vegacoyote

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    • vegacoyote

      Oh snaps!

      3 years ago

      After about a week and a half of no progress, I have finally convinced the Creation Kit to recognize the existence of a new texture. Aaaahaaha celebrate time woooooo oh wait I can't get anything to wear it.

      My brain is very confused right now, as the saturation levels of both "WOOOHOOO" and "GODDAMN IT" neurotransmitters have passed maximum and are now leaking out my ears.

      I fucking love computers. I'm not even entirely sure in what sense I mean that right now. Let's call it an even distribution of both true, and "true."

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    • vegacoyote

      new homes for homing! no more mom's basement for meees

      3 years ago

      Wooooo got a 'partment that takes dogs
      third floor
      built in roommate
      have not met her him yet but apparently she he is a pirate who plays the guitar and smokes a little and has a little fluffy kitty and likes Steven King
      I know this because they gave us the keys and we went in to see the room but she he wasn't there is that creepy?
      The kitchen.... COULD HAVE BEEN WORSE. YES. Add me and it probably will be.
      Anyway psyching myself up to call tomorrow, I was also psyching myself to call her him today but I guess I didn't psych hard enough and tomorrow is for pickup dragging heavy things in 90 degree heat woo!

      I am on ambien, if it wasn't already obvious.

      yay partment! :D

      *edited to reflect new info. Woo random roomate assignments!

    • vegacoyote

      Oops and damn, I am offensive. Sorry.

      3 years ago

      About the horse picture- that's part of an ongoing discussion that I'm taking part in, in an LFTO post that as of right now I am still in the process of composing. I recognize that it's kind of loaded imagery & wording- less so to me, because I've been involved with horse training since I was about 7 or 8. Just to clarify- I have a great deal of respect for horses, and know from experience that a horse that does not want to cooperate with its trainer, won't.

      I also sometimes compare people to animals. This is not intended as an insult, as I like animals, and tend to understand relationships between humans as analogs to the ones I've had with animals. This is because I am a twisted, fucked up individual who gets along better with dogs, cats, and horses than with human beings. I also don't intend it to be degrading, though I understand that's inevitably how it's going to come across, because people are people and consider the status of animals automatically "beneath" that of humans... and also, humans have treated other humans as beneath them, and in so doing often compared them to animals... and also, people eat animals, and get upset when anyone mentions that humans are animals and therefore made of meat and therefore if I'm comparing a person to an animal I must be saying it's OK to eat them... and subjugate them and treat them as livestock and hitch them to wagons and give them blue ribbons for pulling wagons... but I swear that's not what I mean! Um, which... kinda doesn't help that much, so, sorry.

      Should I take it down?

    • vegacoyote

      Deconstruction- Reconstruction, as requested by BuckeyeDon

      3 years ago

      Recently, over in LFTO, I referred to a deconstruction post I made a couple years back (it was about Reconstruction, not Relocation as I thought,) where I summed up the themes I saw in each season of Red vs Blue in a Very Serious Way. BuckeyeDon requested that I re-post the essay in my journal, so here it is, trimmed to keep on topic:

      Red vs Blue is, and always has been, a character-driven show. BGC was about absurdity, the plight of people existing in isolation from the rest of reality, with no idea where they are, why they're there, what the fuck is supposed to be happening next- and what they do until someone tells them to do otherwise. They exist without context, isolated from the cause or consequences to their actions, in absence even of physical laws that make any kind of sense.

      Reconstruction- gave us context. Kicked the characters out of their complacency. (Well, some of them, anyway.) Explained to us, and to the characters, what the hell was going on- by force, it should be noted. Without Wash, the characters would have remained quite content to keep doing what they were doing. In fact, Reconstruction could be said to have had a Wash-driven plot. At the same time- we have the voice-over subplot, a glimpse of the forces driving Wash, and, ultimately, the Blood Gulch situation as well. I'd like to note at this time, that for all their eloquence & the seriousness of their delivery, we still begin and end with the same thing we did in Blood Gulch Chronicles- two guys bitching at each other from opposite sides of a canyon.

      People have been saying that Recreation is about "fixing" all the silliness that happened in Blood Gulch. I couldn't disagree more. On the contrary- Recreation is about reconciling the microcosm of Blood Gulch- the absurdity, pettiness, and breathtaking stupidity and boredom of the day to day- with the greater reality that we've only glimpsed from beyond the rim of our canyon. Some stuff happened. Some things have changed. So we've moved to Valhalla.

