elebellybear

Female
from Toronto, Canada

    • elebellybear

      Onward!

      5 months ago

      I would like to share a few words.
      I love this community. Anytime whenever someone needed a hand, a shoulder or even a laugh. Our family has always been there. I'm proud to call everyone that I have met here as a family member.

      Monty was an inspiration to every person who thought they cannot be. He gave a lot of people hope and he also was a human being. He will be missed but that doesn't mean that his talent and legacy will end. It is up to us to continue to spread the creativity and the stories that he has started.

      I, for one isn't the artistic type but I am damn proud to be part of a community that will always in my heart have my back.

      Words are sometimes hard to express but reaching out and lending a hand can mean so much more.

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    • elebellybear

      6 months ago

      So I buckled and bought myself a Pebble Watch. I gotta say I was honestly disappointed with the whole shipping situation. Canadians get theirs shipped from Singapore. US receives their packages from the US. Yeah. That makes a lot of sense. smiley5.gif

      So instead of receiving my device within a few days to a couple of weeks. It took almost a month and a half since it came from Singapore. With the mail services being over loaded during the holidays, I didn't get it until the new year. I actually gave the customer service an irate message because of the lack of updates and for a while it seemed that it disappeared into the abyss.

      So I'm now wearing it and downloaded Misfit. I'm not sure how accurate it is when it comes to my steps or calories burned. So far. It's a cool watch with awesome watch faces and it tells me the weather and notifications.

      I'm still unsure how I feel about it. smiley4.gif Although it reminds me of Power Rangers calling Zordon.

    • elebellybear

      10 years and here we are

      7 months ago

      2004 - that year was about self discovery. Prior to that year, my brother got married, moved out and had their first kid. I was stuck in college commuting on average 3 hours round trip per day and completely unhappy somewhere in between. I was struggling with depression and I was on medication. I was working whenever I wasn't in school and barely slept more than 4 hours. I felt alone even though I had friends; yet felt they were leaving me behind and just felt out of place. My long term relationship after high school ended in a pile of mess and I just hated being alive.

      There I was a homebody and felt like I didn't belong anywhere. I've always relied to get away from real life to go to IRC, chat rooms, forums and ICQ since I was 14. No one knew what I was doing on the net but it eventually lead me crossing paths with random folks online. It eventually lead me here and I opened up my life through my avatar and my screen name. I became myself and I finally felt safe. I started to accept that I am quirky and its a good thing. I learned to accept that being myself is okay and that I should continue to embrace it. There are others like me across the globe that embraced the person behind elebellybear.

      2014 - Another long term relationship has ended. I'm in another crossroads in my life. I am still unemployed but I'm trying not to let that drag me down. Currently, I now have a dog, moved out on my own, acting/being a responsible for paying my own bills, resolving my credit score and spending quality time with my retired parents. I am no longer afraid to take care of my aging parents and in fact, I am ready. I've accepted the fact that my brother will never move back to TO but they will always make the time to visit us here and vice versa.

      My friends here in RT continued to expand yearly and I've become less active within the community. This community has changed for the better and some things never change (trolls, assholes, drama). I have left a footprint in this community and I'm proud of leaving my mark. Someone else to continue the legacy of how amazing this community has been to me and has been paying forward to others that felt lonely and felt out of place.


      tldr; 10 years - learned a lot about being me. Internet people are the best. Hooray!

    • elebellybear

      Summer 2014

      11 months ago

      My temp job for the not for profit organization ended at the end of July. They hired another FT girl and I didn't get the job at the end. I'm okay with that because it gave me two weeks off to just enjoy summer and prepare for TOUncon.

      TOUncon was a success! I got to see most of my friends and made some new ones (like always). I was glad to host a few people to my place and everyone in the event met my puppy, Tucker (Bow Chicka Arf Arf).

      The weekend was busy as usual and some hardships in between. It went by too fast and had to say good bye to folks too soon.

      A few days later, I got a call for a temp job. Meet & greet went very well and I started the week after. My job assignment right now is one of the top jobs that I would like to obtain. I work for a researcher, OBY/GYN, professor for a well known hospital. It's a temp job but the MD that I'm working with really liked me and wanted to give me the opportunity to grow within the organization. I'm quite pleased that I made a huge impression with him and so far this assignment is a breeze.

      I have a great balance of work and life altogether and I can actually do personal tasks during work. I was shocked to learn that I can actually take my time and not be in a crazy time crunch all the time. I need a job that will let me destress when I need to and work without anyone trying to breathe down on my neck every minute.

      It's been 7 days of work and I am highly enjoying myself. The girl that trained me is leaving for the UK and honestly I wish that she didn't have to leave.

      August is now about to end and I feel like I finally got to a point that I'm organized and ready to be an adult again. Tucker is having a hard time adjusting to my work schedule as he is used to me being home all the time. I have to retrain him to be less anxious whenever I go to work. *sigh* and also have his neutering appointment. He's been acting crazy. Damn those hormones.

      Once again, ttfn.

