AngeDeNeige

Female
from Boise, ID

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    • What is it about jerks?

      9 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      I'm pretty close to my dad, he's a friend I could talk to about almost anything. I like to think that he's a good guy in general. All my life, he's been a ladies man, never alone, and most of them "hot". When a friend of mine was asking me about what women like about men, about how to meet a girl and keep her around, I sent him to my dad.

      After the lengthy phone call, I asked my friend what he said. "Apparently, I just need to be an a**hole, and they will flock all around me." Is this true?

      Look at all romantic comedies. Every single one of them starts with an amazing girl who's dating some jerk, and none of them realize it until the end when the perfect man sweeps them off of their feet. It brings up the question: what attracts women to jerks in the first place?

      I've dated a jerk or two, and it's never pretty. You know he's not right for you, that you deserve better, but you can't seem to let go. There is always a reason to keep going. I know for me, it was always the hope that he would grow up and maybe turn into a decent person. I didn't want to change him, but I was still waiting, hoping, for a change.

      You'd be an idiot to go into a relationship that you knew wasn't going to be good for you. So why do we do it? Their charm? The rebel inside? Not knowing that there is better out there?

      I spent over two years with someone I couldn't let go. I knew that I wouldn't ultimately be happy with him. I knew our values and morals didn't line up. I didn't like the things he was involved in. I could never see myself having a family with him. But I could never find a reason enough to be finished with him. I knew he was a horrible person, that there was a likely chance that he had cheated on me, but I could always make up a reason to not dump him. "It will make things too complicated... I'll wait until he graduates... until I graduate... I really think he's ready to work on us..." It was all crap. Every excuse. I knew he was bad for me, but I didn't want to be out of it.

      It was only after a summer away, him telling me the truth about a lie, and finding a new friend with fresh eyes to help me see that I was able to let him go.

      And I've never been happier.

      Have you ever known you were with a jerk, but couldn't let him/her go?

    • Yes, alive, and with good news

      11 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      I know, I've neglected this site for the past year now. I'm an awful person. Really though, I've just been too busy to try to keep up. Even now, I'm here trying to avoid doing homework, and I know I'll regret it in the morning.

      But I said I had good news, and I do. Due to the luckiest sequence of events known to man, I've ended up with an internship with a little company in Washington known as Boeing. This is the dream. Really. This could set up my professional career, or tear me down. I guess we'll see.

      As far as the guy thing is going, nothing of immediate importance is happening. I'm still dating the new guy, this makes ten months. Things are going well, but I don't know if I see things going beyond where they are now. I have so many emotional blockades up right now, and so does he. We're both stubborn as hell too. It's strange, but I still want to be with him, despite the lack of a dynamic relationship.

      I took too many classes this semester. AAAAAh. 16 credits of engineering classes. I'm killing myself. It sucks. If I survive finals week, I'll let you know.

    • I give in...

      12 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      Last time we talked, I had just broken up with my boyfriend of two years.

      I'm already with someone new.

      This may all seem a little sudden, maybe dangerous, but I"m a big girl. Trust me, I was separated from Nick long before we broke up. There wasn't much left romantically speaking. Yeah, it's true, this guy helped me to realize that I was ready to be without Nick, and he might have started off as a rebound, but he's a great guy. I don't see us really going anywhere, but we're having fun for right now. That's what really matters, right?

      Classes are kicking my ass. Grrr.

    • New Beginning? Or the end?

      12 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      Nick and I spent this last weekend as being "Single" and when the weekend was over, I thought I wanted to remain being single. So I told him that. Was it a mistake?

      I don't know if I've ever felt this horrible about something. I thought it was what I wanted, so why am I so sad all of the time? Even people who don't know me very well have commented on how I'm so different this week.

      Hardest part about breaking up? All of the friendships lost. Nick was my best friend for two years... And now I can't call him to say hi. I can't call when I've had a shitty day. And I have no one to talk to about how I feel about all of this. Also, everyone I knew, knows him. Let me put it this way... Most of my friends I saw only because I was with Nck. So I've essentially lost all of them. And Nick has spent this week going out with them. Margaritas one night, bowling tonight.

      Tonight he;s with doug. I've spent more time hanging out with doug than he has. He;s normally a tag along. I'm crying again...

      I've spent more time with the engineers than ever which is good, but none of them are good enough friends to be able to talk to about any of this.

      I think I made a mistake... But he's profiting from it. Who am I to ask him to forgive me when he's doing well?

    • By the way...

