Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

28 years old
Male
from Boston, MA

  • Activity

    • #Fit4RTX 2017 Week 24 - An Off Week

      3 days ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      Well, we always new this would be the hardest part.


      So this is real crunch week at work. Or it was, anyway. We had all 90+ trials running at the same time so both my training and nutrition were off this week. I checked yesterday and it looks like I haven't backslid, but I haven't made any progress either. 


      So this week I'm definitely going to have to go hard. It'll be good too, since apparently I've become one of those people who gets antsy when he doesn't work out enough. 


      Here's to something approaching breathing room this week!

    • #Fit4RTX 2017 Week 23 - Too Few Calories?

      1 week ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      Yo!


      So this week I think I overestimated the amount of calories in a particular dish I made to spread across the week and wound up having way, WAY too few. That means my lean mass has started to be catabolized, which is normal but not ideal. Pretty par for the course for my body type, but still kind of annoying. 


      My goal for this week is to add clean carbs in the morning - specifically oats - in addition to everything else I eat (this week being eggs, turkey burgers, greens and protein shakes). So we'll see how that goes.


      But all told I look more ripped than I ever have before. I had some crazy vascularity doing my workout. Debating getting a cheat meal for dinner today but not sure if I want to or not. I guess I'll see - I also am debating taking a walk but I am also really tired for work. So we'll see how that happens. 


      Hope y'all have a great week!

    • #Fit4RTX 2017 Week 22 - Weekend Naughtiness

      2 weeks ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      So I wasn't the best this weekend on a nutritional level, but my training was great all week. Started burning over 1,000 per workout again now that I'm back into the swing of cutting, and my Friday boxing session was one of the best, most intense workouts I've ever had!


      Nothing too crazy this week overall, though, so I figured I'd mention that I love watching clips from Dragonball Super to get myself hyped up, especially for boxing training. I love me some Vegeta drive to give me a kick, even though training is the highlight of my day on most days.


      There's some (not serious) stuff going on behind the scenes at the moment that's causing me a bit of stress, so I guess I'll just need to see if it's possible to punch a hole in a heavy (150lb) boxing bag.


      tumblr_lxyj8iQ2ln1r7kyozo1_500.gif


      Have a great week, guys! Train hard and at least try to enjoy your diet food if you're also doing this (and if you're trying to get started maybe check out Meg Turney's YouTube channel, since she's starting a 30-day challenge).

    • It's all back (self-love post kinda?)

      2 weeks ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      DBcUx_uW0AIeuxw.jpg


      (Courtesy of my boss)


      That picture made me think. It's a liminal picture,it took a lot of hard work from a lot of people before this picture could happen but there's still a lot of hard work to come. I can't say what the other people involved in this project think of what they've done, and I don't even think I've put in the most effort out of all of us to get this new business off the ground, but I can let you guys know how my feelings stand, and the effect that it's had on me.


      There's me in the middle, standing at the center of a class filled with nine people dedicated to self-improvement, all running a circuit of exercises in tandem with one another while I instruct, encourage and at least try to somehow inspire. It's one of the largest classes I've taught in years, definitely since the person I used to be. Since before I made some decisions that set my life's course away from what had been written out for me.


      Those decisions cut me off from some of the things I had been, and some of the things I could have (some would say I was supposed to have) become. But these are odd times for me. It's not that my life is out of control, it's actually completely where I want it at this moment displaced 2,000 miles. It's just a question of keeping it there until the time is right. And some of the abilities that go hand-in-hand with the destiny I denied are needed again. 


      So I've pulled from deep inside, to the places that I kept hidden. I guess I saw it starting before, but my old abilities are back. From when I was a martial artist. From when I was a warrior. From when I was a Zen Instructor. Because I need them now. I need to be able to teach, I need to be able to calm people, to quiet their minds and give them focus. I need to keep myself centered, and to be able to draw more energy out even when there should be nothing left so I can do what needs doing (and if I thought I had that ability, well, that was before I met my boss whose "last minute reserve" of energy puts mine to shame). 


