zeitgeistzest FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

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from Finland

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    • A Quick Thank You To Y'all

      1 day ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      I just want to take this moment to thank all the people I've met on this site so far, withstanding my vents and all and trying to help me navigate in the sea of messes I manage to get myself into because I am socially so feckin incompetent. 


      Like RvB helped me through a very, very difficult phase of my life last spring / summer / autumn by making me laugh a lot (it still makes me laugh - I was roaring with laughter the other night when I saw Caboose visits Halo Reach Campaign... and "Where There's a Will, There's a Wall" is one of my all-time favorite miniseries), y'all are helping me stay afloat when I feel like I'm becoming insane. <3


      Not to mention
      all the funny moments, memes, pictures, Mecha Cats (shit, I should've drawn a whisker on my current avatar it's gonna be a hassle to upload a new version to all the places *gives The Look at the Xbox*), and y'all know so much about different types of topics and there are talented artists, writers, and other enthusiasts I can't even. Sometimes I check the OCC and am just mind-blown (and often confused and lost, and feeling dumb, hah). Everyone's also been trying to understanding and supportive, even though I bet at times some of you may feel like "Zeit the fuck you doing with your life stahp no don't do that facepalm there she goes again why is she like this pls" (<-- totally just my own assumption).


      In short, I think you're all amazing and just thank you. I have not been here for that long, but I am happy and proud to call you lot my friends and can just hope to return the warmth with which people have received me here. 


      And... I am not the wisest person out there (obviously), and don't know always how to comfort, but my PMs are always open if anyone needs to talk or vent or just share silly pictures. <3


      That is all. Keep on being awesome.



      I'm having a weird sense of deja vu I've written this before... but I haven't.... have I? I am also having all the feels and not enough sleep.

    • Finnish Friday: Nobody Lives Here Because of the Language

      2 days ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      Hello! (  ̄▽ ̄)/ Tonight I am posting a new installment in the Finnish Friday posts, earlier than usual as I'll be busy as heck this weekend (cleaning and packing for a trip... going out to the cinema...).


      Anyways, earlier tod-- yesterday I saw these two amusing links on Facebook, and decided to share them on here! ^w^ 


      The first is a map of Finland with some information about the population per square kilometer (1 square km = 0.386102159 square miles). Kukaan ei asu täällä = Nobody lives here.


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      (source)


      The second is a map of Europe with estimates about how long it would take to reach reading and speaking proficiency with one of the European languages, from the English-speaker's point of view. 


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      (source) (see also: European language levels - Self Assessment Grid)


      Fascinating, right? :D 


      Anyway, that's it for this week's post! (~‾▿‾)~ I should try to get some sleep, but I just beat through - after several attempts - the final boss in Episode Prompto the DLC for FFXV, so I am kinda hyper right now! Wooohoo!

    • Finally

      4 days ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      ! The promised video is up for watching now. <.<;;; :D



    • Monday's Moody Ponderings

      6 days ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      After another energy draining 'conversation' with someone I have known from another website (some of you may know which I'm referring to), I started thinking about two things.


      Do I complain a lot and overly talk about myself / my troubles, too, and thus drain other people's energies? + Is that why people (in general, not from here) withdraw from me the moment they can?


      And why is it the people from that other site that keep draining out my energies?


      Just... *slams her forehead to the desk* I don't mind people telling about their troubles to me, but if 99% of the 'conversation' is "Ohh I have it 2k% worse than anyone else you know" thennnnn.... argh. 


      I could write more and elaborate but ... nah. I feel too mehh to do that now. Q_Q

    • Zeit Tries to Date, part 4

      1 week ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      First of aaaall, a clarification I already made on a thread (or tried to make a clarification): I am not necessarily looking for a romantic relationship, but also not for one-night flings. <__<;;; So to call these 'dates' is a bit... eheheh... Not too correct I guess? I just want to meet new people.