      12 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      Did I mention that I turned 21 over the holidays? Oh yeah, we spent Saturday night at the Spearmint Rhino. It kicked ass.

      What else is new..? I gave in.. call me a sell out... I joined MySpace.. *dodges game controllers* I know I know, it's bad, but I have good reason. I have some friends on there that aren't on facebook, so I had to do it.

      PS I'm freaking busy. 17 engineering credits blows.

    • So...

      12 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      I suppose I should finally update you all on everything. If you don't feel like reading all of this, go to the bottom and comment "Go Boise State!" Here goes:

      So I went on a cruise for my birthday/new years. Oh my god it was amazing! I never thought I'd really enjoy a cruise, but I did. A hotel that is somewhere else every day and has amazing food and so many things to do. My kind of vacation. The stops were: San Juan, St. Thomas, Dominica, Barbados, Aruba, and back to San Juan. We departed on New Years Eve and the party was fucking insane. There was free champagne everywhere, and as midnight approached, bottles of champagne began to be handed out. So much alcohol... So, the main party was on the tp deck, and at midnight, confetti went everywhere and the horn blew. It was so loud and crazy. Dad left after a minute or two and like within about 3 seconds, i was asked to dance. Like wow. Dad turned back around to say goodnight, but I was already dancing.

      The guy I was dancing with was with his sister and her friend. They bought me a few drinks. And then we went to the disco. A little buzzed, I feel like I'm an okay dancer, and decide to ditch the guy I was with, so I went for the best looking guy in the place, a 6'3'' blonde white guy. And surprise, he could actually dance. (I know, did I have to specify white? well, we left from San Juan so we had a lot of puerto ricans on the ship). So we danced, forever it seemed. He's from minnesota, named Patrick business major. His dad was on the dance floor and I got to meet him. It was cool. He walked me back to my room when the night was over. He was sooo adorable

      So, St Thomas. Pretty much just went to the beach, and then to downtown for shopping. It was pretty and the driving scared me, but it was fairly... uninteresting.

      That night, the Fiesta Bowl. If you didn't watch it, shame on you. Oh god it was excellent. I wish I had gone, but we had the cruise planned forever. Damn. I was known as the Bronco Girl on the ship the entire rest of the trip. It was kick ass.

      Dominica: BEAUTIFUL! Mountains and green and it was so nice! Too bad I was with my dad and aunt and uncle, who are all over 60. They wanted to do a driving tour. I get car sick. And in a mountainous place like that, you know i wanted to kill myself. I was miserable. And I got my hair all cutely braided. It was nice.

      That night, I was walking around, and who did I find? Pat. He and I walked around together talking about things. We were up on the deck looking at the stars and clouds and stuff. It was very nice. I enjoyed it a lot. So we decided to spend the day in barbados together.

      Barbados: So industrial. Couldn't go anywhere without having construction in the background. It was kinda annoying. But the company was good. We took a catamran out to a beach where we learned how to kayak. And then we went down the coast a ways, to a place to snorkel and look a turtles. All the time Pat and I were extremely close, always touching. I was feeling guilty because I had a boyfriend back home...

      Later, I got back together with pat and we spent some time together on the bow deck in the moonlight. It took me so much thinking... But I finally allowed myself to kiss him. I cheated. But it was wonderful. I mean, we were actually getting... serious. Like, our conversations had turned to views on children and marriage. Provoked by him actually.

      Day at sea... boring, met some new people, but still boring. Until the night. Got baxk together with pat, and we talked and made out some more. You have no idea how emotionally taxing it was on me to decide to do that. I mean, was hard, and i wouldn't have done it if I didn't feel anything with him.

      Aruba - went to the beach with a girl named brooklyn. She was kick ass. Didn't see pat. He got drunk and passed out.

      Day at sea. Boring. Last night though. Got together with everyone i had met, and exchanged info. Even pat showed up. No last kiss though. Just a final picture.

      So of course, now I'm all conflicted. I get back here, and yeah, i still love my boyfriend, but there's someone else, who i will probably never see and really never talk to, that i was able to have feelings for. That's scary. Someone other than nick can provoke that kind of response from me. Wow.

      I won't ever see Pat again, but he has changed a lot with me. I'm now doubting my relationship with Nick more. Nick knows about pat - of course i told him. And he said he was jealous but forgave me. And he doesn't want me contacting pat again. I don't know...

