Kind of sad since I was hoping to rely on it that whole weekend. Good to know there are other systems to go to, though.
Spread the word, fellow RTX goers!
Royplayer89 RTX Guardian
2 months agoRoyplayer89 RTX Guardian
I swear there's been a reason I've been so inactive, I do.
Shit's been cray the last few months.
Lots of stuff happened. Some really cool things, and some really...less than optimal things.
Bad news first:
Been with a girl for over three years and it ended this last November. We had been living together for about a year not realizing how detrimental the relationship had been for us. Basically, we were in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship. Trust me when I say we both like each other very much, but it also seemed to be shallow and unfulfilled. We weren't able to enjoy things separately without making a big deal about not being together and I can say through experience, ladies and gents, that that is not healthy. We had a lot of talks, a lot of disagreements, and ultimately determined we had different objectives for our relationship; these things were so ingrained into our being that we had to accept the elephant in the room: we had to break it off.
Some good that settled out of this, however, is that we are still good friends--so good that I refuse to believe that there is someone out there who would be willing to separate that friendship even if we found different people to date. It's seemed awkward at first, but I've felt good about the direction I am in. Now, however, it is back to being alone. I mustered through this before, and I'll be sure to do it again...
The most insightful aspect to come out of this experience has most certainly been the multitude of possible life routes I can take. It's scary, yet encouraging because the negative feelings that come with a recent separation can always be filled with things one loves to do. Myself not being tied by the dependence factor of another person left a hole, but I find that I am filling it with theater and teaching, games and cooking. I'm not sure where I stand yet in terms of being a better individual. I'm 26 years old and still feel I have a lot to learn...
I think that's a good place to be, though.
6 months agoRoyplayer89 RTX Guardian
It was back in 2007.
I was in a rented condominium in Baltimore. Most of my time had been spent trying to talk with family members or my girlfriend in my hometown in Alaska--trying to talk about how I felt and "how everything was going." It was always the same thing that I told them: "Sometimes good, sometimes bad. We're hoping good." But everyone knew the futility of saying it.
Most nights, I had the apartment to myself while my grandfather and my uncle went to bed; I could never sleep. I was underage in a city I had no interest in knowing, but knew I had to get out somehow. The internet, ironically, was the best option for escaping the confines of the apartment, the lime green walls, the putrid taste disinfectant. I had to get out without going anywhere.
I think it was the third day on the east coast when I finally noticed on IGN or some shit: "Red vs Blue making its 100 episode." Before this, I had only one brief encounter with Red vs Blue--a fellow traveler on the bus I took made quotes that no one else seemed to get. I had nothing left to lose and I was tired of listening to my dad's tracks from "The Band's Greatest Hits."
I watched the first 25 episodes in one sitting before realizing it was 2 am. I had to go to sleep on the couch-bed those nights.
After that, things seemed to get a bit better. I smiled more, especially after realizing how many times I had seen Dr. Montgomery's mustache hanging low over his chin. I liked him. I think everyone did. Even my father, and he was a tough guy to crack.
After the incident in which my father told us about the moving painting he had been given for his room, I took to watching Red vs Blue again. It was getting difficult to control my laughter at night. But it was easier to be a teenager, then, as my uncle and grandfather were also cracking jokes. "Hey, there's the early riser!" and "You know, brunch ends at 10 at McDonald's." Stupid family humor, but I laughed anyway. It made everyone comfortable.
It was always cold in Baltimore, even on the good days. I had to wait in the lobby a lot. The smell usually got to me. And I wasn't sure I could look my dad straight in the eye for very long: while everything was a "success" there were still complications. There was one night I had to sleep in the same room as my dad. The next morning, sweat radiated off of me like a dewy golf field as I was asked to leave as soon as possible for exercises.
After breakfast, I slept the rest of my morning on the couch bed.
The last night I was there, I had completed everything there was to watch on Red vs Blue. And I cried. I was just so relieved that there was still so much good to be shown, even through all the bad.
The day my flight left for home, I said good bye to my father for the last time. It would be the one time I would get to see him after he had entered the ICU when his donated kidney began rejecting him. It was the first and last time I would see my father cry, and it was one of the many times I let him see me cry. I told him I'd see him soon and I left Baltimore.
My father did not.
A year later, after ashes had been spread and prayers given, a phoenix rose; long lost friends--from another life, perhaps--had been found. Here. On this site. I was terrified and nervous my first real life meet-up, but even then and many times afterwards, I always received the feeling of being myself. I felt I could share the love, wonder, and humor with everyone, while still carrying the cross of guilt and regret over losing a loved one, but not alone. I saw... family.
I want to give back to my family. I want to give back to Burnie, Joel, Geoff, Gus, and Matt; to Jason, Kathleen, Yomary, and Rebecca. To Jack, Michael, Lindsey, Barb, Miles, Chris, Blaine, Aaron, Shannon...And Monty. I want to give back to the people who worked their tail end off to give you quality laughs after quality cheers and would have inevitably led me to YOU. My friends. Who are, beyond a doubt, the craziest, wildest, bunch of hooligans to ever place the word "fan" in front of any form of personal pronoun while using a sentence.
And Goddamn, do I love you.
I am a Guardian, because I choose to give back to a group of people who sweat, and tear, and claw their way towards their passion--whatever their calling in life. I am a Guardian because I am inspired in the way everyone--whether you are part of the company or the community--spreads humor and happiness.
10 months agoRoyplayer89 RTX Guardian
[WARNING: SHAMELESS SELF-PROMOTION AHEAD!]
Hey! What are you doing?
That's great! Stop.
You should instead check out my new blog! I'm a poet (?) and I want to gain some feedback for my work, especially if I want to branch out to a wider audience. Please, internet the hell out of this; tell everyone you know: share this with friends if you think they enjoy modern poetry. Currently, there are not very many entries on this website, but I update weekly, so go ahead and save this to your favorites read some literature.
It's good for you.
As always, thank you. :)
SERIOUSLY, THOUGH GO HERE: https://royplayer.wordpress.com/
11 months agoRoyplayer89 RTX Guardian
Only so many words in the English language help to fully express the depth and quality of emotion; rare gems that perpetuate human understanding, Edgar Allen Poe (Free Edgar 2016), Hemmingway (manly gay man), and Billy Shakes for starters. When attempting to evoke emotion on a page, it becomes increasingly difficult with appreciation and thank yous. For some, those three words alone can feel empty and isolating, especially when words lack the actions to back it up. To me, giving thanks is like viewing a majestic unicorn in a sea of honey badgers: it’s rare when it happens, and when it does, it’s FUCKING MAGICAL.
If you are reading this, thank you--every single one of you--for being part of my life. This community has been a vertebrae to my personality backbone
Did I seriously type that? for the last six years. Whenever something feels off or wrong, I know I can trust you to get me back on track. You are amazing, awesome, dependable, stupendous…. Basically a whole thesaurus.
RTX this year blasted my wildest dreams. It could not have come together so well without all of the 500 plus guardians and the amazing attendees for their patience of the new things that happened this year. Thanks go out to the staff for their hard work and effort they bring year after year to bring us all together.
It is always overwhelming to have such a high intensity weekend suddenly brought to an end. Especially after such a tough year in the community—being able to stand up to adversity and give back such creativeness to Rooster Teeth with such fervor is awe-inspiring. Maybe I’m dribbling around with too much positive emotion, but I need to express how much I appreciate every single one of you! Without a doubt, the love you all have put here inspires me to love even more in my everyday life. You ALL make me a better person; and that in itself is incredible.
(I should also mention how I’m scared to tag a few people to force myself in the embarrassing position of forgetting someone, so please bear with me.
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