AnimeHazel

Female
from that guy's mind

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    • I Died Last Night...

      10 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      ...in a very very horrible dream.......I was shot....in the heart...........holy fuck! is it even possible to die in your own dream....omg....I'm.......weird......and I didn't even kill myself....it was just some dark figure....he came outta nowhere....and shot me.....and then I was dead for a moment....and I woke up in bed and ran into the bathroom....and threw off my shirt and felt around my chest to make sure there was no bullet hole and that I wasn't going to Hell. cause Hell.....would be very hot and it would suck.

      Other Than My Death...
      - my step-sisters are coming this Saturday from New York. and they're staying for 2 weeks. I'll be spending some time with them.

      - school starts like September 2nd for me I think....like a little less than a month away.

      - I'm going to a Tech Center to be Pharmicist(I spelled it wrong didn't I) Assistant.

      - the bill is gonna be $135...ouch and I'm just learning how to give people drugs

      - Je n'ai pas etudie francais. J'ai fini francais mais je n'oubli pas francais
      well....most French.....I can still carry out conversations in French...why I would...I don't know

      - it's a long way down to Hell...but I'll get there eventually

      - Karrah is just amazing and you all know it!!!!

      - you know you wanna comment...............so comment....please

    • Poems for all of you to read!!!!!

      10 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      Why Waste Love With Hate
      Love is such a terrible waste of hate
      I think I said “I love you†once,
      But I must’ve of been drunk at that rate.

      No, I’m not a whore.
      I’m still a virgin, you see.
      I don’t think sex is a bore.
      I just think you shouldn’t have sex with me.
      In fact…
      you shouldn’t even love me.

      Cause I all I do is hate.
      No, you can’t make me love,
      even when push comes to shove.
      Why waste hate with love?
      It’s a feeling.
      It’ll go away sooner or later.

      No, I’ve never had a boyfriend.
      It all turns into pain in the end.
      No one loves forever.
      You should see my mother…
      Three husbands in seven months.
      There’s your whore.

      Back on the subject,
      I could try and love you…
      But I’ll hate you, too.
      I won’t lie,
      so why should I try?

      Bad Influence
      You never follow the rules,
      In one year you’ve been to three different schools.
      Your parents don’t know what you really do.
      That’s so good for you.

      Don’t let your mommy hear your music,
      it might make her sick.
      Don’t let your daddy watch what you see,
      he might never leave you be.

      Don’t let you younger brother find out,
      otherwise, he’ll figure out what it‘s about.
      Don’t let your younger sister know,
      she’ll never let it go.

      Wash your hands clean.
      Don’t let your evils be seen.
      Act like nothing’s happened.
      And there’s nothing to defend

      Tabitha
      Do you remember me?
      I sat behind you in biology class.
      Do you remember what good friends we used to be?
      And all the notes we used to pass?

      I missed you so bad.
      Tabitha, I thought we lost what we had.
      I love you.
      Really I do.

      I know you’re in a relationship,
      And not interested.
      But take this tip,
      My shoulder’s here for your head.

      If that man ever hurts you,
      I’ll make him turn blue!
      I swear I’ll tear him apart!
      Cause he destroyed your heart!

      I care more than you know,
      Ever since we were friends like this.
      I just wish I could let it show.
      But please remember I’m always here, I promise.

      Only Pain Will Tell
      I’ve been hit so much,
      My arms and hands went numb.
      I’ve survived this pain and such,
      Just wishing Death would come.

      I’ve held on,
      Through the broken glass and tears.
      We know it’s been way too long.
      But I seem to be won over by my fears.

      Please don’t mind the blood on my hands.
      It hurts after you let the pain sink.
      But I don’t want you to understand,
      I don’t want you to know what I think.

      Trust me on this,
      It’s better if you just don’t know.
      But really it’s the pain I miss.
      And that’s the way it’ll always go.

      Loving You
      Loving you is all I had,
      But they took you away.
      It makes me too sad,
      Knowing I won’t see you everyday.

      I’m gonna make the pain subside,
      By abusing myself again.
      I think I cried,
      In the middle of the night for you my friend.

      I just wanna take you and run.
      I don’t know where,
      But it’ll be fun
      Cause I know you’re there.

      The Crush
      Whenever I’m around you, I feel like I can’t breathe.
      My cheeks turn red,
      I’m trying to sort out the words in my head
      Before we both leave.

