So you could say this is a pretty heavy life update.
First and foremost I would just like to say a huge thank you to all of you who have been so supportive and lovely on my university/mental health journey. Whenever I've felt pretty low over the past couple months I found myself reading the comments on all of my journals and it just gives me an overwhelming feeling of comfort. So this is a genuine thank you to everyone here.
However on a different note, I'm around 99% certain on leaving uni. I know I've only been here for a couple of months but the rate at which my mental health has deteriorated since being here has made me realise that I can't do it any longer. I adore Manchester and there is absolutely nothing wrong with my course, but trying to look after myself on my own whilst also being solely responsible for my education and living arrangement isn't something I'm doing all too well at.
This coming Wednesday I'm speaking with a support advisor to decide how and what I'm going to do with my life to put it shortly. The plan for next week is also to see a doctor as I've found myself going downhill once more and I hope that this leads to me having a "fix". I am in no way done with university but I just feel like for now I need to focus on getting myself better before I try again.
There is so much more I could add to this journal but you guys probably know by now that I have a tendency to ramble! I'm once again going to try and be more of a presence on here as it is genuinely one of my favourite places to be.Of course there will be an obligatory Christmas journal next month but I may write some smaller and less intense ones before then. Don't forget that any of you are free to talk to me about any issues you may have or you could even just be super nosey and ask me a billion questions about my life!
Thank you all again and I hope you're well
4 years ago