joy

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    • 3 years ago

      joy

      Have you ever kept a secret to spare someone else's feelings that would make you so much happier to just get out in the open??????? And said secret has already been revealed to the only person you actually did not want to find out. I will keep the secret, I am a person of my word............but boy would I really love to get it off my chest...................guess this is as close as I will get to that!

    • 3 years ago

      joy

      I miss my life before kids!!!! I love my kids and love being a mom, but I really miss being able to pick and go on my terms! I miss being socially reckless!

    • Another Long winded rant...........

      5 years ago

      joy

      Gotta get this off my chest!
      so earlier this week, I did something that I felt to be selfless and tried to help out a friend and in doing so helped out someone I really do not care for, but felt that as our differences are due to something that happened 18 yrs ago that we had both grown. Guess who was wrong in that assumption............once again...........ME!

      Look, we have all done things in our lives that were not our shining moments! I have never said that I was above being guilty for my sins! The fact of the matter is that in the particular, ancient history of which is being once again brought to the surface I was not the only one involved and the someone I do not care for was just as wrong in her part.........yet she still plays the victim to my actions!

      Cryptic..........yes it is because the fact is that since what happened was so long ago, I am not still 100% sure of every detail. I can say this much........... I lied and let people believe something was going on that WAS NOT........At the time I did do it to be hurtful, which is completely out of character for me! At the time I thought I was helping a friend get out of a situation he did not want to be in........I was the perfect out, and at the tender age of 19 I had no grasp of how it might truly effect my friend, his family, the person I did not like or my own relationship at the time or as I found out yesterday.......now too.

      I am sorry, I can't take back what happened so long ago..............neither can the others involved and I am tired of continuing to defend myself. I admit that my part was wrong and wish I could take it back, but for the love of pumpkins, can we just grow the hell up and accept responsibility for our actions???????????

      I wish I could just forget about this and move on...........I actually thought that I had...........but now I am once again mad and angry!

      The worst part is that then and now I was just trying to help a friend...............and I am the bad guy!

    • Ageing Parents............AHHHHGGGG!

      5 years ago

      joy

      I have had it with my Dad and sister!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrr!!!!
      So my mom had a total hip replacement 2+ weeks ago. She is 64 and other than a bad hip and knee, in relatively good health. She still works fulltime as a Nurse (Recovery Room). When she planned to have her hip surgery......which she put off for a long time as to not be an inconvienence to anyone, she planned for a routine 3-4 stay after surgery. Unfortunately when they put in the new hip they fractured her femur in the process. This is a not so rare possibility. As a result she has much more in the way of rehab because she cannot bare any weight on her surgical leg. Also, she has a bad knee on the opposite "good" leg. She has been doing fantastic and is supposed to be coming home on Friday.
      This all being said, my father is making her and my life HELL! My parents have been married for 40yrs. My dad retired about 18 months ago, due to barely being able to walk as a resutl of poor diabetes management and a really bad ankle ( from his time in the service). Since he has retired, he has become the most self-centered person I have ever met! He has managed to make my mom's whole surgery and recovery somehow all about him. He feels neglected...................poor him!
      I love both of my parents very much and would do anything for them. I have spent my free time (hahaha) going to see my mom at the hospital.............a 45 minute each way drive 11 out of the last 16 days and grocery shopping for my dad, doing his laundry , gathering now needed home health aides for my mom's at home recovery. Now that my mom is coming home, my father has decided that she is "milking" the situation because for once it is not all about him!
      As for my sister...............she lives out of state and has not so much as even sent my mom a card and refuses to talk to my dad on the phone and then complains to me about how annoying he is! I am just over all of their pettiness and just want to run away!
      I won't though, I am not that type of person. I will continue to try to help my mom in every way possible and not blow up at my dad...............because I was taught to respect my elders.............which contrary to how much he is pissing me off right now, I still do very much respect my father! So a big fat GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!