      Anyhow... new semester stuff. Lots of hard classes. I've already done a shit ton of homework. And have more to do. And I just marching in my last blue thunder parade ever probably. :-(

      But tonight.... STRIP CLUB!! Show me some titties! lol

    • Survived...

      12 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      I'm alive, not that you all care ;-) Um... go Broncos!! WOOT!!! I'm 21, and can go to the good strip clubs now. And I'm still swerving when I walk. It still feels like I'm on a ship.

      I had a good time, met great people, and even one really nice guy. *sigh* Maybe I'll share some stories. But for now, the BCS Champ game is on...

    • Soooo...

      12 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      I'm on a cruise right now... And will be turning 21 within the hour. Oh yeah.

    • Merry Christmas

      12 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      So yeah... Merry Christmas everyone! Surprisingly enough, we had a white Christmas, the first one in years! Freaking sweet!

      Things have been better... I don't know what's going on anymore. I think I'm going to take a break with Nick... Yeah, probably so, oh well, we'll see.

      I spent $400 on dresses last week. Go me. Um yeah... that's about it. 5 more days before cruise - kick ass!!

    • And the winner is...

      12 years ago

      AngeDeNeige

      So my grades are in. Drumroll please....

      In first place, is C Programming, with an A....
      In second and no surprise, Marching Band with an A.
      Third, and with much anticipation.... Calculus III, with an A-!! w00t!
      Fourth, already known, is Chemistry II, with another A-.
      Finally... last, and least, is Engineering Statics, with a B+!! h00ray!

      What does this mean? I EASILY cleared a 3.0 this semester. Shit - I cleared a 3.5. How the hell did that happen? I'd like to thank my bofriend, for being such a jerk that I would rather study than have sex. I'd also like to thank my chemistry and statics professors for curving dramatically.

      ** W A R N I N G : PROCEED WITH CAUTION - RANTINGS OF A PISSED OFF GIRLFRIEND AHEAD **

      In other news... Nick went home today. What a bastard. When he left for thanksgiving with me all pissed off at him and ready to call it quits, he said "Don't worry. I"ll be in towm for almost a week once Christmas break begins before I go home so we can have some time together." Guess what fucker - I'ts been 2 days, and in those 3 days, I've spent less that 5 hours with you. He thought his ticket was for Wednesday. Surprise! It's for monday. God I hate him sometimes. You know? More often than not nowadays it seems.... So now he won't be back until the 27th, and when he gets here, it will all be for bowl preparation. Then they leave on the 28th. So that means I won't actually get to see him until the 8th, after i get back from my cruise and he's back from Seattle. What the crap? Why does he pull this shit when he knows how I feel about it? He claims he didn't realize his ticket was for today, but he apparently allowed his father to buy it for today, so he should have known and been able to object to it then, over a month ago whren the plan was made. Fucker. YOU KNOW, WHY DO I STAY IN THIS IS I'M SO UNHAPPY? I wish I were 21... Strppers and booze... Yeah....

      ** E N D O F W A R N I N G **

      Yeah and my fucking stepmom keeps walking in here, trying to talk to me, and I just don't give a fuck. Ya know? Go bother somebody else.

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  • Comments (101)

    • Fugly69

      11 years ago

      :-)

    • john Quarlton Tanks

      11 years ago

      I got tickets to see it again except this time the writer and the director will be there for a Q&A.

    • zombieplan01

      12 years ago

      hey..how u doing
      *random commenter*

    • TheForeigner

      12 years ago

      thank you

    • Matt_Sernaker

      12 years ago

      good idea for getting even with the neighbors smiley0.gif matt approves

    • thedarKforce

      12 years ago

      It coz you guys are stuck in a conference that isn't concidered a BCS conference, which means you have to work extra hard and do amazing to even get considered for one of the lesser big bowl games(lol, kinda an oxymoron there).

      Thats an interesting place to meet a boyfriend thats for sure, disliking the strip club may of had to do with the fact we went on a sunday night... or the fact im not a fan of clubs to begin with, If I go out for the night I'm quite content at a sports bar watching the game with some friends, considering most bars/clubs don't play much music i find enjoyable.

    • ashamed1

      12 years ago

      this is the random commenter and I just wanted to say that you are very pretty ;o] that will be all thanx for your time ;o]

    • SpikedRocker FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      Congrats on your teams bowl win! That blue field must be good luck... maybe Cincinnati should invest...even though it don't go well with the orange and black..

    • Nightmar3

      12 years ago

      oh, and i hope the nick thing works out.

    • Nightmar3

      12 years ago

      what kinda tool?

