squidgeart

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from Adelaide, Australia

  • Activity

    • aimless, clueless, hapless

      1 month ago

      squidgeart

      I'm not going to make it past 2018. It's not going to happen.

      when my parents pass on (God forbid it) I will have nothing.

      Me get a job? ha. When pigs fly.

      I will be dead.

    • Shift Derp!

      1 month ago

      squidgeart

      YOU BASTARDS! You have to press Shift AND Esc key to pause the game in Mass Effect 2?


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    • I'm sorry Alice [real name changed]

      1 month ago

      squidgeart

      I'm sorry Alice. [real name changed]

      I should have been more attentive. I realize now what you tried to do last night.

      You tried to cheer me up, as I looked into the oblivion of my pint glass of soda water. You tried to cheer me up with your knife tricks but I wasn't having it. i tried not to be rude, I hope I didn't come across like that.

      I just felt so weak, hearing about everybody's success and great lives when I have nothing. I was turned off by your gf, and sorry, but I just can't seem to enjoy her company. Sorry.

      I began to remember how you said I am often times too sad, in a caring tone of course. You are right, I agree.

      I began to remember how you said you weren't my friend, more then 6 months ago, probably at the influence of your gf.

      In the end, I couldn't take it. After having a little cry in the bathroom (and vomit) I opted to go home, eat my schnitzel from a box instead.

      I appreciate you trying to cheer me up.

      I also very much appreciate you coming over to talk to me about music, and letting me join in the conversations with the other woman.

      I appreciate you texting me, (where was i?) when I disappeared for a while beforehand. I was exhausted and literally fell asleep in my parked car, but I should have let somebody know.

      I appreciate you. You are kind, but I'm still scared that you will hurt me again. I cannot fully trust you anymore, and that makes me sad.

      I will try better

    • I'm sorry Mum 26/12/17

      1 month ago

      squidgeart

      I'm sorry Mum,

      I'm a failure.

      I failed at every thing.

      As I send and receive parents this Christmas, deep inside me I feel guilt, shame, anxiety and depression.

      I'm sorry I don't have a job. I tried. I spent all my parents money getting a garbage degree, that doesn't get me anything. It was the wrong degree anyway.

      I go online, like they me too. The govt, my sister in law, the job network providers, society. It doesn't work. It never does. It's a waste of effort. Not one return with a job interview, no mention of my degree. This last one, not even 24 hours for an automatic rejection.

      I am taunted y the memory of a man - a fat security guard - 2 years ago. Screaming and shouting at me because I dared to use my initiative and enter a building looking for work. I hope he chokes on his miserable $16 an hour.

      I fear homelessness. I understand my parents left me the house, but I can't be so sure. What happens, god forbid, if my parents die? How can I afford to pay for electricity, water etc on $560 a fortnight (the govt stipend)

      I'm sorry I dont have my own house. Or children. Or wife.

      I failed at everything.

      I will die lonely, penniless, and have achieved nothing.

    • My Skyrim mod notes

      2 months ago

      squidgeart

      Add more plants (ferns, lavender,nightshade,) for clutter

      add some silver jugs - for clutter

      add some static solitude shields - for clutter

      remove the fake madame statue

      remove some of the braziers from the 'sexy solitude' mod

      add more laundry with the laundry mod

      add some light near the solitude port entrance

      add a troll skull near pulcinello

      fix the top of the merchant's stalls

      add more stalls - for clutter

      cover up bits in the town that show clipping issues (notably the house near castle dour)

      remove the double ground with the floating thing in solitude row

      add more mist in the tail end of the tail end



    • I'm MCing ITDOR Adelaide 2017

      3 months ago

      squidgeart

      Hello!

      I'm MCing ITDOR Adelaide 2017! TDoR has been held, since 1998, on November 20th after the murder of Rita Hester, a Trans Woman & sex worker. TDOR raises public awareness of hate crimes against trans people, provides a space for public mourning & honours the lives of those trans people.

      Come join us 20th November, Venue 63, Adelaide light Square. 6:00pm

      >https://www.facebook.com/ITDoRAdelaide/

  • Comments (32)

    • AussieFlower

      2 years ago

      Hey. Thanks for the add

    • 03k64firefly

      3 years ago

      A Warm Fuzzy for you!

      You are a beautiful person.

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    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      6 years ago

      Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! smiley12.gif

    • LepraSaun

      6 years ago

      yeah i try to, im just busy lately. In fact i just did the intro for the new one coming out. I'll get back into em eventually though :)

    • squidgeart

      6 years ago

      Oh you can't make it anymore? Oh that sucks. :(

    • pak78

      6 years ago

      I wish I could bro but work pulled a u-turn on me and said I can't have the time off.
      It sucks the big one but I can't take the time without pay

    • oloeopia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Thanks! Its from Torchwood: Miracle Day

    • Arvin FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Help Out RTOZ! Repost this!
      +mod this and this and any other ones you see!