      IF you actually read all this............Thank You! I just had to get it off my chest before I went crazy
      Joy

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    • Just need to vent!!!!!!!!!

      6 years ago

      joy

      Please do not feel it necessary to comment .............I really just need to put into words what is going on in my head right now! I am not looking for pitty! I just want it out of my head so maybe I can just move on!

      Damn it I am a good person! I am great Mom! I am so tired of most of the people in my life looking down at me! I know it is easy to say if they are looking down at you then you should not have them in your life. The truth of the matter is that it is really easy to say it, but not so easy to do it! I am so tired from spending my whole life caring for other people and just don't seem to get the same in return! I just really hurt right now and don't want to have to tell the world about it to have someone, anyone just know that I need a hug...............a really good, gonna take all my fear away hug! Just hold me until I stop being so afraid!

      Ok, that felt good! Again...............I just needed to get the tears out! I will be fine, I always am!

    • 6 years ago

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  • Comments (535)

    • mb2000inc

      5 years ago

      In reply to joy, #10:

      plenty of holiday Joy!!!!!!!!!!

      WIN!

    • joy

      5 years ago

      I am totally holding you to that!

    • jucksweet

      5 years ago

      We will make a trip out there one of these days!!

    • Kritzia8

      5 years ago

      It is my teeth. I have a major infection and have used up my benefits till next year. I have an appointment Jan 14th lol.

      Side note, my mom went back into MICU again today. double pneumonia again.

    • mb2000inc

      6 years ago

      ok.... smiley3.gif

    • mb2000inc

      6 years ago

      you sign in, but don't stop by... i see how it is.

    • Kritzia8

      6 years ago

      Just prayers. Thanks. She has been moved back to oberlin to re start therapy. That is good. We almost lost her again on the 4th.



      Too much stress.

    • mb2000inc

      7 years ago

      It's working just fine. smiley0.gifsmiley12.gif

    • mb2000inc

      7 years ago

      Um, Don't you pretty much LOVE any Fireworks???????


      Hi, I'm Mark... have we met?

    • fnbitch

      7 years ago

      Nothing like the unconditional love of a baby. Even as young and stupid as I was when I had my first, it still swells my heart when I look at them. Now you gotta wait and see how you feel when you get grandchildren! smiley8.gifsmiley0.gif

    • Spamman4587 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold KY Jew

      7 years ago

      <3 Miss you!!!

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      How did you hear already?

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      Thank you Joy.


      Miss you .

    • JeffSon

      7 years ago

      No, I'm planning on putting it into my new rec room. It'll look cool next to my rifle rack. smiley8.gif

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      Hmm we could get you out by 3:30 7-3:30 1/2 hour lunch

      Like I am in charge of the hiring.

    • thekellykidx

      7 years ago

      I had bad cravings before I was pregnant.
      So now it's like...
      Well, the other day I was ready to kill a man for an Oreo lol

      What really sucks, sometimes I get cravings for things they don't make anymore.

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      hmmm I just had a better idea, the job will post public in about two weeks. Come work 8-5 with me.

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      Re photo. No her babysitter did.

      How is Carson doing with his first big snow. Thank you for the phone pictures.

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      Joy,

      Thanks it is nice to have some sort of word? Ally, confirmation that I am not the crazy one.

      try to not let her psychotic obsession and delusions get to you!


      Do you have any idea how very hard that is?

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      Happy new year Szooos

    • Spiko117

      7 years ago

      I can completely see why ^_^ Give my best to Don and the little guy!!!

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      Happy Christmas to you three also!!

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      How goes the reclaimation of the house?

      We have been thinking on you guys a lot.


      Wish we were not fighting this bug that keep jumping between the 3 of us.


      Miss you Chickie.

    • anathema_

      7 years ago

      Hey Joy, congratulations!

