Overall in my life I'm just unhappy. I barely have anything in my life that I get out of bed for. I have my 2 god-kids that mean the world to me but other than that there's nothing of meaning in my life. I don't have many friends, the only people I see on a regular basis are my coworkers. The list of people that I care about has gotten progressively smaller has time goes on, There are a few people that I cared about, and thought that they cared about me, haven't seen or spoken to in months and in some cases years. When I love, I love hard and that just doesn't go away because you've decided that you don't want to be bothered with me anymore. My heart can't even seem to truly heal because one scar hasn't healed before I am stabbed again. And it seems that it's consistent in all of my relationships. When there is someone that I am truly close to they hurt me. I don't even know how I'll even learn to trust someine with my heart after all that's been done to it. I am alone right now (relationship wise) and I understand that I need to do some soul searching but it hurts. Hopefully, one day all of this pain will go away and be replaced with the love of a great person but until then...alone I stay.
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I live in Fort Lauderdale but I scheduled all of my classes in Boca for this semester. Boca is at least 30 minutes by I-95. But he thing is my parents won't let me drive so I have to take the train to Boca then the bus to FAU. If that didn't top the cake I go to my new classes and realize I scheduled them under the Computer Engineering major and I want to be a Graphic Design major. So i had to drop all of my classes and get a new schedule. Unfortunately I must keep full-time status for my scholarship and right now I am at only part-time. If I don't find another class SOON I'll lose my scholarship. What a way to start a semester.
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A)- AREA CODE:
C)- CURRENT CRUSH:
none that I want to tell
D)- FAVORITE DRINK:
either Sobe drinks or jot cocoa depending n the weather
E)- EATING CURRENTLY:
F)- FAVORITE FRUIT:
G)- GO TO FOR ADVICE:
H)- CURRENT HATRED:
I)- I THINK ABOUT:
work, school, and my lack of a social life
J)- CURRENT JOB:
Jack and Jill Children's Center and Jungle Queen
K)- ANY KIDS:
L)- I LOVE:
my dog and my family
Love and Basketball
O)- OTHERWISE KNOWN AS:
P)- FAVORITE PERFUME/COLOGNE:
Goddess by Avon
Q)- A LITTLE QUIRK ABOUT YOURSELF:
I like wearing pigtails
S)- DO YOU SMOKE:
I'd rather run through Satan's lair in gasoline underwear.
T)- FAVORITE TV SHOW:
U)- COLOR OF YOUR UNDERWEAr:
V- LAST TIME YOU WERE IN VEGAS:
W- LAST CALL RECEIVED ON CELL PHONE:
my mom to ask if I fed the dog
X- X-RAYS TAKEN:
When I fell out a window
Y- YOUR SCREENNAME:
stranahan_2005, cagirl2005 (Stranahan and CA REPRESENT)
Z- ZODIAC SIGN:
Gemini/Cancer (different sources say different things)
12 years agoVisa
I met someone at work a few weeks ago that makes me believe that I've totally lost it. So far I've done anything that this person has asked me to do even if it means going out of my way. Like today for instance, I was at work setting up my table and I her them say "Bridgette, come help me." I stopped and went to go help them even though it was something that they could have done on their own. A little later I was finished with my table and was about to rest for a little while and drink my Mountain Dew (the best drink ever) when I heard again"Bridgette, will you help me?" And once again I stop what I'm doing to help. But the straw that broke the camel's back and made me know that I had completely lost it started at 9:23 when I punched out. Normally when I punch out I go home. Today, I punched out and ended up at work for another 15 minutes. After that I wound up taking this person home even though they live WAY out of my way. I live about 3/4 a mile and around a corner from my job. This person lives about 3 miles from there in the opposite direction. I think I've lost it because I get nothing out of this other than a friend.
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It is officially 2006.
I have made a few resolutions although I doubt any will be fulfilled (except the last one):
1. I want to lose weight. I know everyone says that and doesn't go through with it and I know I'm not much better.
2. To move out of my parents place. I need to if I ever want to become independant.
3. Have fun! My life consists of work, school, and home. Never any fun.
4. Live to see 2007. Doesn't need explanation.
12 years agoVisa
About a week ago I accepted "showbar" which means staying after to run the bar during the show. One day I believe it was last Monday I was running back to the main bar to get the fruit for the mixed drinks and Pops was on the other side of the door. Pops is a 35-40 year old guy that runs the sound system at my job. I ran passed him, barely noticing him but I didn't notice that he said "Shake it" after I had passed him. It didn't occur to me until later that as I was running my chest was bouncing and that was what he was referring to. I chalked it up to men and went on about my business.
A few days later, I see Pops again. We exchenge our hellos and he says "Come shake it." I roll my eyes to myself and walk off after telling him no thank you. One day after everyone had cleaned up I was sitting with a friend and Pops says again "Come shake it" but this time Shannon the manager is there. He explains to her why he said that and she laughed. I bet it wouldn't have been so funny if someone was saying that to her daughter. Anyway, the next day or a few days later I was up and down my table and Shannon calls me over. She was talking to Pops This time Pops wants me to walk up the path leading outside and run back. Once again, Shannon doesn't say anything.
Yesterday, I had showbar so I stayed late. As I am watching theshow since there was nothing else to do I see Pops looking at me. We exchange hellos. After the show I start cleaning up and he comes up to me and says, "The whole show I was watching you waiting for you to shake 'em and nothing." And he walks off.
Unfortunately this is not the end. Today is the clincher. I was serving my table and I almost bump into someone when I realize what happened I turn to say I'm sorry and it was Pops. He says basically "It's ok. Yoiu can bump into me with those you'd probably just bounce back." This was the first encounter, the last is what is going to make me talk to Shannon when I see her tomorrow. The MC is announcing birthdays and I realize that someone gave me an anouncement so I search my apron for it to which Pops replies "What you got in there a phone number, a picture?" I said "No, an announcement" and he tells me "I have a camera, I can take pictures of 'em." I say no and walk away.
This is getting ridiculous now. At first I thouight he was kidding but since the first comment it has only gotten worse. Tomorrow I will be at work for maintenance and I'll definately talk to either Shannon or Yvette, she's manager under Shannon. I've been telling a friend of mine about every incident so if Shannon asks I do have some proof. In all honesty what he is doing is sexual harassment. And the manager know about it. She knows I'm 18 and he's well into his 30's if not 40's. If this doesn't stop soon there's going to be some trouble at Jungle Queen.
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