      Valhalla. The name of the afterlife reserved for Viking warriors dead in battle. This place has a context, a history. Bad things have happened here. People have died here. Lots of them. If battle armor allowed blood to spill, the ground would still be stained rust. Those people are not going to wake up. And you still have to take a shower every day.

      AND WHY THE HELL WON'T THE SUN GO DOWN?!?

      Go down the character roster at the beginning of the show. Count how many of them are 1) dead 2) unconscious 3) unaccounted for, 4) dumb as hell. Now, as the episodes have gone by, count how many of those characters have given signs of these conditions changing.

      In my mind, Recreation is about death, about a growing awareness of reality, about awakening. It's going slowly because, instead of being constantly forced ahead by a disruptive outside force, it's being driven by the actions of people who would rather stay where they are- but those peoples' growing awareness is, slowly, driving them to do otherwise. It's like saying, wake up, wake up. Something is very wrong here. Something has to be done- but first, you have to WAKE UP.

      ~ ~ ~

      The original can be found here. Last entry on the page, post #54030.

    • vegacoyote

      3 years ago

      Spent the day setting up the preliminary stages of starting to think about maybe making a black & white dog in Skyrim. Hoping this isn't going to be a hilarious repeat of Natalie Tries to Teach Herself to Script in SL, Then Hits a Wall of Dyslexia and Ragequits.

      So far I've downloaded & installed (& in a case or two, uninstalled, then reinstalled, then uninstalled again) about... three? four? open source programs, including GIMP, a file extractor for Fallout 3, a file extractor for Skyrim (because I don't have Fallout 3) a .dds converter for GIMP, and a general file extractor that it turned out I didn't need. I've also engaged in a number of wacky misfiling shenanigans, with amusing complications arising from the aforementioned dyslexia, followed several extraneous steps that weren't in the tutorial, reformatted the hell out of at least three innocent skin textures, and failed to comprehend the final step that would presumably import the skins back into the game.

      To keep from throwing myself to the floor in a heap of flailing despair, I'm trying to remember that this morning, I didn't even know what half of those things were.

      Here's hoping I haven't given my computer worms. Woo!

    • vegacoyote

      THE THRILLING CONCLUSION!!!

      3 years ago

      LAST TIME, ON OVERREACTION THEATER:

      Our Heroine, having thwarted the nefarious attempt by Google Plus to reveal her Secret Identity to all and sundry, attempts to go about her business feeding the trolls bravely dispensing politely worded vigilante justice to offenders against English grammar and human decency!

      "Reply."

      Nothing.

      Holy crap they're gonna hold it over me, aren't they.

      But all right, hold on. This could be entirely unrelated, it's not like YouTube never glitches out or anything, this could very well be the result of a perfectly innocent bug. Don't jump to conclusions, just get on the search engine and see if anyone else is having the same problem.

      It was only after a few search strings turned up nothing more recent than January that I had the following epiphany:

      I'm conducting this search using Google.

      The same Google that I currently suspect is trying to passive-aggressively strong-arm me into giving up my personal information to YouTube, which it also owns so holy shit what's the god-damn point... unless the idea is to promote civility by linking comments to actual identities & thereby create a greater sense of Real Life Consequences which would Make People Think Twice (haahaa), but if that's the case why's Lil Miss/ter If I'm Over 13 I Should Know Better still posting badly spelled (and probably not serious) death threats under hizr normal YouTube handle? Cause NO FAIR!

      That is not the POINT, though. The point is, this is about where my paranoia kicked into overdrive. My main message account is on Gmail. I got a G+ account at its behest, after grumbling to myself about the insistence upon my real name and the demand for a profile pic that showed my whole face (so I was like, FINE, have this fuzzy-ass underexposed selfie of me and my cat which just barely manages to get across the basic gist of my facial anatomy, now fuck off that's all you're getting.) I use the Google search engine just about any time I need information that I can't immediately access off the top of my head, or in case I need to make sure the information I'm accessing off the top of my head isn't complete bullshit. The thought came to me- they could make me believe ANYTHING.

      Let us pause for a moment of cross-eyed, vertiginous paranoia, hopefully followed shortly by a re-establishment of capacity for critical thought.

      And I want to make something clear: I fucking LOVE Google. And not in the responsible, self-affirming way of a mature and healthy adult. No, I love it in the "I NEED YOU LIKE I NEED AIR" fashion of a habitual addict to her drug of choice. And up until now, I'd been relatively happy with our relationship. Sure, there were moments of "Goddamn, Google, you bein fucking CREEPY right now," and some detached alarm at just how pervasively huge the company's gotten, but not to the point where I'd lose the complacency with which I use it, much less consider not using it.