      I tug at my hair,
      and look down at my feet.
      When I lift my head our eyes meet.
      I smell your breath in the air.

      Your arms embrace me close to you,
      I love the smell of the cologne on your body.
      Then I wonder what you think about me,
      Cause I what a feel for you seems pretty true.

      Here they are. um yeah I was thinking of changing the title for "Bad Influence" to something else...what do you think?

    • The Heroin Diaries...Read It Now!!

      11 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      hello all!
      I know I haven't been on in forever. yeah...well I'm on posting another journal to show you guys that I am most certainly alive. so while I am out, I'm keeping myself busy with books! I've started reading this one book called The Heroin Diaries: A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star. It's by Nikki Sixx...ya know....the bassist of Motley Crue and Sixx A.M. yeah it's a year of his diary entries Christmas to Christmas from the year 1986-1987. you should all read it. It's quite good...but also quite disturbing a times. Imma gonna post some parts from the book on here...and you tell me what you think. kays...kay.

      "December 27th 1986
      Van Nuys, 4:15 A.M.

      The best part of freebase is before the first hit. I love that moment, right before I put the glass pipe to my lips...that moment when everything is sane, and then the craving, the salivating, the excitement all feel fresh and innocent. It's like foreplay...the ache that's always better than the orgasm.

      Yet as soon as I hit the pipe, within 30 seconds all hell breaks loose in my brain...and I keep on doing it and doing it and doing it and doing it, and I can't stop. Everyday that I sit here and write, it's always the same. So - why? Why do I do this? I hate it...I hate it so much, but I love it even more.

      The worst part of freebase is running out. But I have new jones - speedballs of any kind. The junk just isn't enough anymore...I feel like I'm only halfway there..."

      "January 14th 1987
      Van Nuys, 11:30 A.M.

      Last night, after Jason left, was madness...I'm not having him bring smack very often but my coke intake is up to 1,000%. I was creeping around the house, listening to the voices, when I noticed all the platinum disks hanging on the walls, and suddenly I hated them. Why were they there? Motley is about music and passion, not awards from a dumb industry that hates us and skims millions of dollars off us. So I went from room to room wrenching the disks off the walls and dumping them in the garage. Then I suddenly felt stupid...we earned those disks, we should be proud of them. So I put them all on the floor below where they used to hang.

      We're back in the studio tomorrow."

      "February 7th 1987
      Van Nuys, 4:40 A.M.

      I can't feel my soul. This darkness has become my only friend. My new addiction is drinking tons of water right before I shoot coke, then puking it all up in the Jacuzzi as my head explodes into the stratosphere. Why? Why not? I'm engaged in a dance of death in this house..."

      there...that's what I'm basically reading

    • It Be Time

      11 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      ...for me to post a new journal!!!!!!

      what's up?

      well for me.................my phone broke....*cries* now I can't answer calls and I can't be in touch with the outside world....God damn it. well......whatever...I get a new phone in september...patience....patience..............FUCK PATIENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

      sorry about that. okays...um.......I wrote some poems.....I'll post em one day

      I'm getting a queen size bed...yay big bed!!! I have to clean my room though ugh....I'll do it though.

      and um...I hate my life.......bye

    • Dreams Don't Mean A Thing...Right?

      11 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      so I had like the weirdest dream a few days ago. it goes that I was at a pool party with my family and we were there early. so she said we could go to a play that was nearby until it was time. so then we poof to where the play is, and while there the play takes place in a school gym and we're sitting on bleachers. so then this random guy who's selling snacks comes sits next to me and starts talking to me. then after talking to me for about awhile, he says, "oh, I gtg and sell some more snacks. catch ya later." then we all poof back to the pool and there's like 5 really fat guys swimming in the pool, and a bunch of fat guys sitting around the pool and at tables. and there's a few families. then there's this 1 family where there's a fat guy smoking a cigar, his wife smoking a joint, and his 11 year old looking daughter smoking a cigar!!! and I was like, "what the hell!" then I saw Shadow_Skarr and his gf hanging around so I went to ask him where we were and he says, "to the south of Florida nest to Atlanta." and I was like, "huh? what's going on?" and he said, "Flannigan's Ball." and I was like, "You mean like the Dropkick Murphys song?" and he was like, "who?" and then out of nowhere my friend Chris comes and tackle hugs me and goes, "YES!!!!! The Dropkick Murphys are over there." and he points to where the band's standing. and I was like, "ah......how'd you get here?" and he said, "the same way Josh did." and Josh (my other friend) comes jumping out of the water and drags me in with him. and then he kisses me on the lips and I'm like, "WHOA!!!! you have a gf what's wrong with you???" and he's like, "nothing. we kiss each other all the time." and I was like, "yeah on the cheek." and then the sky cracked and we were all sucked into some weird portal and then I fell on my bed along with Josh, Chris, Shadow_Skarr, and his gf. and then I woke up.

      scary huh?

