Blade51

Female
from Portland OR

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    • Attention fellow Furs! I need your help!

      10 years ago

      Blade51

      Hello my furry friends and comrads! I know I've been gone for quite a while and I appoligize for that I will be posting an update real soon... But I need help from the furry community I have a friend who isnt a furry but is curious and wants to learn more about our culture.

      The yahoo group I belong to *PDX furs* isnt very active and I'm wondering if anyone out there knows of a good furry forum or furry yahoo group that I can point my friend to for information. Perferably if its a forum that it not be a RP forum because that doesnt help him with getting to know about us. I dont see him very often so I dont have the chance to take him to fur meets and such and help get him in touch with other furs.

      Any help in this would be greatly appriciated! *hugs to all*

      I will post an update on all thats been going on with me here really soon I promise! Untill then I'm off! *POOF!*

      P.S. *a voice sounds from the shadows* Once again my sponsership has run out I'll have to do something about that soon lol.

    • Long awaited update...

      10 years ago

      Blade51

      Thank you all for being patient with me... A lot of shit has been going on lately which I'll explain here. Lets see where to start...

      Well I've been gone off and on on to SCA events because the late summer/early fall is when a lot of them are held. Thats all great fun I love eventing but this last event I was at 2 weeks ago was the first event I've been too that I didnt really enjoy myself at... But more on that in a minute. As I'm sure some of you have figured out by now if you've looked at some of my recent pictures that I'm into BDSM. I am also in an open poly relationship and I've recently taken on a new boyfriend. I've known him for over a year now we met at my first SCA event last year. Well at the event my sister runs our interest for each other on a more.... "intamite" level arose. So not too long afterward I spoke with my other 2 boys and getting permission and we soon became lovers. Now I've been wanting to get more active in the BDSM scene outside the bedroom for a while now. But like every alternitive lifestyle you have to be careful of the creepy ones. So I didnt really want to get my foot in that door by myself. Well the man I am no involved with has been in the active BDSM scene for a few years now and I trust him completely. Theres apparently something special about him I cant really explain what it is... But a first has happened with him I am now a collared submissive for him. So you all know I am a switch with dominant tendancys and theres very few I will sub for partly, up untill now I've never subed completely for anyone. And as much as I love being dominate theres just certain needs that havent been fulfilled for me because of that. So I'm greatly enjoying myself with my new boyfriend/master he is a wonderful man and as rough as he has a tendancy to be *which I love ^_^* he also has a very loving side to and I see that side quite often especally after any form of play I see it in his eyes *dreamy sigh*..... *cough* sorry I'll shut up with the lovey dovey crap... Anyways point is I've been spending a fair amount of time with him in this last couple weeks since we got together. Now that that has been said I'll move on to the bad SCA event I was at because part of what happened has to deal with my new relationship.

      Now the house hold I normally stay with *House Whispers* I've become pretty close with most of its members and these were people I was beginning to consider to be family... Well lets say that part of my life decided to shatter... The 2 main household "leaders" if you will have gotten it into their heads that I'm some sort of whore and I'm hell bent on sleeping with every male in house whispers. This is not true that has NEVER been my intent nor will it EVER BE my intent. I've talked to them 3 times over about this and they still dont want to listen to me. In the end they went so far as to banning me from sleeping with "their boys" fine whatever that was never my intent to begin with... So that kinda ruined things for me because they had to constantly remind me of it all weekend... Then on top of that I had to deal with extreme animousity towards me *which I was prepared for* because they greatly dont like my boyfriend/master and they're reasons for not liking him are really stupid... *sighs* So needless to say if my Tiger hadnt been there I would have left saturday morning *I got there late friday night.* Then to add to all this my relationship with my roomate/friend/brother in spirit has shattered because he's best friends with one of the women who runs house whispers. So needless to say I'm hurting but oh well I'm just going to walk away I shouldnt have to deal with this bullshit. If they want to be friends with me later on in life then they can come appoligize which I dont for see ever happening.

      And to add to everything else my mother is coming to town to meddle in my life once again so I am not thrilled about that she'll be here tomorrow sometime... *sighs* wish me luck with that... Like I really need anymore bullshit drama right?

      Now for recent recent news... I went to a concert last night with my Tiger we went and saw Sonata Arctica and Nightwish last night. It was a lot of fun though I did end up getting hit in the ribs hard. There was this guy causing all sorts of problems and well the second time around he decided to crowd surf my direction I let him drop because I was tired of his shit. When I refused to help him get back up there and shoved him out of my face he hit me and stormed off. That was the last I saw of him last night.