      And you know what, I'm not even really all that alarmed right now. Sure, they have all my information, and sure, they could at any time do whatever the hell they want with it in ways which I never considered before would cause me trouble, and sure, they along with Wikipedia hold a bottle-neck position on what information makes its way to this side of my computer screen and more or less shapes my view of the world... gggyuckkh *shudder*... but as long as there isn't a whole lot of money in it for them, I pretty much trust that they probably won't. Probably.

      But here's my point, and it's mainly aimed at the Google Corporation:

      When one of your long-term, relatively satisfied customers can in the span of 30 seconds flip from Happily Brainwashed Satisfied Consumer to OH-EMM-FUCKING-GEE KILL IT WITH FIRE, your marketing team has probably done something wrong.

      To which Google may well reply, "Psh. You'll take it and come back for more," and I'll respond, "Yeeaah... I know."

      With that, I'm off to look at what's apparently the only apartment in Cedar Rapids that allows dogs and has a rent under $500. Wish me luck, eh? smiley1.gif

  • Comments (21)

    • BaghdadBean

      BaghdadBean

      3 years ago

      I see you creeping there! Nice to see you!

      • BaghdadBean

        BaghdadBean

        3 years ago

        I know how that goes. I've done the living zombie thing a few times myself, although usually mine is the flip side of the coin... week long insomnia runs. Well I'm glad you're awake and I hope you get to come out and play more often. *HUGSSSSSS* oh. And this too *hugs*. Heh.

      • vegacoyote

        vegacoyote

        3 years ago

        Good to see you too, and Tyger and your sheep, they look great! :) I've missed you guys. I kinda crashed for like... a year or so, actually I'm having trouble telling how long I was out of it, as I was asleep for most of it. Hopefully maybe waking up now? Thanks for saying Hi! :)

    • DaftProdigy

      DaftProdigy Tinfoil Hatter

      3 years ago

      O___O

      Holy crap you're HERE! Hi Vega =D

      • DaftProdigy

        DaftProdigy Tinfoil Hatter

        3 years ago

        You should definitely do that :) smiley13.gif

      • vegacoyote

        vegacoyote

        3 years ago

        hi :)
        heh, yeah, sorta here. I kinda, like, fell asleep for a year or so in there... not sure how long this leave-of-hibernation is gonna last, so no promises where I'm gonna be next week either, but it's good to see you! :D

        Man, I didn't realize how much I missed you guys. Totally gonna try and claw myself further out of the brain-hole & hang out some more. smiley13.gif

    • MissZahrah

      MissZahrah

      4 years ago

      Wishing you and your family a very happy Thanksgiving. smiley12.gif

    • BaghdadBean

      BaghdadBean

      5 years ago

      Hey there lady, how has the world been treating you? How've you been treating you? Did the job work out?

    • DocRossim

      DocRossim

      5 years ago

      Indeed. I still think these are simplified suits though, as I said on the thread, as most of the soldiers don't have the super senses or super strength of the original spartans (apart from Caboose, and I think he was another experiment, most likely he was a failed attempt at cybernetic implants -- failed because it damaged his brain) but I agree that the premise the Director put forward to the UNSC bureaux of oversight was to build and test out these suits and train ordinary soldiers to use them. His original intention was most likely research with A.I. though, this was just a way to get funding in the first place.

    • DocRossim

      DocRossim

      5 years ago

      Ah, I wondered why you hadn't replied to that little comment. You posted on your own comments page...

      Anyway, as I would have explained: When I suggested the point of Project Freelancer might be to test out/train soldiers to use some simpler versions of the Freelancer armour.... it kind of got swept over in the general discussion.

      I was not being serious with the "damn you so hard". I just wanted to engage discussion of the subject with someone who has a similar view.

    • vegacoyote

      vegacoyote

      5 years ago

      *evil grin*
      Thank you, thank you. smiley0.gif

    • DocRossim

      DocRossim

      5 years ago

      I think that Freelancer was primarily focused on increasing the utility of Mjolinr armor- specifically, coming up with methods to allow Joe Recruit to use it


      Damn you. Damn you so hard.

    • LadyRocki

      LadyRocki

      5 years ago

      Thanks for the friend request! smiley0.gif

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    • dougss

      dougss

      5 years ago

      I like your art!