Hi lovelies,

I have some bittersweet news. I will be leaving my position as Head of Events on February 13. This has been such a wild ride and one that I have thoroughly enjoyed, however it’s time for me to begin a new chapter. I have been offered an incredible opportunity to take my skills and experiences and head a global strategic meetings management division for a large tech company.

Rooster Teeth has been by far the most unique and fun company I have ever worked for. I have had more laughs than I can count - laughs that have made me cry actual tears. You can’t get that at most companies. I have worked with the most creative and weird and talented people in the world. I have put together many live events with my team that I am deeply proud of; from RTX to the Let’s Play Live Tour to the Phantogram concert at Stubb’s. I am very fortunate and grateful to have been given these opportunities to learn and grow and stumble and succeed.  

I went through a few personal ups and downs in 2018, most of which I haven’t publicly shared with you all. The most heart wrenching event was when my mom passed away unexpectedly in late August. It completely shattered my world. I have been learning about grief and how love and grief are inexplicably intertwined and that it’s impossible to have one without the other. I am learning that anxiety is the missing stage to grief and working towards my "new normal" and pushing through all of the “firsts” without her. I also broke my right foot in December which took its toll on me in a huge way and left me immobile for 6 weeks and counting. Let’s just say it was an emotionally and physically challenging end to my year! I owe enormous amounts of gratitude to @matt and @ezracooperst who gave me all of the time off I needed to grieve and take care of myself and my family when my mom died. I will be forever grateful to have been given that support and time. Thank you, Mat and Ezra, from the bottom of my heart.

Now for the positives! My nephew Roth was born in September shortly after my mom passed away. It was an overwhelming mashup of pain and beauty to have one of the most important people leave my life just as another soon-to-be important person was entering. Roth has given our family hope and love at a time where we need it most. Another wonderful event that occurred in December was when I bought a house with the love of my life. He has been my strength and biggest supporter, especially over the last few months. And lastly…I’m getting married at the end of February! I am filled with so much excitement, and love, and joy to be starting this journey with my person. This old Grandma Beth tricked someone into spending forever with her. Sucker!

I’m sharing the personal side of my life with you now to give you an idea of how my personal life has been working with my professional life to figure out what’s right for me right now. I can't guarantee that I will absolutely love this new opportunity or not, but what I do know is that I have to try. I need a change. I need to grow. I need to learn new things. I need to fail. I need a fresh start.

The Rooster Teeth community is the aspect of this job I will miss the most. You welcomed me into the family from the very beginning and I’ve had the pleasure of talking to and hugging many of you from all over the world. I have laughed and cried with you. I’ve enjoyed staying in contact regularly with several of you, even including a few of your moms! The biggest reason this has been the most unique and fun job I have ever had is because of you. I wouldn’t have gotten my job at Rooster Teeth without you. You have been the reason it was so difficult to make the decision to leave. I would love to stay connected with you for as little or as long as you like. I wish each of you loads of success in whatever you choose to do in your life. But above all, I wish for your happiness. Just be happy. And be kind to one another.

I will deeply miss my events team. They keep me sane in an insane environment. They are smart and incredibly fun and funny. We’ve had a lot of adventures together over the years and in various parts of the world. The events team will still be here once I leave to help you, listen to you, and support your ideas and concerns just as they have always done. They genuinely care! There are tons of awesome elements to look forward to for RTX Austin and Animation Festival this year. The team has it all covered as usual and I know they’re excited to announce what’s ahead for the community. Please show them some love once I’m gone!

And of course I have to thank one of my favorite people, @gus, who hired me in 2015. We had one phone call and one Skype call and then I was offered the job. I moved my life from Washington, D.C. to Austin, TX and was terrified that I made the wrong choice because I wasn’t sure if the company with the weird videos was legit or not. Thankfully when I showed up to my first day of work I had a desk and laptop and they knew my name. Gus, @Barbara, and I shared an office and those were seriously some of the best times I have had. To this day, Gus and I have only disagreed twice and hugged once (although I will force him into a second hug on my last day). He’s been my strongest advocate throughout my time here at RT and is one-of-a-kind. I have learned so much from him. Like how not to lose lots of money on Let’s Play Live, how to Chambong, how to think outside the box, what a “monitor” vs a computer is, that we both prefer to eat lunch at 11am or earlier, and many other helpful and unhelpful things.

When I accepted the position at Rooster Teeth in 2015, I was excited and scared. Ultimately, I went with my gut - this overwhelming feeling - that this would be the right next place for me. And it has been. I am going with my gut again with my next move. My new opportunity is one that quite frankly scares the shit out of me (you’re never too old to experience imposter syndrome!). But the fact that it scares me is the reason I know it’s the right next move for me. I need to move forward and shake things up in a big way.

As I’ve ended many journal posts and RTX program books many times, I’ll leave you with lyrics that are special to me:

There are places I’ll remember

All my life, though some have changed

Some forever, not for better

Some have gone and some remain

All these places have their moments

With lovers and friends I still can recall

Some are dead and some are living

In my life, I’ve loved them all

Take care.