      Thats pretty much it for whats been happening mainly... I'm still looking for a new job and what not with no luck but we'll see what happens. Hope all is well with everyone here on RvB take care! *hugs* smiley12.gif

    • Sorry guys

      10 years ago

      Blade51

      Sorry I havent been on a whole lot recently I've been busy. Between getting my car back... finally and just other things in general I've not really been on the computer a whole lot. Hopefully I'll be able to get around to giving you all a nice update here soon lol

      Untill then I'm off again!

      *POOF!*

    • Update Con...

      10 years ago

      Blade51

      So this is a fairly long update I doubt I'll be able to fit it in one Journal if your interested please see my other journals as well for part one.

      Now for the other “interesting†event that happened to me… Okay so as most of you know I belong to a mid-evil reenactment group called the SCA “Society for Creative Anachronism†www.SCA .org. Well my sister was day tripping down to an event called Sea Dog Nights this event was my first event last year and the reason we didn’t camp this year was A: we couldn’t afford it is down in Lebanon Oregon. And B: because the new site that SDN is at *they moved last year* sucks! There is no shade what so ever, the ground is sun baked clay that bends tent stakes if you don’t have the hard core, heavy duty ones. So we just went down for a day to post flyers for my sister’s event The Blackthorn Revel as well as find a food merchant because our normal one isn’t eventing this year.. Well it’s about 6pm I’m finally ready for some dinner so I order my dinner at the Dew Drop Inn *the food merchant there* and I’m sitting down enjoying my Dr. Pepper just relaxing at a bench talking to a gentlemen who is a part of a merchant “Thistle Forge†who will be attending our event all thanks to me! ^_^

      When this women who I found out later works at the Dew Drop Inn comes up and starts talking to the gentlemen whom I was speaking with and offers both him and I a drink. Next thing I know she sits down in front of me and starts hitting on me! *laughs* So being a Blackthorn we have a trait/curse of obsessions it goes both ways either we get “obsessed†with someone or the other way around. Now I’m use to men and women alike constantly hitting on me no big deal. Well we start talking… More like she’s talking/flirting and I’m giving vague replies and dropping hints that I am not interested in a subtle way beings that has always worked for me in the past. Also somewhere through this conversation she ended up kissing me along the neck a time or two… Now bear in mind I am straight for now there is a possibility of me being bi curious but for now I have personal issues to work through and over come before I even seriously consider exploring that route. Now I finally get my food and I start eating my dinner as this conversation continues after I finished eating my sister and her husband call me over and I politely excuse myself. So now I’m thinking that this is a large event I’m not likely to see her again case closed because at that point she would have dragged me off to her tent if she thought she could have also bear in mind that she was drunk but I doubt she was as drunk as she was acting.

      I could tell by how she was walking and such so it was pretty obvious but I was not going to say anything. So the evening progresses we’re beginning to make our rounds to various encampments saying our goodbyes because we we’re about to leave. We pass by the Dew Drop Inn once more saying goodbye to a friend of my sisters whom is a merchant I’m paying no mind to the inn and the next thing I know I have someone tugging on my arm. I turn around and there she is yet again tugging on my arm saying that she has someone she wants to introduce me to. As she is quite literally dragging me off I grab my sister’s husband and I’m giving the look of “Help me…†But he slipped out of my grip and so I walked off with her locking arms with my own I sigh to myself. So she introduces me to the owner of the Dew Drop Inn “Silverstone†whom my sister was talking to earlier they are going to be attending our event. We get to talking I introduce myself we get to talking a bit she’s trying to get me to stay but I explain that we are only day tripping and I would have no ride if I stayed.

      So Silverstone asks me where I live I explain that I live in Beaverton then the women *I can’t remember her name sorry heh* and Silverstone say that that isn’t all that far. Silverstone looks over at me then back at her and says “You’ll owe me for this later.†Then proceeds to mention that he’d be willing to drop me off after the event was over *there was still a couple days left in the event.* So now in my head I’m thinking “oh shit…†Then I start throwing out any reason I could think of as to why I can’t stay. Finally my sister and her husband come to save me I still have her clinging on my arm I stop half way over to where my sister is heading this way because she’s now standing in front of me. She gets close to my face looking me in the eyes and I explain once more that I simply can’t stay. She kisses me once again along my neck letting me go and then we leave to head home having gained yet ANOTHER stalker *chuckles.* And beings that she works with the Dew Drop Inn she’ll probably be at the Blackthorn Revel. So if she is I’ll have to explain to her bluntly that I am flattered by the offer but I am not interested that I am “Straight for now.â€Â

      So that’s my update of the last week or so it seems that some negative energy has been passing through as of late, causing a lot of my friends to fall on hard times. But remember that what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger so keep your hopes up and work through it for you’ll be stronger in the end for it.

    • Update

      10 years ago

      Blade51

      So this is a fairly long update I doubt I'll be able to fit it in one Journal if your interested please see my other journals as well.

