What does this song mean to you?

Zzyzx Rd. by Stone Sour

I don't know how else to put this- It's taken me so long to do this
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight
My muscles feel like a melee - body is curled in a U-shape
I put on my best but I'm still afraid
Propped by lies and promises- Saving my place as life forgets
Maybe it's time I saw the world
I'm only here for awhile- But patience is not my style
And I'm so tired that I got to go

What am I supposed to hide now? What am I supposed to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through?
Tell me I should stick around for you, Tell me I could have it all
I'm still to tired to care and I got to go

I get to go home in one week, but I'm leaving home in three weeks
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry
I'm Following suit and directions- I crawl up inside for Protection
I'm told what to do and I don't know why
I'm over existing in limbo - I'm over the myths and placebos
I don't really mind if I just fade away...
I'm ready to live with my family - I'm ready to die in obscurity
Cuz I'm so tired that i got to go

Where am I supposed to hide now? What am I supposed to do?
You still don't think I'm going to see this through?
Tell me I'm a part of history - Tell me I could have it all
I'm still to tired to care and I got to go
I'm still to tired to care and I got to go...