Simple as that.
If you have an opportunity to make another person feel better, do it.
If it's within your power to better another's life, do it.
It doesn't have to be a big thing. Just do it.
You never know how much they may need it.
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3 weeks agodizzyblinker Loud person
Forgive the following, I'm not really good at talking about this kind of thing.
I'm not really good at hiding my emotions. Those of you that know me know this to be very true. I wear them on my sleeve, my often quite damp sleeve, much to my chagrin. In short, I don't really have a good poker face.
The exception to this rule? (Because there is always an exception)
I'm really good at hiding my frustrations, worries and fears.
These things, they're not bad, it's ok to have these emotions, but I am so damn determined to always be "fine" around those I care about, it sometimes backfires.
It sometimes backfires because I don't say the things I need to that often.
And I find it so very hard to write something like this, because I'm so damn determined to hold onto this facade that everything is good or fine. And sometimes, most of the time, it really is fine. The frustration, worry or fear is a temporary state in the long run.
But sometimes it builds. And sometimes, I find myself overwhelmed with this kind of dark emotion that just drains everything out of me. The last year or so, I've been fighting off a growing depression that has consumed so much of me. I don't want to get into the details of it, but suffice it to say, I think a lot of it comes from a systemic feeling of "not being good enough."
Ah, you thought this journal was going to be about depression huh?
Self perception is a hell of a thing. Those of you that have felt lacking, felt insecure in some way, shape or form, read: likely most of you know that self perception can really mess with your good vibes (both in a positive or negative way). For me, a lot of my self perception stems from my history, my family, and my class. For me, my self perception isn't necessarily *negative* but more limiting.
Whenever I think I'm reaching beyond what is expected of me, what would exceed the bounds of the limitations or challenges I've already met in my life, I get this little voice in my head that tells me to stop. To give up. To just accept the fact that it's beyond me or my reach. That I'm selfish to want more, to need more, to work for more.
That voice, for me, is harder to ignore than the others.
So, I suppose, the reason I'm writing this now, is because if you deal with a voice like that. Something in you that tells you that giving up is better than trying, I hope you don't listen. I hope you keep trying.
I'll keep trying too.
4 months agodizzyblinker Loud person
What is this? I've never heard of it.
So, I promised I would share a bit if y'all would share....SO!
Ok, *deep breath* I can do this.
*breathes in and out*
Oh! Right! MUSIC. I nearly forgot.
I've been listening to loads of tunes lately. And while I want to feature Brett Domino, The Dead South & Zdob si Zdub as my main earworms there have been many more amazing tunes.
*strolls over* Please follow me to RT Radio er...I mean my office.
MY OFFICE OF BAD ASS TUNES THAT IS!
Help me, I need sleep.
Chat soon? I'd really like that. Thanks for sticking with me folks.
I'll be the comatose one in the corner of the PAX/RTX/ANY event party/meetup happening.
4 months agodizzyblinker Loud person
Holy smokes. So hi family, hi friends. I've missed you.
Can we talk about a whirlwind of the past couple months?
It's been insane for me. Between job stuff & possibly selling the house to move among family stuff I've been up to my ears in "what ifs" and possibilities.
How have you been?
What's new? What's kicking?
Can I share all my happy music with you? Or anime? Or just general happy thoughts?
Because I've had loads of them.
This journal has gotten weird now because I'm super scatterbrained so.........
6 months agodizzyblinker Loud person
Forgive the following, the following has been stolen from a conversation I placed myself in earlier today and feel very strongly about for some reason.
The reason is simple, for a lot of us, the future can be scary. I know I'm scared in more ways than one about more than one thing ranging everywhere to extremely personal to globally. But when the darkness comes and threatens to swallow me whole with the endless tide of depression and worry and fear, Ive taken to fighting it in a different way. Reminding those around me that they're worth something to me, something to the world and something to those around them.
There is so much a person goes through in life, so many difficult and terrible and wonderful things to unpack it gets difficult to want to keep reaching out and lifting those around you up, especially when you may feel as if you're getting crushed yourself. But if there is one thing I can say, do it.
Find a way to inspire yourself by working to inspire others. Kill hate with love. Smother pain with kindness. Spread joy and hope wherever you can. Trust that the world needs it just as much as you do.
Ok, I'm done rambling now. Here's an edited clip of what I wrote earlier. Know that even if you don't think I'm speaking to you, I am. I really am. Especially if I don't know you yet.