      What makes it even better, though, is that it isn't 24-year-old Joe with all his problems and insecurities with these abilities. It's 28-year-old Joe, who has traveled to Texas and back, seen the world, made some friends and learned who and what I am and picked up a few tricks and the drive someone who lives in a Temple would never have needed to learn. 


      Whatever happens next, and wherever I go, I think this patchwork person, "half so many things" but all me, is going to be just fine. And whatever happens next, my life is changed by being a part of this. I'm a stronger person, both as I am now and because it forced me to unlock the best aspects of who I was "supposed to" be. I don't really know how, or if, I'd ever be able to repay them for that. But I'll start by getting my nose back to the grindstone and getting my clients to their goals. To help others improve I need to keep constantly improving too, so I guess it's onwards and upwards. And I can't wait to see what heights my clients, our business and I, can reach together.

    • Recipe update

      3 weeks ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      So yeah, they didn't have ground turkey in the Stop & Shop so I improvised and got a boatload of chicken, cheese, peppers and garlic and am going to make cheesy pulled chicken to last through the week!

    • #Fit4RTX 2017 Week 21 - The cut, week one

      3 weeks ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      Yo!


      So far my body reacted exactly how I expected. Dropping my carb intake to pretty much nothing but Ignition by 1stPhorm (a supplement company a friend works for, Ignition is taken alongside protein powder to restore glycogen in the muscles post-workout) and upping my fats means I dropped a lot of waterweight in a short period of time. I'm already down to 163 pounds and 13% bodyfat. The rest will be actual fat, and possibly actual muscle, which is where the struggle is.


      But let's also talk about my week! So Monday was a strugglebus for sure, since I went drinking on Saturday and was still hung over because I'm all old and dead. I did train but the session wasn't great. Other than that my training was on point all week. I'm particularly proud of an upper body push/power routine I wrote on Wednesday and will likely do a similar one. I also tested out my calorie burn as I teach both boxing and conventional classes. It's not a ton, but it's not negligible either.


      Nutrition was good but not perfect. My fats were a bit too high and my protein a bit too low. That's okay for waterweight week but I need to re-balance it. Sadly, that means less beef. This week I was eating bun-free beef burgers with roasted peppers and kale salad for lunches and dinners, two eggs for breakfasts and protein shakes or bars as snacks, trying to keep myself at five meals a day to get myself to about 1,800-2,000 calories. I semi-cheated today when I went to my parent's house by having some cinnamon toast crunch for breakfast and some extra Italian sausage with pasta sauce with my burger, but overall I kept even my cheat day pretty clean.  


      The issue is, beef's fat-to-protein ratio doesn't work as my main protein source at that calorie ceiling - not if I want to keep the gains from my mini-bulk. So it's looking like I'll be making turkey burgers with roasted peppers and garlic and putting just a teeny bit of cheese on them to up the fats, plus a kale and asparagus* salad each day with some lemon juice which - allegedly - will help my body burn the fat for energy to make up the caloric difference instead of muscle. I know, poor me, right? You'd almost think I could make eating healthy taste good.


      Overall I feel good about being able to get to my goal with enough time to re-acclimate to regular eating before RTX so I don't bloat up as soon as I so much as smell the floor cleaner at Chupacabra (which, as you may know, can be smelled from a block away). Man, it's all gonna taste so good!


      *I almost said "sasparagus" and I think the Sassparagus should be the next RT mascot. 

    • #fit4RTX 2017 Week 20 addendum: Starting stats!

      4 weeks ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      So yeah, my starting stats are:


      173.5 lbs, 15.3% bodyfat


      My goal is to get to 10.3% bodyfat or below by RTX, so off I go!

    • #Fit4RTX 2017 Week 20 - Starting to cut again!

      4 weeks ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      Yo!


