okay! i've had enough of this shit! this stuff always happens to me...the person with an easily broken heart.
we talked for an hour and started our friendship anew. then the next week we take a walk..and he kisses me! KISSES ME!!! and it wasn't just an ordinary kiss on the lips either!!!!! it was well..i don't know if i want to embarress myself..but i guess i will anyways....the kiss was freakin passionate okay....no kidding..it was like old times...like we never broke up. the thing is i was fallin for him again..and he knew it too...he even mentioned getting back together and that it would be hard cuz of our parents. then 2 days later he turns me down and gets a girlfriend after that. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM!!!!!???? i didn't know whether to beat his ass or cry..and knowing me...i didn't want him to know i was hurt...i acted tough..and cried and beat up a pillow when i got home....not a very pretty sight...so i bet ur all wondering why the hell i'm wirting all this...i ranting..and it's the only way i can get over it... so yeah..i'll be his friend to an extent and see how things go. but that's it. i'm tired of laying in bed crying over something so stupid and i can't believe i'm so stupid to let all this get to me...but it's who i am. a very bad flaw in me. so yeah...if he reads this...he knows who he is...i'm over him..i'm over the kiss...i'm over EVERYTHING....

so yeah..sorry about this guys...i needing to blow off some steam.