      Hope to see you there!

    • oloeopia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Hahahaaha good thing i looked at your profile... commenting on yourself doesn't show me that you answered me. haha! I though you might be ignoring me.....

    • squidgeart

      6 years ago

      Hello there. How are you?

    • oloeopia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Hiya New friend!

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      6 years ago

      I hope to be on tomorrow. There is a community playdate tomorrow and I might be doing that instead ^_^ We'll see! smiley13.gif

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      6 years ago

      I usually am ^_^ smiley13.gif

    • Visceral

      6 years ago

      Oh hell yeah, zombies are the new nazis everyone loved killing nazi's now everyone loves killing zombies.
      only thing better than that is NAZI ZOMBIEs . smiley4.gif

    • Arvin FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Aussie RT fan? Great! Here's a new and upcoming group that all the cool kids are joining: RvB OZ.
      And don't worry about this group just sitting there and collecting dust, this group is organised and very much active!

    • Tranzellical

      7 years ago

      Yay! I made you a sponsor!

    • squidgeart

      7 years ago

      I don't mind at all! :D Should I PM you my address?

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      7 years ago

      I'll send one to you! ^_^ It will come late...but as long as you don't mind! smiley13.gif

    • Visceral

      7 years ago

      Hey squidge, thanks for the friend request , I hope we can catch up sometime soon. I know its gonna be kinda tough with the time difference but im sure we will get together eventually. C ya soon
      Will

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      7 years ago

      Sorry for the double post...I just got really excited smiley13.gif

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      7 years ago

      I mentioned you in today's Cmmunity Content of the Week post! smiley13.gif

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      7 years ago

      I'm mentioning you on the Rooster Teeth Community Content group today! smiley13.gif

    • Nestry

      7 years ago

      Thanks darling. I hate to say it but I'm not up to par at the moment, but I will get there.
      How about you? How are things on your end?

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      7 years ago

      Doing fairly well ^_^ We just got back from Thanksgiving break. We are going to start packing this week for the big move into the house AND tomorrow we sign for the home loan. WOW! I can't believe this is really happening! 0_o This is the most adult thing i've ever done...but I won't let it get to my head *LOL* smiley13.gif

    • cab0oserocks

      7 years ago

      Thanks for your reply- only now do I realize I missed it a few weeks ago. Whoops! Anyway, your advice is reassuring. Those are all things that I'm proud to possess. I suppose working with a half-ass, uninterested crew steels one to the point where I'm not afraid to roll the ball myself. This is good. smiley0.gif

      You say you're a volunteer at the station, how do you support yourself financially? What's good work for a filmmaker to keep food on the table? My film teacher recommends filming things like concerts and plays for groups around town, but I'd be hesitant to trust my livelihood in a few years to circumstantial work.

    • squidgeart

      7 years ago

      hello, how are you?

    • master720ful

      7 years ago

      hi,what's up?

    • squidgeart

      7 years ago

      I'm flattered, I really am. I hate to disappoint you, but I have only been paid for filmmaking once for a PSA. Most of us are volunteers at the station. I get paid in experience, knowledge and exposure, which is a nice start. And a nice resume. However, the higher ups call it work and it certainly feel like it.
      No, no, no, not luck at all. I studied film at an art school - kinda of like a film school but I also got to learn ceramics.
      I can give you some advice to get to my stage. Patience, persistence, hard work, & faith. I had to make friends and get 'in' with the station. I didn't get my show on television for sitting around waiting for a phone call back. I went up to them every week and asked them about the show's progress. There is no such thing as pestering in this business. Have faith in yourself, you can do it. If you don't believe in yourself, nothing happens.
      But most of all, make films! Make as many as you can, as much as you can! It improves your skills and gives you a library of content to use.

      Keep me posted on your progress. We are on the same journey, hope we can help each other.

    • cab0oserocks

      7 years ago

      I checked out your Vimeo page and some of the stuff you've made for the TV station you work at. You essentially have the job I want in a few years. May I ask how you got your job? Did you go to film school, or did you intern strait out of high school and move up from there? Or was it just plain dumb luck?

    • squidgeart

      7 years ago

      Hi. I've never been to PAX before, what's it like?

    • SailorTweek FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Head Guardian

      7 years ago

      I'm doing well, thanks ^_^ Been getting ready for PAX and taking care of my husband after his knee surgery. Been a long week...and this week is going to feel even longer smiley8.gif

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