ringmaster15

Male
from mentor, OH

  • Activity

    • I'm back!

      3 years ago

      ringmaster15

      Wow it's been ages since iv logged on here! Looking over my profile is pretty pathetic >_< will update later tonight!

    • is it really true?

      6 years ago

      ringmaster15

      Why do I write these if no one reads them? lol I guess it feels good to vent and get some things out of your mind. Well things have really just stopped going in anyway, shape or form of something good in my future. Such a long and sad story, it hurts so much but I still feel if there is any chance at all, even if its the smallest possibility I must remain positive, calm and strong. Once again though, you were taken from me, it took what seemed like a century just to talk with you again and to find out that we both still are deeply in love with one another, all that is needed is time. Which of course still sucks because every minute away from you feels like a day, I miss everything about you and even your family. It pains me to think that this might be truly over, it hurts even more not to know for sure what is to happen. I love everything about you, so much you know already and more that you have yet to know. There is so much more that I want to show and experience with you, so much happiness that I long to enjoy with you by my side. But once more a wrench was tossed into our love. I respect you so much, but feel your path is one that will leave you deeply hurt, I hope I can stop you before that comes to pass, or at least help you mend yourself back to the maggie I so deeply love. So many worry about you and miss you, but not as much as I do. Your my world and I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't know what our future holds for us, but I hope we can one day act on our promises, oh how I long to have a little you running around and biting the other kids on the playground thinking shes a dinosaur. But I dont know, those are just dreams I hope to make a reality, the way things are going though, Im not sure Ill be able to stand much longer. I dont want to think that after all we have been through, since the beginning, that its over. It almost seems impossible. I hope to hear from you one day...please be careful, I no longer have the right to protect you, I will do all I can but for now please know Ill always be in your heart....I moose you.....no I love you.
      with love,
      mikeh-kun

    • Life

      6 years ago

      ringmaster15

      So this is the only place I feel that I can vent without anyone close to me being able to poke at me. These past months have been the hardest path my life has turned to. I honestly am fighting for dear life let alone my own sanity. Too many issues I have worked hard on fixing are getting battered with life's sick sense of humor. I fight to remain strong and positive, for myself and one other person I hold dear to my heart. But it seems that when something good happens bad follows shortly after, its draining me to a very low level of self-respect and I can honestly say I am crying more then I should be. I dont care what people think but I feel so weak now that I fear I cant defend myself for much longer and am slowly losing my grip on what I hold so close. Your everything to me, I know you know this and thats why it hurts so much to be stuck on the side for now, though now I fear its gone for good. I cant understand why so many bad things keep breaking into my life pushing me farther from you, Im giving it everything I have to remain in a good state of mind but its so hard. I just wish I knew what was going on...i miss you so much and sorry if this is really the end

    • To the one I love

      6 years ago

      ringmaster15

      I don't know if you will even see this, but with these limitations this is all I have left. You mean the world to me and I want to promise the world, the moon, and all the stars to you. Your the best thing that has ever happened to me, from the very first day we met, to this very day as well. You know how much I love you and how much I care, so I wont waste your time with that here, even though I want to pour every thought out to you. I have become a better person, but I guess it was too late. Im sorry for everything that has taken place, I honestly dont know what has happened but there is nothing I can do. All I seem to be doing is pushing you away, I wish I knew what to do, but its as if the only thing I know is nothing. This time away from you has been killing me in every way, but I used that to better myself so that if I got another chance I could prove to us both that it would be the time of a lifetime. I still love you so much and want to be with you, as the new me not the old. I was so happy when we met up and confessed, it was such a relief and the excitement got to me but now it appears to have gone into a dark place. Im sorry that I havent an answer for what to do about this, Im sorry that I dont know how to fix this...I wish I just waited a bit longer...but now the only thing I think best is for me to vanish...I dont want to but Im only making you hate me more by being here. Ill always love you hun, please believe that....and maybe one day things will bring us back together but there is no knowing this. I love you so much....I hope this isnt really goodbye.
      i moose you
      Mikeh-kun

    • Update

      6 years ago

      ringmaster15

      So I wrote out an insanely long post to update you all and forgot the title so it deleted everything I wrote...lame. Anywho Just was talking about a couple anime conventions I attended, pretty fun just need more active friends. Im taking both Jujutsu and taekwando classes, awesome, yellow belt in tae and advancing to orange faster then we thought. And finally bought the legendary version of reach because I can, i might be giving away the elite armor code if anyone wants because I rarely play as them

    • Woot

      7 years ago

      ringmaster15

      UPDATE!!!!! OMG WOOT!

      Well its been far too long since I have done much of anything on here, where to start...College is a bitch yet fun, I can't wait to get into my art classes, as of now im taking psychology which is awesome and math which is not...Work is awesome, I'm moving up my way in management at Hot Topic which is always a good thing, gotta love my work!. Currently Im about to be on break from college so I can get my gameage on, playing Gears2,CoD5,FFXI,WOW...yeah im a loser. So um yeah people need to talk to me so I can have some fun conversations so hit me up

  • About Me

    Accepts all request.