      So today is the first day of my cut. I'm in a range of 1,800-2,000 calories and I'm still dialing in my macros, but I know from experience that I'll want to keep my protein and fats high with pretty low carbs. That, plus my training regimen, will hopefully mean I lose weight that is primarily fat. I plan on taking my stats tomorrow when I've sweat out all my final non-cutting weekend's whiskey and pizza. Yes, I decided to be a naughty boy this weekend. Oh well.


      I'm excited though, since six weeks from now is about when I finish, with a short period to re-acclimate to carbs so I don't bloat up as soon as I land in Texas, then it's off to the vacation races!

    • #fit4RTX 2017 Week 19 - Wear and Tear

      1 month ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      I was absolutely beat down this week. I did get through solid workouts Monday through Friday but Saturday I hit a wall hard. I've also got my paycheck and have made one more batch of my turkey burrito bowl mixture before I get started on cutting again, which is going to involve a lot less rice and beans.


      RTX is coming super close now, and I'm crazy excited!

    • "I'm doing this for me"

      1 month ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      I haven't written in a while. 


      I always considered that the most important part of my identity. I always tell the stories. I am the One Who Does Words Good. But ever since I came back the words just weren't coming. 


      Now the words are back, and they gave me a message. Before, when I was writing, it was tinged with desperation. I was in a job I hated, just another meaningless office peon. So writing was an escape, and more than mentally. I had convinced myself if I could write enough and well enough I could get out, make that my job instead. Yes, it would be hard. But at least I wouldn't hate every morning, and dread waking up to another day. It was a spiritually draining and mentally soul-sucking as could be, and I was fighting against becoming just another empty husk with no ambition but getting that few cents raise or an empty promotion to get more work with no additional pay (but damn that title would look good on a resume when I would look for ANOTHER empty office nobody job). I wrote to survive, because I was convinced my job was killing me. My brain went to the Dark Place a lot in those days. Half my brain would tell myself I was just being dramatic when I worried about the other half telling me that maybe hanging myself to get out of work was a reasonable plan.


      Then I got fired from the job I hated, and wrote even more. I had more time, and damn did I have motivation. Unemployment was enough to eat, plus what little I'd saved, but it wouldn't last forever. A few sold stories, if I could manage them, would mean a few extra weeks of being able to eat. But no stories were bought. They were all good, they all got good feedback, even personalized rejections, but never were enough to get bought. 


      Then I was hired at Gold's Gym. I was still writing, but less. I was just as busy, but I was also so much happier. Sure, they pay wasn't nearly as high as my office nobody job, but it was pay, enough to survive but not enough to save. But most importantly I no longer dreaded waking up. in fact I looked forward to it, wondering what cool people I'd get to talk to at work that day or what neat thing I'd get to work on between cleaning the GoldsFit room and the Spin room, or scrubbing the walls, or cleaning the mirrors. Racking the weights was my favorite, it was almost like a mini-workout on the clock. The increasing wave of Trump Fascism would still drive me to the Dark Place from time to time but that was a thing with a root cause. Between the new awesome job, RTX 2016 and my move back to Boston where I got another, even better job I basically stopped writing, and only now, after becoming settled in my new job and having my life upheaved by helping to get a new business off the ground, have I started again.


      But now it's different. I smell the desperation in the old pages. I can see the keystrokes that were changed because "no publisher would buy that" or "think of the market" or "the Saga-translation like style isn't something people buy" or "this is good but we're not buying that kind of story." But now I don't have to write to survive. 


      "I'm not doing this for the reward.

      I'm not doing this because someone told me to.

      I'm doing this... for me."


      Now my writing is mine, the things I want to write because I want to write them. I don't care if other people might find it cheesy or unmarketable, or if they'd find the style too archaic or obtuse. I am doing this for me.


      And damn does it feel good to be back.

  • About Me

    Am I a writer? A manager? A coach? I guess now I'm just me.


