You can't just wish and hope your dreams will come true. You have to chase it to achieve it. I have to do this for myself. I can't live a life full of "what ifs". I can't handle anymore regrets. Regrets for the things I never did or never said. I don't fully understand this feeling or how I got it. It feels like a beast has been awaken inside of my soul. It's not just passion or desire. It's something more. Something stronger. I believe it's Fate. It'll take time, but I will become the person I'm meant to be. This world will know me. This world will see the Real Kris Baker. No more hiding. My self doubt will wash away and confidence will replace it. I've never had confidence. I never believed in myself. I hated everything I did. I hated myself. My confidence disappeared when I was young. I hated the sound of my voice. That's why I stayed so quiet all the time. That's why I sat alone in school. I didn't like myself. I was a different person back then. That's the amazing thing about time. You grow. You grow into a different person than you were before. Every day is a new day. A new chance to do better and to become your true self. Every minute we have a chance to say something or do something that can change a life. Sometimes it's a stranger in need. Sometimes it's yourself. I'm ready to live my life. I've gone too long without being myself. On August 6th, my life changed. I met amazing people who chased their dreams and made them realities. I met people that I've known for 12 years. Seeing them in person was the best feeling in the world. They made me happy and made me laugh when I needed it the most. And I want to be that for other people. People who are struggling with life just like I was. People who suffer from depression. People who contemplate suicide. People who were bullied or looked down upon. I want to be the light at the end of the tunnel for them. I want them to know that someone cares. Just like Rooster Teeth, I want to be there for people. I want to help fill broken hearts with laughter and joy. I want to replace all the bad thoughts with happiness. I want to help people with beaten down souls and crushed dreams. I'm not sure how I'll do this, but I'll find my way. My own way of helping people. This is Fate. My Fate and my Destiny.
3 years ago