    Works for Hot Topic!
    Add me if you can hold a decent conversation ^^

  • Comments (351)

    • geekygrl

      7 years ago

      Hey there

    • Kawaii_Hime1

      7 years ago

      Lovely, to meet you. <3
      I am, Sekio, and you are? =)

    • Kawaii_Hime1

      7 years ago

      Konnichiwa! Thank you, for friend add. :3

    • Lady_Abyss

      8 years ago

      -snuggles-

    • Lady_Abyss

      8 years ago

      -tackles-

    • hajima

      8 years ago

      hello

    • dustergirl

      8 years ago

      hey i am a friend of hazer1992

    • Lady_Abyss

      8 years ago

      Konichiwa Mikeh-kun!!! ^_^

    • Lady_Abyss

      8 years ago

      HIYA MIKEH-KUN!

    • Snowsaber

      8 years ago

      haha kneecap rogue, that's great

    • Tifa

      8 years ago

      That's cool!
      I was playing Lazer Tag with a couple of my friends.
      =]
      Fun game!
      lol

    • Tifa

      8 years ago

      welcome!!
      What's up?!

    • haloqueeny

      8 years ago

      Chasin' the dragon.

    • haloqueeny

      8 years ago

      Meh... reading the heroin diaries by nikki sixx. great book.

    • haloqueeny

      8 years ago

      Hehe no problem smiley1.gif

    • MisMessedUp

      8 years ago

      How is the teddy bear lucky?

    • camayi

      8 years ago

      Hey thanks for letting me add you! Send me a message some time!~<3

    • chevygirl

      9 years ago

      hey i havent talked to you in forever i got a new account this is it

    • MisMessedUp

      9 years ago

      I miss you too hunny

    • hyper30

      9 years ago

      hi

    • ChurchRoxx

      9 years ago

      hey well if you really wanna talk to me sometimes register on this site www.hoverspot.com and when your done add me on there here is my URL www.hoverspot.com/1171936 ok well i hope i can see you soon! bye

    • metroid05

      9 years ago

      haha, lets finish the interview
      smiley0.gif

    • scorch375

      9 years ago

      i see that you play Gears

    • MisMessedUp

      9 years ago

      Yeah that was ment for you

    • MisMessedUp

      9 years ago

      read my journal

    • AstridStar13

      9 years ago

      Headbang!
      d-(^_^)-b

    • DopeyLoc

      9 years ago

      Thanks for the support ninja

    • lostbeauty

      9 years ago

      If you support juggalos/lettes and think that whats in diz journal is fucked up, please comment the journal protesting against the fucking haters. Please leave anything thats threatening the mods out though, as it would just make the situation even worse. Thanks!

      Follow this link to view journal:
      rvb.roosterteeth.com/members/journal/entry.php?id=1641148

      sorry if youve already done this. im trying to make sure all of da ppl on my friendslist know of diz.

    • clone627

      9 years ago

      man your about section says "accepts all requests" now i would like to request you to send me all of your money, that'll teach ya about being specific about things....sorry im stuck at work and bored as hell

    • cptcab00se

      9 years ago

      dude there are not a lot of ninjas here but me and my dude are doin sumthin bout that

    • cptcab00se

      9 years ago

      sup ninja

    • ViolentRose

      9 years ago

      ok, do what you like.

    • ViolentRose

      9 years ago

      i wouldnt say what she tells me.
      do you always try and be a smart ass?
      try and make humor out of these types of situations?

    • ViolentRose

      9 years ago

      well the fact that she is practically my sister, i don't think she would want to feel owned by you.

    • ViolentRose

      9 years ago

      why do you act like you own kate?

    • lostbeauty

      9 years ago

      heyyy what up?

    • AstridStar13

      9 years ago

      -meow-

    • AstridStar13

      9 years ago

      MY BLOOD!!!! >_<

    • ChurchRoxx

      9 years ago

      If you were killed today, Im sorry I wouldnt be able to come to your funeral because i'd be in jail for killing the person who did it.. send this to all the people you care about. First, I want you to know that I love you to death and i think you are amazing.. If I dont get this back I understand... I have a game for you. Once you read this letter, you must send it to 14 people that you really care about, including the person that sent it to you. if you recieve at least 7 back then you are AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • Tomatosoup76

      9 years ago

      Sweet
      IO play the cello
      I want to play the bsg pipe though

    • AstridStar13

      9 years ago

      (Quickly puts the packets of saved blood behind back)
      Noooooo......

    • AstridStar13

      9 years ago

      Mr. Wiggles is now dead.
      tasted like Eel.

    • ChurchRoxx

      9 years ago

      hi! how r u today?

    • AstridStar13

      9 years ago

      Gurrr....
      (Chews on bunneh)

    • namenotfound

      9 years ago

      hello

    • AstridStar13

      9 years ago

      Rawr.

    • Andariel

      9 years ago

      get into any new fights lately? hehe OMG haha I had like the best time at my friends house last night.... ^_^

    • Andariel

      9 years ago

      OMG I think Ill make a character on your server! lol Haha its ok, i used to have high lvls, and all my friends who play have atleast one 70 ^_^ ur among friends lol

    • Andariel

      9 years ago

      Hello ^_^ im talking to you on msn right now!

    • dxkid

      9 years ago

      hey can you add me i am churchroxx's cuzin if you don't believe me just ask her

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