I'll tell you the same thing I've been having to remind myself of lately. Success is mutable, not always measurable & can vary based on your perspective.
From here all I can see are very talented people with a high drive to change the world around them for the better. All of you, respectively, are passionate, generous and kind souled people. I, among others, are eternally grateful for your existence in this world.
While I can also say this about many other people in my life, as I'm sure you can too, the fact that these highly sought after qualities apply to you as an individual do not measure any less important or true because of the wealth of highly wonderful people you are surrounded by or that you help to inspire.
So despite my fairly brief time in interacting with all of you, and my long winded nature, let me remind you that you are beautiful and successful and I am proud of you and love you for all you have accomplished (known to me or not) and will accomplish in your life.
7 months agodizzyblinker Loud person
From: California, all of it.
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Date Joined: 9/14/10, but I creeped using my brother's profile @ArmoredCow
Last Signed in: I never really leave...
Rooster Teeth Content:
First Rooster Teeth Video you saw: RVB Season 2, Episode 7
Last Podcast you watched: Always Open #3
Favorite member of the Rooster Teeth Cast & Crew: @Barbara she's always been an inspiring individual and I love her passion and creativity, it's been a pleasure to watch her grow throughout the years.
Did you watch a Rt video today: Yes, caught up on some RTAA
If yes Which one: Scary kids scaring kids
If no why not:
Favorite RT Series: Red vs Blue will always be my #1, but really, I'm hooked for life.
Favorite RT video: OOH....Um... That's mean. Get back to me, I'll start mapping out the bracket system to battle for my heart in the interim.
Current Number Of Notifications: down to 15, I did have 23.
Name of first Journal: Umm.. *blows dust off* Back to the beginning
Name of your latest Journal: Family
Last Photo you uploaded: RTX Photos? I couldn't tell you to be honest.
Last Thread you commented on: Most likely something from AAN.
First group in your group list: Gamer Girls
Last Private message sent to: @TheAncientOne
Gamer Score/ Total Trophies: That's a thing still? *grumbles* um....yea.....
Team Lads or Team Gents: Lads.
Favorite Achievement Hunter: @steffie because she's just so damn flipping awesome.
Minecraft Skin: >.< Look, I'm a bad gamer. Ok? I haven't played minecraft regularly ever, but! I did just go out and buy Wizards and Warriors for my NES and picked up a copy of Spyro:Year of the Dragon for my PS2. So, let's still stay friends, k?
Favorite AH show: Yes, please, allofthem, kthxbai.
Favorite Group: RT Radio/Adopt A Newbie. Pretty much anything that promotes friendship and happiness and that means like 99.8% of this site.
Have you gone to a community event: Yup, plenty of them throughout the years, and in multiple states!
Have you gone to RTX: A few times
Favorite Fellow Community member: Um... um....um..... Yes. Allofthem. That is my one favourite, I promise. Just the wholeentirecommunitydon'tjudgemeok?
8 months agodizzyblinker Loud person
I don't write here as much as I used to. I know a lot of folk have said the same. Time to start changing that. This is my home.
Nonetheless, I feel that sometimes having a tangible(?) record of the people that make my life a beautiful thing is super necessary.
So, to my family. Thank you. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for letting me support you. Thank you for being the unique lovely, wonderful human beings in my life and that make it a technicolor joy.
To @Haxatronic, @Lylith, @LivSenpai, @TheLadderMan, @Antharwn, @Ginman @GeorgeFromGeorgia, @Beastly_Priest, @Smilerbull, @Yescek, @matteflowers, @ShadowSham, @elkinen, @emiiyd, @bnatty, @Giries I love you to pieces. Thank you.
Even on my bad days. Thank you. On my good days. Thank you.
Thank you for listening to me while I've been having a hell of a time dealing with some family bullshit and life uncertainties. Thank you for putting up with me.
I love you guys.
To my RT family and friends that I didn't give a shout out too, thank you. I love you guys too and I'm grateful for your love and support too.
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Currently reading: All of the books.
Currently listening: D.C.F.C.
Cali born and bred. East coast living. I work my ass off. And on the small amount of downtime I veg out with friends.
Isn't it funny how when someone yawns, you yawn? But when someone else is peeing, it's hard to pee. I love science.
Motivation Posters are funny
Hot Girls Get Down and Nerdy
I know I know, I upload everything late. Thank you to everyone who gave me their pictures from RTX, because I'm terrible about taking them.
Pictures with faces
That are mostly mine.