    • Spiko117

      7 years ago

      Things are great thus far, been trying to make it out that way for ages and just never can get it together...one of the dogs always ends up sick or some other crazy crap happens *sigh*

      How you and the Mister and Little Guy are doin great ^_^

    • mb2000inc

      7 years ago

      HA!

      So, you haven't decorated yet? OMG! JOY WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?????

      Oh, that IS a pretty butterfly....

      Ok, I have to get back to work... toodles.

    • mb2000inc

      7 years ago

      You didn't call us to come help... we would have been more than happy to assist in the kickout.... er... move out. smiley7.gifsmiley0.gif

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

      Does Don need help to get the furnire and stuff moved?

      We ARE still here for you, just being respectful of new family and holdiday stress.

    • sandoutlawed

      7 years ago

      And....you are so entitled to be whiney!!! New moms have earned that right so anytime you need to vent or ask a question (cause we have been there) we will be right there to help but not tell you what to do smiley12.gif

    • Kritzia8

      7 years ago

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      I thought you could use the smile.

    • steph

      8 years ago

      CONGRATS MOMMY!

    • mb2000inc

      8 years ago

      CONGRATS HUN! smiley0.gifsmiley12.gif

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    • Kritzia8

      8 years ago

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    • auxFACTOR

      8 years ago

      Congradulations on having your little tyke!

    • SgtBuckwheat

      8 years ago

      Kritzia said you were going to be a mother and to send you well wishes. Here I am, doing exactly that. Good luck with your child. May God bless you and your family.

    • Spiko117

      8 years ago

      *hugs* Hope it all goes well I know you and Don are going to be great parents!!!!

      Our best and love

      Tim smiley12.gif

    • Stonesword

      8 years ago

      pictures

    • sandoutlawed

      8 years ago

      Hey hon!!! Good luck this week, wish I could be closer to help and all but if there is anything you need know you can totally leave me a message anytime!!!!

      Oh, I DEMAND PICTURES....of after, cause I don't want none of that during stuff smiley8.gif

    • fnbitch

      8 years ago

      I'm demanding pictures! smiley0.gif

      I hope all goes well for yall this week. smiley12.gif

    • jucksweet

      8 years ago

      how are you doing joy? smiley0.gifsmiley12.gif

    • Kritzia8

      8 years ago

      Thank you for stopping by. It was so nice to see you!!!


      We missed woolie bear festival today. I remembered when I saw the news tonight.

      I hope the blanket is ok. My friend was funny witht he yarn holiding it up to the pc at work trying to match your green.


      You look so pretty!!!

      Thank you for the Vampie book and goodies. You spoil me.

      Post edited 10/05/08 7:01PM

    • Kritzia8

      8 years ago

      It's kind of sucking, no $$ Folks celebrated it already with the twins and nothing good on tv.

      Hootles. How are you??????? smiley12.gif

    • mb2000inc

      8 years ago

      But we like you. smiley8.gif

    • Enforcer2005

      8 years ago

      <3 <3

    • Kritzia8

      8 years ago

      You do not fail. Darcie had that with both boys and she is a health nut.

      There is an elevated chance when you carry a boy.

      Just follow DR. suggestions and you and Carson will be fine.

      Hang in there, maybe we will start walking to gether. smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

      Post edited 9/08/08 5:43PM

    • Kritzia8

      8 years ago

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    • Kritzia8

      8 years ago

      Joy,

      You said it best.

      Luv,
      Kritzia

      Heehee, did your surpize get there?

      Oh yea oh, cannot tell, suck at fun secrets i do.

    • JeffSon

      8 years ago

      You lost me at "tarnish my reputation as a wholesome girl"...

    • Kritzia8

      8 years ago

      Not with out you smiley11.gifsmiley11.gifsmiley11.gif

      No fun being bad alone.

    • mb2000inc

      8 years ago

      Just so that you and Don are clear on how the whole baby thing works....

      Please go here... and study the instructions very carefully. smiley8.gif

      Post edited 8/27/08 1:49PM

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