    • RoadBlock FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold DONGS

      12 years ago

      I seriously can't wait for the game. It's going to be a lot of fun.

    • tc1885

      12 years ago

      Merry Christmashanukwanzica! Too and hope you got me something good for christmas!

    • sev_ered

      12 years ago

      thanks. finals were a bitch, but done with. i hope yours go/went well

    • SpikedRocker FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      Thanks for the faith. Today I feel loads better...one more day to the weekend!

    • Pixie

      12 years ago

      That's why I love digital cameras so! You can take thousands of pictures, and it doesn't matter if they suck, because you aren't paying through the nose for them. Plus, it lets you experiment with things you wouldn't normally try. If you don't have an eye for photography, practice and some basic photography guides will probably help. Don't go for the in-depth ones about all the technical gubbins on your camera though, they confuse even me some days. :)

      Oh, and thank you for the compliment too :)

    • womenlover5

      12 years ago

      yeah i no well i just wanted to see if i could find any for now but now im just looking for people to be my friends...yeah welll what hve you done lately to stop being bored?

    • Rs_Conqueror

      12 years ago

      Holy crap! Readers! I am not worthy... *bows*

    • SpikedRocker FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      Haha! That is true...but nose aside...they look nothing alike

    • muellertime

      12 years ago

      just for you....EDDY TIME!!!
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    • Matt_Sernaker

      12 years ago

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      For you smiley0.gif

    • camboy45

      12 years ago

      Yes he is, and there's a reason for that.

    • Matt_Sernaker

      12 years ago

      yeah they've really butchered our childhood with all the stupid incarnations of powerrangers. I just loved watching Tommy become the green ranger as a kid.

    • muellertime

      12 years ago

      do you have a FLAG???

    • FushigiHime FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Enter Witty Comment Here

      12 years ago

      I don't know, I wasn't sneaky enough when I was a kid to try that! smiley8.gif

    • tc1885

      12 years ago

      So what have you been up to lately?

    • tc1885

      12 years ago

      Thanks for the add cutie! smiley12.gifsmiley0.gif

    • DeltaSniper

      12 years ago

      I've been asked so many times...I just put it up.

    • Nightmar3

      12 years ago

      if anything it would probably just give them a false sense of godliness.

      "all i did was look at her and she freaked out. I RUUUUUUUULE."

      since you had the courtesy of commenting my journal, let alone visiting my profile, i'll talk to you for a bit :P

      how was your Thanksgiving break? you got out of classes, right?

    • DeltaSniper

      12 years ago

      Happy Late Thanksgiving to you too.

    • SpikedRocker FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

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      Hope you like it!

    • AgentGeno

      13 years ago

      cool page looks good

    • petypablo

      13 years ago

      i got that same dog lol

    • whateva

      14 years ago

      awesome! you like switchfoot! go here

    • SeRial123

      14 years ago

      Whats up?

    • Hostile

      14 years ago

      Hahahahah, I got -3 WTF's! Excellent

      sometiems i cry D;

    • trident

      14 years ago

      Hi there

    • mortyrshell

      14 years ago

      Congrats on Boise State winning the speech competition.

    • AllStarFitzy

      14 years ago

      heya... i dont have too much to say...
      skiing is cool stuff
      you look very nice in that prom dress:)
      Switchfoot is sooooo wicked...
      i basically like your entire profile of stuff... so .. Go You!...

    • starman3000

      14 years ago

      Geeze, you ski in shorts and short sleeves? Just go all the way and ski in a string bikini? (and forget the pictures! ;-))

    • Crimsonwhite

      14 years ago

      I love the ski pic you look warm!

    • UN4V41L48L3

      14 years ago

      WTF MATE?!
      i love that website!
      . . . damn kangaroos

    • FightGar

      14 years ago

      i will post pics when im finished but it wont be for a few months

    • Arken

      14 years ago

      man i still like that picture!

    • jlines

      14 years ago

      Dude you are 19. Its time for your dad to let you go.

      Just my thoughts.

    • Fasterthanthespeedofroses

      14 years ago

      You rock! Do you watch xplay like me? Skiing rules! Im going skiing in like a week.

    • asdfghj

      14 years ago

      meet the fockers was cool

    • enchanter

      14 years ago

      Its a liger =P

    • FightGar

      14 years ago

      hey just checkin if you are still alive

    • ispio

      14 years ago

      porn

    • SKazn213

      14 years ago

      no thats not cool... you know not knowing about the books.

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