Most of you didn't know I've really wanted a suit for some time now. I finally got one that looks nice, I think I look good in it. That's the silver lining for this dark cloud.

Monday night/Tuesday morning James Todd Age passed away. This may not mean anything to you, but it does to me. This man was my grandfather. He wasn't blood related, he was my grandmother's boyfriend for 28 years. My mom's dad died before I was born, and my dad's dad died before I actually got to the stage to where I could form memories.

Tuesday, I stayed home and was in denial about the whole thing, I went to school the next day and was taken out the last block. Yesterday was the family showing. Naturally, no one told my mom a thing and they expected us to buy a suit and such in less than 2 hours and get there on time.

We got there, and everything hit me at once, I just broke down. My grandmother was in tears the whole time, my uncle(Jim's son) was on the verge of tears the whole time. We were there for about 6 hours, and we went back today.

Today was still hard, but Ashley came there for me, and that made it a little easier. Tomorrow is the funeral and I really don't want to see my grandfather put in the ground, but I'm going to anyway.

R.I.P. James T. Age