    Huge fantasy nerd. It's what I love to read and what I love to write, but as you can see above historical and sci-fi are also favorites even though I've written sci-fi only rarely and my only attempt at historical fiction was the worst book (thankfully unpublished) I'd ever written.


    I prefer to know people before friending them, either in person or through interacting meaningfully on the site, FYI.

  • Comments (43)

    • Shoban FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nabohs

      11 months ago

      Dude! You became featured user! Happy FU day man!

    • Austin0434

      11 months ago

      I know this random but it looks like you just came of three movies either and early Bond movie, The Godfather series, or a Dianel Daylewis film. In others you have a badass profile picture and I would be honored to have you as friend.

    • Cinomari FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keeper of N00bs

      1 year ago

      Elegant writing! See you at RTX?

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        1 year ago

        Thank you! I'll be there

    • DiMono FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold It's Back Baby!

      2 years ago

      Ursula K Le Guin on where ideas come from and about the writing process. Figured you'd find this as interesting as I did.

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        2 years ago

        Definitely interesting! A lot of it is validating, especially the bits emphasizing the importance of hard work over finding some "secret" that transforms you into a writer.

    • StryfeRyder FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      3 years ago

      Awesome meeting you at PAX, did you manage to get into the RT line at all?

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        3 years ago

        Nah, but that's fine. I'd met them all before and got to hang out with other awesome people anyhow. Good meeting you too!

    • RAGEgirl FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold r00kie

      4 years ago

      Also: I just noticed that I'm in your profile pic. That's pretty awesome. =P

    • RAGEgirl FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold r00kie

      4 years ago

      Definitely makes sense. Definitely annoying when writers do that.

      It's so weird to me that they keep creating these characters and/or writing them up in that way, when I feel like readers have voiced enough of a distaste for that kind of character/writing. It's almost like they don't realize that not everything has to be super-amazingly-impressive for us to like them. I like ice cream, but it doesn't have to blow my mind for me to enjoy eating it.

    • Nero FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nero Maxim

      4 years ago

      Hey @Tropes @halo_dudette and @Jteeth

      We got like a week to go, and I'm just wondering if it's a good idea to maybe exchange cell phone numbers so people can coordinate upon arrival and stuff?

      But other than that, it might be good to just go over everyone's arrival plans and stuff like that.

      I personally will be arriving in Toronto (pending no delays on the train) on Train 57 at Union Station downtown at 3:35pm on Thursday the 6th. I'm leaving on Monday the 10th at 5:35pm. When I get there I'm just gonna walk to the hotel, it's maybe a 20 minute walk so I should be at the hotel for 4pm

      • Jteeth FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Prof Oak

        4 years ago

        I'll be coming in on the Thursday at 5ish. Then once I check in at the hotel I'll be going to see fast 6!

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        4 years ago

        I'll likely be there later than that. I'm taking a bus to Dundas Station. Last year we were delayed at customs and so arrived at 10, but the scheduled arrival is 8PM. I can see the hotel from Dundas, it's no more than a five-minute walk.

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

      That's great, thank you!! Yes I think I will be around on Friday, but I really dont know for sure yet.

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

      Hey man!! Thanks!! Yeah, it's cool to find new ways to use the characters themes. Try to tie it in...without wearing it out....you know?

      • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        Very kind of to say that---thanks so much. It's a really fun riff to play on gtr so I dont even think I thought about it at all, just did it. smiley13.gif

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        4 years ago

        well I think you're doing just that. I mean, Plagam Extremam Infligere was, I thought, a single-scene wonder but by swapping out the drum for guitar along with the other changes you've changed it up enough to call back that chill while still having it be fresh.

    • THAYT FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Joker SR2

      4 years ago

      Met you at RvBTO!!!

    • Jteeth FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Prof Oak

      4 years ago

      Uhhhhh A LITERARY DEVICE!

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        4 years ago

        Good, you remembered!

