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So my blog has lay dormant for the past few months. It's not because i've got lazy, it's because i'm suffer from depression!
Around 300 people out of 1,000 will experience mental health problems every year in Britain but only 230 of these will visit a GP. Out of the 230, 102 of these will be diagnosed as having a mental health problem.
So it's not that uncommon, between 8-12% of the population experience depression in a year.
I lost all my motivation to do anything and that includes gaming! I didn't even want to pick up my controller.
I done the stupid thing though, I tried to bottle up my feelings so no one would know that anything was wrong. I got really good at hiding how I really felt and putting on a happy face (I shall call it my mask from now on).
When my mask was on you would never know anything was wrong, I look happy, I was laughing and joking around, I also looked as if i was enjoying myself but all I really wanted to do was be by myself!
For years I hide how I felt, putting my mask on, not to just protect me but to protect the people around me.
But over time my mask started to crack and my true feelings started to pour out, that is when I went and sought professional help.
Depression is a monster, it plants seeds in your brain and if they take root, just like weeds, they are very hard to get rid of. That is what I'm in the process of doing now, with the help of a therapist. They are helping me build the tools i need to rid myself of these "bad seeds". But what works for me my not work for others.
So if you think you are suffering from a mental health condition, don't suffer in silence and don't be ashamed of seeking help, it is the best thing I have done in my life.
I know I still have a long road ahead of me but I'm just going to take it one day and one game at a time.
If anyone that is reading this would like to talk about what they are feeling, you are welcome to get in contact with me. Anything you tell me will be kept private.
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