      To elaborate. What I do need to do is practice meeting other human beings. Over the years I've grown socially anxious, and I know if I don't practice this sort of thing it's only going to get worse. I used to be social as a kid, but then I got bullied and started withdrawing. I did have a wide circle of friends and acquaintances, but going to new places wasn't my favorite thing either. By the time I met with ex, I wasn't a complete reclusive and via him I met more people and it wasn't too bad... but over the past few years with him, my self-esteem took a nose-dive and I started going... bad. I'd fear meeting new people, afraid if I'd spill out secrets I shouldn't have even known about others, and come up with excuses not to even meet old friends. And I'd gotten used to being on my own, as he was always working, on his phone, or with his friends... and he'd wanted us to live in the middle of nowhere.


      Soooo yeah. In the past few months I've tried making more effort into meeting new people. Other ladies at first, to avoid the possible clashes of interest, but since that wasn't going so well... well. Living in the middle of nowhere without a car doesn't really help either, nor that I lose interest in hobbies pretty fast. I also find it hard to 'click' with other females, either I feel inferior to them or I get the sense I can't trust them (some of the hardest betrayals I've experienced were from other girls). 


      So yeah. I know I'm not fully healed yet, there's anger issues and trust issues to work out before I could start actually dating anyone and I need to be as upfront about it as I can, but I do know that if I wait any longer, then my fears and anxieties are only going to get worse. It's walking on a tightrope since certain behaviors of others 'trigger' memories in me and get me doubting their interest / motives, but GODDAMNIT. I want to meet new people. |:< I don't want to be alone, but I don't want to end up pretending to please someone else again either. So yeah it isn't easy, navigating on this sea of human relations.


      Soooo earlier this week I'd agreed to meet with Mr nro 2, and there was a point this weekend where I wanted to call it off 'cause I was so fretting over the past and the whole ghosting experience with ex (and that he kept making social media profiles he had never had before, as far as I knew anyway, using the same platforms as I did) and 'cause I hecking keep comparing guys to him... (and some girls, too, and some girls to the lady people in his circles). 


      But. I guided mom to the station then went to see the guy. And let's makes this short and just say that I'm glad I went. Definitely a good experience, 11+ EXP to the Zeit Dating Sim lolololol. If nothing else, then at least I've gained a new friend.... not to mention I had a good experience with another human being. 


      Also, I think it's worth mentioning I don't try to flirt. I don't dress up too specially, like... when I agree to go out with someone, I then try to put on clothes I'd wear to lectures and other university-related meetings. Like today I wore my camo hoodie and a beanie hat, as well as all of my rings. (Which were brought up in the conversation, sort of; I changed my ear piercings to titanium ones, finally, on Friday and they've been a little irritated / itchy since [but healing faster than with the practice piercings], I almost scratched at an ear, flinched, and he asked what's up and I told him I'd just got them changed and then we discussed jewelry and such and I mentioned I'm used to wearing rings almost 24/7 since I was a teenager.)



      Sooo yeah. That's it for now. xD Wow what a long-winded post. Wasn't supposed to be this long. Uhhhh next up I should probably get done with the video I've promised to dooooo! xD


      PS. Blessed silence...... I haven't even turned on a console / TV, let alone put up any music yet. Such blessed silence.... ahh.

    • 100 Years, Video Plans, Mom's Visit

      1 week ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      Happy Belated 100th Anniversary to Suomi Finland! <3


      I spent the Independence Day with mom, as she got here on Tuesday. We took some candles to Lutakonaukio where the event organizers formed a '100' from the candles there, and then we went around some uhh local bars xD and visited the stairs of Harju when they got lit. And then visited some more bars. xD 


      So I'm still still having some issues with YouTube, and since mom isn't leaving until tomorrow, well. It's been delayed. x( But it will be done, damn it! :D 


      I'm exhausted. We've been going around the city, trying to figure out a puzzle with 2k pieces (fml whose stupid idea was this thing), and... well. I just want some alone time already. 43 square meters isn't a lot for 2 people... Gran called me yesterday asking when I'm going there, and I had to tell her by the end of next week 'cause I "have to study", but jfc really I just want some peace and quiet before I have to be social again 24/7 and adjust my lifestyle to the daytime living. Normal people are the cray-cray ones. <.<;;; 


