dude' as a gender neutral term

      [] I consider all my boi's my family...because family DOESN'T end in blood smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

      Who are you?
      I felt inspired to do this post and yeah (also I do not wish for sympathy for anything listed above... and hate getting it from strangers or others i don't know much.)
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    • Five Things I Love(Like) About Me

      2 years ago

      Matt_Ryan

      I was tagged by, @LeoHashee (<3 ay boi)

      1. My knowledge, I know it sounds like such a bland topic to say, but I guess I just like how easy it is for myself to read a transcript in a textbook or online and be able to use that skill months later down the road.

      2. My visions, I like the fact that usually when I look down the road and say "Hey I wanna do __ in __ year" I try to work towards it, I may not always stick with it, but I always find a way of doing it in the beginning.

      3. My Hair, I used to say I hated it, how thin it was, how slow it grew, the color of it, but I've found ways of by passing it. It's growing to slow and is this length for a while? Why not take time to actually try out this hairstyle?

      4. My reflexes, let's just say.... my reflexes being to sensitive have prevented a few fights for me and i'm thankful for that.

      5. My patience, I actually like to take time to wait for people, or understand things or the way of how life works. When I was 12 or so I used to be SO mad at technology or humans, that I feel learning to wait has really improved my mood and outlook as a whole.

      I tag:
      :@TonytheGamer:
      :@NeatHusky:
      :@Airzeez:
      :@Cambosa:

  • Comments (28)

    • Layne FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold SortaMalicious Mod

      2 years ago

      Ryan, I love you smiley11.gif And I want you to understand that. You are literally my brother from across the country. We have bonded over the weirdest shit and you are one of the only people that will actually relate to me over certain people. I met you through a god damn instagram post and now look how close we've gotten. Anyway you're awesome! Happy Valentines day smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif
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      • Matt_Ryan Russian Czar

        2 years ago

        Love you too buddy smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif (Best Gif)

    • NoseToGoes

      2 years ago

      Still don't care.

    • NoseToGoes

      2 years ago

      No one cares Ryan.

    • NoseToGoes

      2 years ago

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    • NoseToGoes

      2 years ago

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    • NoseToGoes

      2 years ago

      does bill bush need a clean?



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    • NoseToGoes

      2 years ago

      hello

    • NoseToGoes

      2 years ago

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      • Matt_Ryan Russian Czar

        2 years ago

        Hell yeah

    • NoseToGoes

      2 years ago

      Happy Birthday Ryan!!!!

      • Matt_Ryan Russian Czar

        2 years ago

        Thanks

    • Raf FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold ShimmySham Gaming

      2 years ago

      Hey, thanks for the add smiley13.gif

      • Raf FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold ShimmySham Gaming

        2 years ago

        Thank you! Hope the site is treating you well, and welcome!

      • Matt_Ryan Russian Czar

        2 years ago

        No problem! You seem really awesome! ^_^

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