*Forces self to find the time to sit down and write this journal*
Hi guys. As some of you may or may not have noticed I've been mostly MIA lately. Full disclosure, after typing that sentence I then stepped away from my desk to let dogs out, feed fish, and mist plants. A large, almost all consuming, reason for that is that general life, in and of itself is extremely busy. It's been almost a year now since @HuntedJedi and I started living together and there's still so much to do around the house. This weekend I'm hoping to empty out our small bedroom which has become the "hide whatever we don't feel like unpacking" room in order to make it my office (i.e. patch, sand, prime, paint, install ceiling fan, move furniture) before school starts. Meanwhile he has work to do for a client and a walkway to finish putting in. In my dreams the flower bed in the front yard gets finished this weekend but honestly I feel like that's a end of month goal. Eventually the living room/dining will be painted as well and all the wallpaper in the kitchen and main bathroom will be removed. Then the floors can be refinished and all the molding, baseboards, and trim can be replaced, New windows need to be installed and new patio doors/front door at some point. Oh and then there's the full kitchen/both bathrooms remodels. So that's the next ten years worth of projects...We also have to plan/finish saving up for our Christmas/my birthday cruise next January.
Besides all that there's the general upkeep of a place (insert break here to feed dogs breakfast and return Jason's call about breakfast for us after his client meeting) that's about 500 square feet more living space with more people, dogs, fish, plants, 1950's windows, and a cat than I'm accustomed to dealing with. Dusting and laundry seems to have become these insurmountable tasks. Also I just remembered I need to water the flower bed since I forgot to do it after work yesterday and if I go one day without watering they go all melodramatic on me and wilt.
And then there's the new job. Which is pretty much my old Office Manager of a CPA firm job, just at a different firm and with slightly different responsibilities. I have September/October/November tax deadlines to work on top of cleaning up their software and making the firm more efficient.Oh and getting ready for next tax season too. Which Jason and I will be starting off with by taking a week off...While all of the tax deadline fun is happening over the next few months I'll also be starting my college classes! Three nights a week I'll be in class and in all likelihood the rest of the nights will be spent working on homework, and/or studying, and/or remotely accessing into the work computer to try and get stuff done. Oh and my sister, brother, and my brother's kids are coming into town to do family time for my parent's 40th next month too. Insert panicked moment here as I realized I haven't replied to a client's email in 4 days. And I may or may not (leaning more towards not as the weeks go by with no contact) also start doing contract work for my old job making monitoring tools and reviewing source docs. Oh and I want to start streaming too. Probably once a week but it seems like fun, I talk while I play video games anyway so why not do the streaming thing so I don't look that crazy?
All of this is wrapped up in: spending time with Jason, cuddling pups, eating, sleeping, trying to have fun, spending time with family, building things, making plans, etc., etc.
This huge wall of text is to say: I know I'm not around as much as I used to be, not as active on social media (mainly FB cause I don't do anything with it anymore, my account is just sorta...there.), might not respond to texts/messages/DM's/comments/etc. that much, or even at all because I see the notification and clear it because I'm OCD about clearing those then I forget I had one, or don't show up at things I normally did. It's not because I'm ignoring you or neglecting you, or being anti-social. It's because my life is busy, there's a lot of things going on and I'm probably trying to remind myself for the 100th time that the dogs need to get bathed and have their flea meds put on.
Please understand, this isn't me giving excuses or feeling the need to justify anything. This is me literally forcing myself to give a mass heads up because I really don't have time to do individual reassuring talks. This is the break where Jason got home with food and we sat down to eat together and watch one episode of a show. I love the life Jason and I are building (some days that phrase feels way too literal) and while yes, I do have times where I feel sad that I don't have all the free time for my friends that I used to, and I still love each and every one of you very much, life changes, priorities change and my main ones right now are my family, school, work, sleep, and home. Everything else gets whatever time is left over.
Now if you'll excuse me we need to go find a cord for one of the monitors so Jason can get to work on drafting financials in his office and I can get to work on setting up mine.
tl;dr: Momma's super busy, deal with it. <3