      Anyways, that's the updates from me for now. I'll check on the forums real quick but yeah, puzzle is awaiting and so is more city exploring. (killmepls I miss having a car of my own)


      Hope you're all doing well out there. <3

    • Oh hey hey - Update 2

      1 week ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      Due to technical issues, I haven't got the video up yet - I've recorded twice now, and both times when I've started working on the subtitles (for Finnish words etc) I've noticed the new online webcam recorder site had decided to cut off the sound after about 10 minutes. :s I'll try again once mom gets out for a walk, and hopefully the old recording site works better. (And nope, I can't get recording software to work on my laptop, let alone YT encoding.) If it won't work, I'll record on my phone and add subtitles way later, we need to go downtown in a couple of hours..


      ----


      Thank you for all the questions!! <3 I'll be making the video today because mom's coming over later tonight & I'd feel super shy with her around tomorrow xD soooo yeah questions are now closed! :) I got a handful from Twitter & then quite many on here~


      Stay tuned! :3


      Finland's 100th Independence Day is soon! :) Dec 6! Got any questions about it, the country, the language, the people, post them here and I'll make a video in which I'll answer y'all from my perspective of things. ^w^


    • Zeit Tries to Date, part 3

      2 weeks ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      Soooo :3


      I went to see someone today...~~ I think it went pretty well. ^^ We met up around 1pm and I just got home around 5:30pm... We went to a cafe and sat there talking for a good while about games, work, studying, cars, even weather xD before having something to eat a Subway (because I couldn't decide where else to eat, lol, I suck at deciding about such things). 


      I don't know what else to write. :D It was quite fun and a lot less awkward than I'd worried (I didn't infodump him about the past, for one) and I hope we'll see again. ^^ 


      But yeah. +10XP for me!

    • Warthog Wash

      2 weeks ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      So I recorded another thing for YouTube, with my phone! (And now I realize I could've used the external webcam for this, but ehh, whatever. xD 


      Basically just me doing silly things on the Warthog on Halo CE. :3

    • Finnish Friday: A Text From Mom

      2 weeks ago

      zeitgeistzest ψ(`∇´)ψJolly Zeit

      So hi there! :D I promised a video, so here's one. There's a lot of unrelated babbling, but yep, that's me and I'm reading out a text message my mom sent me. (Video has subtitles, so put those on!) Nothing too personal, she just announced me (OUT OF THE BLUE) that she and stepdad are coming over tomorrow. 


      And now to go cleaning around...

  • About Me

    Laura / zeit / ZGZ, also Lil' Vampire, Countess Zeitula, Zesty the Besty (Val's nickname for me haha), and Usabankathi (a nickname I got because of my first ever profile pic haha) -- whatever you wanna call me I'll probably be fine with it. I go by zeitgeistzest on DeviantArt, Discord, Mixer, Sarahah, Steam, Tumblr, Twitter, and Xbox; zeitgeistzest__ on Instagram, and Zeit Geistzest on YouTube. 

    I'm quite socially awkward, so I might appear cold and rude at first (in real life). I either speak very little, or way too much.

    My many interests include video games, literature (both reading and writing), photography, yoga, translation, linguistics (especially word formation and how meanings get communicated via different media), taking walks in the forest, sitting by the lakeside, driving a car (currently don't have my own), listening to music... uhhh... I also sometimes doodle and crochet, and dabble with stuff on GIMP. 

    Final Fantasy III to XV (excluding XI and XIV but including Dirge of Cerberus and A King's Tale), Halo, Warframe, Bioshock Infinite, Dragon Age series, Forza Horizon, Metro 2033 Redux and Last Light Redux, Watch Dogs, Spyro the Dragon, Deus Ex - Human Revolution, Stardew Valley; I also have the following games, untouched so far: Doom, Destiny 1,Skyrim and Minecraft Story Mode.

    Some of my fav shows and book / manga series: Fullmetal Alchemist, Red vs Blue, Day 5, RTAA, House, Helix, Black Mirror, NCIS, Revelation Space, The Wheel of Time, Chronicles of Shannara, Discworld, Inside Out (by L. R. Jones), ...

    +Cats and dogs and seals are cute. C:

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