      Karrah smiley12.gif

    • Oh Sweet Jebus!

      11 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      my school laptop's being taken tomorrow! so I won't be on late at night anymore. don't worry I'll still be on...not regularly...but I'll be on. when you see me on leave me a message or comment. even when I'm not on....alert rape me gimme a message. I'll prolly reply. no need to be shy over it. next time I'm on...I'll post some poems for you guys. and I think my sponsership's almost over....

      like sometime in early June I think.....so yeah just incase it goes away while I'm not on...
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      lol I have to do this

      it's just a bit anal but I might as well since the sponsership's over soon. besides...rainbows are awesome.

      your almost invisible friend,
      Karrah smiley12.gif

    • Why Hello There

      11 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      I'm back from South Carolina....and I didn't go to North Carolina....but whatever.....that's life.....c'est la vie as the French say it. but I'l back till this piece of crap laptop's taken away....oh well

      I love you guys.

      Karrah smiley12.gif

    • Going Going Gone!!!!

      11 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      yeah I be leaving for my grandparent's house today.....byes...I'll miss all yous guys.

      but Windy, Taylor, John, and Kevin....I'll miss yous guys so much...for like the whole fucking weekend!!!!! I won't be on.....I'll be thinking about you all.

      we're a little behind....but ya know....we'll be gone soon enough........byes

      *hugs and kisses you all*

      Karrah smiley12.gif

    • I Didn't Need Cocaine For This!?

      11 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      that was my first thought when I stepped out of my driver's ed car this morning.

      Drivers Ed
      so I took my range test where I drove through like this obstacle course thingy. I passed with a 73% holy crap I just made it. if I got 69% I would've failed. but I didn't! so it's all good ^__^ but omg when I messed up on parallel parking I heard like Tim, Emily, and Katlin laughing about it, and I flipped them off when I drove off, and the teacher saw, and he just laughed. Tim, Emily, and Katlin gave each other these looks like, "she flipped us off? omg! no way!" they were utterly surprised. but yeah I'm happy about that. and I thought I'd need cocaine to drive without thinking about what the others were gonna say when I messed up.

      Job!?!?!
      yeah when was that in my vocabulary? but yes this summer I'm applying for a job. my friend Jen and I are gonna apply for Game Stop or The Cheesecake Factory. we thought Game Stop cause we could get games at a discount, and then we thought The Cheesecake Factory cause it's a pretty fancy place and they gotta pay well. though yeah. hopefully me and my step-dad wil be able to go out to the Game Stop in a few days and see if I could an application for me and Jen. then me and Jen might go to the Cheesecake Factory together next weekend and see if we can applicatons and get ourselves a job!

      School Laptop
      my school laptop's gonna be taken away soon.....THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this thing's a piece of crap! but I might not be on much...depends on the work schedule. but I do know that I won't be on late at night. sorry guys. but when I'm on....I'm on. just remember I love you guys. Especially Windy, Taylor, and John!!!! I love you guys so much!!!! GROUP HUG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *holds arms out for a hug*

      This Weekend
      this weekend Imma gonna go to South Carolina to see my grandparents. gonna be kinda boring. but my step-daddy's friend who lives in Charlotte North Carolina said that in Charlotte they're having some festival thing. and Chevelle's gonna be playing there!!!!! and since I didn't get to go when they came to Virginia Imma gonna get to go this Saturday!!!!! HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so....DOES ANYONE LIVE IN NORTH CAROLINA??????

      Anything Else I Didn't Cover
      so um....my story...I still have writer's block on...but I am somewhere with it. I've had to revise chapter 7 like 10 times to get it right. it's finally good. but man chapter 8 and 9 are slowly getting there. one day though...I promise!! hm...what else....oh! my friend Josh hasn't given me my headphones back...so now I have to beat some sense in that boy. I gotta whack him with his lunch tray! and um....I think I covered everything

      your friend who loves you forever and always,
      Karrah smiley12.gifsmiley1.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley1.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley1.gifsmiley0.gif

    • Ugh!

