In fact, my last journal was 6 months ago.
Well. Greetings travellers.
I JUST REALISED I'M FEATURED USER TODAY. Uhm... Wow uh.. thank you RT :)
As a reward:
There. Enjoy >:D
2 years agoAlphaLima_01
It has indeed been a while since I've been on this site. There's lots of reasons for that - busy working, busy sorting myself out, busy everything.
But it's the kind that's making me productive. First off, I'll be nearing my 5th month of my Probationary Period at OMD - it has so far been challenging, amazing and... what can I say? I love working there.
In other aspects, I've been neglecting the gym side - those 9-5 hours, 1 hour trip to and fro work. I at least make an effort to turn up once or twice a week. Slowly losing motivation though, which is a bummer...
I would like to at least imagine fit, naked people. *does so...* Yeeeaahh no.
Love life - going strong, nearing 2 years. Amazing, @SparkyDJM1 has been the most supportive, understanding and caring person I've known, and we are both committed as always to be there for each other. Work may keep me occupied and leave me feeling tired, but I'm glad he understands. Even more so that he hasn't reached the limit and call it quits.
Now... for gaming-related, I might make a slow, irregular but steady return to Livestreaming. With the release of new games and new content, I might find some opportunity to record or stream Let's Plays, and hopefully increase the number of deaths due to stupidity.
If you are new and not sure who the hell I am (which is cool) - twitch.tv/alphalimaone is my channel. Now it may look dull, but I'll be putting some love and decoration to it. Also, I may think about having a face cam while playing. Apparently I make the funniest expressions, so why don't I record my face as well.... yes yes, I can picture my mad face as I try to either sneak, run, hide or die.
That's all for now folks, I thank you for reading. Or commenting, or liking without reading.
Have a lovely day/night :)
2 years agoAlphaLima_01
To all my homies,
My gaming partners,
My skyrim meme friends,
My artistic creators,
I've missed you.
Have a bacon.
3 years agoAlphaLima_01
Yes, I know... Again I'm MIA. BUT I have a good reason!
I haven't told anyone, apart from family and close friends - but last week I started working.
Yes. The Alpha of all Alphas - is employed. And it's my very first job. I'm not kidding - first job I applied, first job interview, and I got the role.
Now I'm part of the Media Finance Team for a global media agency. And so far, it is pretty amazing. My new workmates are kind, hilarious - my manager, even better. Last week was quite an adventure, Thursday night was the 16th Birthday of the company so I had my first nightclub experience. A 80/90s themed party and my god it was awesome!!! Saw someone wearing the 'Vote for Pedro' T-Shirt from Napoleon Dynamite, another team was dressed as the cast from Grease - you know the Pink Ladies and the T Birds. And I didn't get home until about 2.15 am - Cab ride with 6 workmates. But, it was a super fun experience.
I'm really happy where I am right now. I just can't believe that I'm working now hahaha. And I'm loving it.
Now, on the downside I got sick over the weekend. It may have been the sudden change of schedule - of having to wake up at 6 in the morning to go to work, the bad winter, the 2 hours gym workout I did on Saturday; I'm betting my money on the cold weather. But yeah, I'm sick with upper respiratory tract infection. Which means rest, porridge, antibiotics, lots of water and a speedy recovery. Ah well. Body must get used to the change.
Sucks that I'm ill since I just started working. But I'm fighting my stubborn nature to rest and recover; wouldn't want to infect other people at work. Sore throat, painful chest, sneeze fests and watery eyes. The funny part? I can't talk cause it hurts so much, so I've taken to using Google Translate on my phone. Used it last night to talk with my parents. Next thing you know they started using it. It was sad, but funny - especially when mum typed "just eat mother fucker". It's funny to hear the voice of Google speak.
TLDR; New job, unfortunately sick at the moment. Using google translate to communicate.
Now, a GIF!
And maybe a food post.
3 years agoAlphaLima_01
For her, music was one of her methods to escape from reality. No matter how much tears she shed, or wounds she reopened, no matter how much pain she feels - she would get away from it all by going to the one place where she truly felt like herself; where she could be who she wants to be without harming anyone…
Harming anyone, she thought bleakly, harming others by being honest and open…
With the soft sounds of the piano and guitar strumming in the background, her favourite song ‘The Sound of Silence’ makes her feel at ease. Taking comfort in what she thought to be a beautiful rearrangement - another tear glides down her cheek, the deep pang in her chest lingering as she reflects on her past, and the choices she made up to this point.
The choice to let go of what made her happy at first, but slowly turned to a thing of pain and poison. The choice to finally look out for herself, by putting herself first. After giving one too many chances to a person, who sought to take advantage of her kindness. Her good heart. In the end it destroyed her - emotionally and physically.
Her chest tightened at the memory of her recent friendship that she had to let go.
“I’ve tried… Tried so hard, to be the person that I am. To be honest and open with my friends, to be happy and cheerful. They enjoy that side of me. But in the end it didn’t matter, because they never did try to help me when I was down. Or rather, they could not understand me well enough, and made me feel like my problems are nothing.” She said aloud in a shaky voice, no one else in the room, the music still playing softly in the background.
Her face matted with tears, throat choked with overwhelming emotion, she could barely contain it. Feelings of raw pain, sadness, anger and frustration hitting her all at once.
“People talking without speaking, people hearing without listening, people writing songs that voices never share…”
In a blind rage, she picked up the glass from her desk and threw it on the wall with all her might and a furious grunt, hearing it shatter, seeing it split into small fragments, liquid staining the wall before gliding downwards. Falling to her knees, her hands clutching her head, rocking back and forth and releasing a whimper as multiple thoughts run through her brain. The voices of those she considered to be friends.
“Not good enough… You keep staying in the past, and nothing in the present takes you out of it. You are letting your past affecting your present relationships, and it makes me feel like I’m not much value of a friend… All you’re doing is seeking attention… ”
But the one voice, that hurt the most, like a dagger to the heart….
“I know you’re trying… I’ll always be your friend, no matter what…”
Her teeth clenched together as the tears come down faster and harder. The walls and barriers disintegrating with each tear. Fingers on her head slowly balling into a fist and grabbing strands of hair. The painful heat blooming in her chest - the tight feeling, almost felt like it was running through her veins, looking for any place where it could be released. Paralyzing her limbs, the thoughts becoming louder in her mind…
“I love you. I’ll look after you. I’m always here.”
And it was at the moment, tears still flowing she opened her mouth and released the most heart wrenching wail that reverberated to the walls, fists furiously pounding the ground as the torrent of emotions flooded her being. She screamed till her voice was hoarse, she punched the ground until she felt more pain, not caring if her knuckles would be bruised.
All she could think about was pain. Screaming. Pain. Screaming.
Then all was numb.
“And whispered in the sound of silence...”
3 years agoAlphaLima_01
This is bugging me and I haven't had the chance to ask... But how come I can't copy and paste images (whenever I post a journal) on my MACBOOK. As in - the gifs, the memes and all that. I can do that on my PC. But not on my Macbook. And yes, I did both the 'copy image' and 'copy image address' - still a negatory.
the Brotherhood of Outcast
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Ladies of Rooster Teeth
Take a walk down the Art Lane.
Normally I wouldn't do this... But since you are all nice and talented community, I'd thought I share my artistic talents as well :)
Just a note that the following drawings may be wonky or imperfect. It has been nearly 4 years 
Only my face. Oh yeah with backgrounds.
*looks at you*