    • elebellybear

      Crunch Time

      1 year ago

      So I got suckered into working another Toronto community event. I have friends who are very dear to me that are in the committee and well I can't say no because I know I'm damn good on what I do. But I have to make sure that I have my stress level in check as I'm not as resilient ever since last year.

      @Cheshire_Cat has been working her butt off. She needs to move closer to me because Tucker (my puppy) needs her god mom to live closer. She earned and deserves mad props. You should all tell her that she's awesome! Because SHE IS!

      In other news, I am now living on my own with a puppy. One of my guinea pigs died in April and Lucy is the only one left. She's pretty old and sickly but she's a fighter. Work wise, I'm still on the hunt. I have a part time job that I wish it was a full time but I work for a not for profit organization. Which means they can't hire me full time with benefits until they have to look into their budget. As much as this is driving me insane, I need to stay positive. I look at it that I retired early and will get back to work for a long time whenever that time comes. I just wish the unemployment insurance would get on their ass and give me my money. That would save me the headache.

      It's been a touch and go with everything else. Nothing horrible has happen for a while. I would like to keep it that way.



    • elebellybear

      Surprise

      1 year ago

      I was having a panic attack the other night and a friend came to the rescue. It has been a worse one in a long time. The next day I received a birthday package across from the ocean. That definitely cheered me up.

      Also sometimes asking the hard questions and talking it out is the only way to find relief.

      Sucks that I feel like crap. smiley2.gif

    • elebellybear

      Hello, Winter

      1 year ago

      So this season, winter is kicking my ass. Hard. I've had a mild case of the flu (yes, I did get my flu shot) before Christmas holidays and didn't work for about 2 weeks because of it. Then I had a cold... and now a cough. I bundled up like a colourful ninja when the temperature hit -29 Celcius (Windchill at -39). Sidewalks were icy as hell. There was also a power outage during the holidays but I was fortunate enough that I lived in a pocket where there was power the whole time the ice storm hit Toronto.

      This was definitely another Christmas/New Year's that were spent at home in my pyjamas. I barely bought presents for others and received any of them. I'm okay with that.

      In other news, I'm on my own to seek a new adventure.

    • elebellybear

      Winter blues and working

      1 year ago

      I'm so tired lately. Lack of sun. It feels like I've been working non stop. Well I did work a butt ton of hours last week. I have 2.5 days off this week and I'm not staying in TO. I'm off to NJ because that's what I do in my spare time. Hop on a commuter plane and visit these two guys that I know from the internet. smiley6.gif

      Besides not feeling festive... I just want this god damn year to be done with. It's been a hell of a year.

    • elebellybear

      Cloud 9

      1 year ago

      I have made my ninth year anniversary here and part of the club! This community means a lot of me. As I am not the only one celebrating this relationship a lot has happened in this space. This space here kept me alive, kept me sane, brought in the greatest friends that became my family and have been to places that I didn't dream of visiting.

      I would like to keep that going. I might not spend as much of my spare time here as I used to but I do spend time with the people that I do enjoy being with that I have met here over the years.

      I've seen this community members grow and mature over the years. I am one of them. I found my true identity and became more confident that I wasn't the only one who is weird enough to express my craziness in person. This space made me realize that - I AM AWESOME and possibly the best person that they have met.

      I'm not gloating and basking in my own ego... I'm NOT saying that I'm the greatest but I did have somewhat a low self esteem 9 years ago and never understood what people meant when they complimented me.

      Now I accept that I'm goofy, weird, "special" and many other descriptive words to explain what I am. This space made me comfortable. I am a girl, a nerd, a geek, and gamer.

      On that note, thank you RT, thank you friends, thank you to my "family", thank you to my new friends and especially the old. Thank you! Thank you.

      I will continue to share myself to my true friends and if you don't like it... Don't let the door hit your ass smiley6.gif

  • About Me

    Friend Code: 3282-2745-5976
    I have a morbid sense of humour. I love to laugh and make dinosaur noises. I'm pretty easy to get along with but if you are a bigot & an ass. I have no reservations to kick your ass. . I've taken off my FR as I've been getting a lot of randoms. If we've met in IRL or had a great chat by all means message me. I've been part of this community since 2004, so I've been around quite a long time.I have been an active member in the planning committee for RvBTO since 2006. I've been the event coordinator/consultant for RvBTO from 2009 - 2012. I'm a consultant for TO:UnCon as well. No rest for me.

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  • Comments (418)

    • MrJacinto

      MrJacinto Hey I'm Grump

      1 year ago

      "This user seems cool. I think I'll add her as a friend."

      *there's no Add Friend button*

      "....WELP, guess we can't be friends!"

    • Caiti

      Caiti Velvet Scarlatina

      1 year ago

      I think it is so strange that I am now getting messages all the time from people asking how to run a fan event. It seems like only yesterday that I was messaging you that exact question! Just a reminder that you're amazing, and thank you for everything. smiley13.gifsmiley12.gif

      • elebellybear

        elebellybear

        1 year ago

        smiley12.gif Anytime smiley12.gif
        Time flies when you're having fun.

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      2 years ago

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      2 years ago

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      2 years ago

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      2 years ago

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      2 years ago

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      2 years ago

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      Kaal

      2 years ago

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      2 years ago

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