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Thats awesome, I'm so glad that people seemed to like that. The first version of the song is so aggressive I was worried that people would take it as...ummm, i dunno....ridiculous, maybe. If that makes sense. Thanks man, I truly appreciate the kind word!

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Thanks for being there with us!!!! It was a lot of fun, great to see you as always.

    • Oaktownpull

      5 years ago

      Hey man, saw your post from PAX, and you're doing RvBTO, but are you also hitting up RTX this year?

      • Oaktownpull

        5 years ago

        Right on. Hopefully the planets will align and RTX will happen.

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        5 years ago

        I wish! I only had the money for one, and since this is going to be the last RvBTO I'm going to do that this year and then RTX 2013 instead.

        Or, well, that's what's probably going to happen. There is a sequence of increasingly unlikely events that, if they all happened just so, would allow me to do both. I'm not holding my breath though :(

    • magicookie

      5 years ago

      TV Tropes ruined my life. smiley1.gif

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        5 years ago

        Yeah, someone once said that seeing the strings might make it worse, but instead I read books that I already liked and say "AAAH! I see what you did there!"

      • magicookie

        5 years ago

        Lycantropes, i.e. tropes about werewolves!

        TV Tropes has done both, just like Reddit... For some reason, understanding WHY something is funny makes it way funnier. It also makes me much better at perceiving writing mechanics.

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        5 years ago

        Ruined or enriched?

        Funny thing, I actually didn't get this name based on my uncanny awareness of tropes. I got it because a British man in a chatroom couldn't spell "lycanthropy."

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      hahahahaaaa----yeaaaaah

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Thanks thanks thanks man!!! Yeah I cant wait to be able to TAKE a road trip...or even a day trip sounds incredible right now.

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      In reply to Tropes, #7:

      Thank YOU!!! I feel very lucky to make music for RvB and you guys. Hope you like the new stuff....!!

      smiley13.gifsmiley13.gif

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      The soundtrack is going to come out piecemeal on iTunes, and those versions will be the OST versions. So, they will be very much like what you hear in the episodes. For the CD, I will probably do something similar to the Revelation CD, where I will make extended fancier versions .

    • elpez124

      6 years ago

      If you have Morrowind for the PC and would be interested in participating in an experiment, please email [email protected]

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Cuz you're the best. The BEST. EVER!!!!!!


      smiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gif

    • Orion255

      6 years ago

      Hey mate, going to PAX East again this year?

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Hey!

      I really really want to thank you for such kind words. Actually eleventy billion aren't saying it, it's just been a nice handful of people who have noticed.

      It's very much appreciated, I am so very glad that you like it. I can't wait for you to have the whole CD (soon, soon!!).

      Thanks again and best wishes,
      Jeff

    • Chagrin

      6 years ago

      Great answer! smiley1.gifsmiley8.gif

    • Fuck_Berries

      6 years ago

      Hahaha, lol. It's probably one of my favorite Tucker lines.

    • TheJas

      7 years ago

      I don't know. Try sending me a request and maybe it'll get fixed?

    • Chagrin

      7 years ago

      See you @ Pax! Come say hi if you see me first. smiley1.gif

    • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

      7 years ago

      Yeah, see, I didn't actually do that. I joined the group and everyone (all two of them) vanished. So now I'm "in charge."

    • BigGuns117 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      7 years ago

      yo the griff fan club image needs to be cropped better.

  • Questions answered by Tropes

    Be able to dedicate a lot of time! I'm actually looking for someone to take over the RTNE group because my work schedule has expanded significantly and I think the community deserves someone who can give it the time. So if you don't think you can commit and commit HARD then I'd say to wait until you can.


    Also, be prepared to start slow. The first few events may be only one or two people, and sometimes no one may show up at all. That's okay, don't get discouraged! Things pick up eventually, but only after a lot of time and energy has been poured in.


    Best of luck! :)