      11 years ago

      AnimeHazel

      Imma be sick! my head and throat hurts. smiley2.gif and tomorrow I gotta drag my ass to school to take a driving test smiley2.gifsmiley2.gifsmiley2.gifsmiley2.gifsmiley2.gifsmiley2.gifsmiley2.gifsmiley2.gif

      what if I like pass out in the car smiley7.gif

      nah that won't happen...but if it did....it'd suck balls. my head is killing me...I so need asprin...but my mom finished it all like 2 weeks ago and didn't buy more. Fuck. I'm gonna so die if my head hurts like this tomorrow. I hope it's only a 24 hour thingy.

      please kiss me where it hurts (psst...that's be my head)

      your sick friend who's falling apart
      Karrah smiley12.gif

  • About Me

  • Comments (5103)

    • Shadow_Skarr

      10 years ago

      karrah please dont do anything stupid dont hurt yourself

    • Shadow_Skarr

      10 years ago

      i feel werid

    • Shadow_Skarr

      10 years ago

      i miss you dearlyi hope to talk to you again soon

    • OMalley013

      10 years ago

      No there was another photo that wasnt there when i went back in so it must have been taken off

      I wouldnt mind either, lol

    • OMalley013

      10 years ago

      think u just took it off but i commented on another hehe

    • OMalley013

      10 years ago

      tried commenting on a pic and it said, "Invalid Parameter"


      Bullshit

    • Xth_Mode_God

      10 years ago

      The food is a peace offering...FROM HIS RAPING OF YOUR BODY, MIND, AND SOUL!

    • dark_wolf_90

      10 years ago

      long time no talk

    • ilikemuffins

      10 years ago

      yeah that would be sweet but i still dont want you to leave

    • ilikemuffins

      10 years ago

      yeah that would be sweet

    • pielover

      10 years ago

      That's all I ask
      n_n

    • pielover

      10 years ago

      I suppose something happy might fall under that "other" category
      n_n
      I'm not trying to change you or anything, I just want to see if you can do it.

    • invaderflug2

      11 years ago

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    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * smiles *

    • Shadow_Skarr

      11 years ago

      hey i really miss you

    • zero124

      11 years ago

      whats up! sorry still no net... argh it sucks >.<

    • DaJuanchurch

      11 years ago

      get online then ok

    • DaJuanchurch

      11 years ago

      ok thanks

      do u have MSN???

    • DaJuanchurch

      11 years ago

      wat's up there

      i am DaJuan and it's nice to meet u and i was wondering on if u are goin to accept my FR soon

    • Shadow_Skarr

      11 years ago

      what you been up too?

    • Shadow_Skarr

      11 years ago

      i miss you

    • Shadow_Skarr

      11 years ago

      Call me sometime when your free

    • nekoblade

      11 years ago

      cooleooly

    • zero124

      11 years ago

      ack also im totally on an island right now and totally lacking the net but yea... hit me up!!!

    • zero124

      11 years ago

      awww thank you for the comment you should totally add me you seem hella awesome!!!

    • John_234

      11 years ago

      hi

    • Shadow_Skarr

      11 years ago

      yes you do and its pure

    • Shadow_Skarr

      11 years ago

      the darkness comes and the shadows will play if your not careful you will lose your soul

    • knoxus

      11 years ago

      oh your more than welcome

    • fullmetal309

      11 years ago

      yea

    • fullmetal309

      11 years ago

      no but seriously you are hot

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * smiles *kk

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * tilts head more * i dont understand whaa you mean...

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      ah.....? * tilts head *

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * giggles and grins * really? how so?

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * giggles and purrs * ..... but.. bad thoughts can be... good and funny.....

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * purrs even more *

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * purrs *

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * snuggles * tank you

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * nuzzles back with a tear rolling down my cheek *

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * smiles and snuffles *

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * perks ears and smiles at you *

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * nuzzles and slightly pushes you away to clean my fur *

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * purrs *

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * smiles and nuzzles you*

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * scoots next to you and snuffles the side of your face *

    • Neoma

      11 years ago

      Summarizing you.

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * giggles and hands you a cookie *

    • fullmetal309

      11 years ago

      msg me then ....you have sparked my curiosity

    • nekolust

      11 years ago

      * giggles *

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