      I know I haven’t been online much lately for this I apologize but I figured I’d give a quick update because a lot has happened in this last week… Let’s see where to start… Let’s start with my car shall we? So let it be known that my car has been making a rattling sound for a little while now and I was looking around for a good mechanic to take it too. I talked to my oldest sister because she is real picky about whom she lets work on her car and I got the name and address of the place she takes her car to. So last Friday I was taking my roommate and his daughter into Portland to drop off his daughter at his mom’s house. On the way down there my back tire on the driver’s side blows out so I limp over to the side of the highway and start going through my trunk. I know I have a spare tire I found my tire iron but soon realized I have no jack… >.<

      So I have to call a tow truck to come out and change my tire so over an hour later we’re on the road again. We get his daughter safely deposited and head home so I can take him to work beings that he’s already late… Well on the way home just before the exit before the one I normally take to get home my car stops accelerating. After a moment or two it starts accelerating again only the rattling sound is a shit load worse and my car is idling really REALLY high. Not 2 minutes later something blows there’s a ton of smoke and I barely manage to make it to the side of the road now I’m right at this said exit that is before the one I was going to take. I pop the hood and look down in my engine and gee what do you know my engine is on fire! So the first thing that comes out of my mouth is “Crap!†my roommate turns to me and says “What’s the matter?†and I point into my engine he looks and says “Crap!†So I drop the hood we back away and call the fire department they come out and put my car out. Thankfully my roommate’s boss offered to come get him now being an hour and a half late for work. So I call yet another tow truck we get it towed to the place that I had called THAT DAY to have it looked at THAT DAY!

      So I knew from the time that my engine blew that I had thrown a rod but I was hoping that that wasn’t the case… Well I called them come Monday because they aren’t open on weekends and I asked them “Well what’s the damage?†He proceeded to explain that my car had thrown a rod *as I thought* it punched a hole through the side of the engine causing oil to spray all over the engine and that’s what caught fire. So I talked to my dad since I can’t afford a new car or these repairs… He told me to get some quotes for either an engine rebuild or a short block. The guy who already has my car quoted me $6000 I talked to the people whom I bought the car from since I have a life time discount with them because I bought my car there and they’re going to replace my engine for $1200. The funny thing about that is my cars street value in good working order is only $1400…

      But that’s what my dad wanted to do so I have no say in the matter since he’s paying for it… That’s the update on my car and without a car I don’t work because I’m a laborer for hire at a temp agency so today I went to go get applications at Best Buy and Target mainly Target because their always hiring.

    • Well its offcial...

      11 years ago

      Blade51

      As of tonight I've been offcially laid off... Jacksons AKA the company that now owns shell are fucktard bastards who treat their employes like shit so yeah thats the only news I have at the moment I'm going to go be anti-social in my cave.

    • Once again I havent died...

      11 years ago

      Blade51

      Well once again my life has gotten hectic as hell... My new manager cant manage a fucking ant farm... My schedual has been screwed up horribly and I'm re-living all the reasons I had left safeway to begin with... If things dont start to get better this week I'm calling the district manager and complaining. This is bullshit.... *sighs* Then on top of that I have some personal issue's I'm currently dealing with so sorry I havent been very active lately. I'm trying I really am but I've been unable to see/talk with a lot of people lately... I'll keep you all up dated as things go along...

    • Life update ^_^ no I havent died... yet

      11 years ago

      Blade51

      Well life has been hectic as hell lately I've been hardcore looking for a new job. Because my "current job" at shitway errr I mean safeway their fucking me over with hours BIG time... I've been getting 8 hours a week for the last month... Which sucks ass because that isnt enough to live on by anymeans. I also recently moved into an appartment with 3 good friends of mine from the SCA (Society for Creative Anachronism it's a mid-evil renactment group (click for info)).

      And on top of ALL that... I've been kinda depressed lately for certain reasons but that seems to be going away like it normally does. Also my training with my teacher *I'm studying Magick spesificly the Norse Runes at the moment* whom is also my brother in spirit AND my roomate lol. Has taken a lot of twists and changes... I've been through several tests and such and a couple of which has really knocked me on my ass... But its what I chose this path and I'm happy with it.

      Now more news on my job... I GOTS A NEW ONE!!! *spaz* I start tomorrow at 6 am... X_x;' So I gots to go to bed here soon... But I put in my 2 weeks at safeway last friday and now I'm employed at a Shell station as a pump monkey which believe it or not is better then what I was doing... I was a curtesy clerk for safeway. So yeah thats all I can really think of at the moment hopefully I'll be getting back to checking alerts and shit on a regular basis now. But we'll see beings that with my new job theres promise of 40+ hours a week and possible over time. So I'll be quite busy for a while...

      ~A wandering Dragon

    • Damn...

      11 years ago

      Blade51

      Edit:

      My subscription has returned with much thanks to Bezylynn *hugs* Thank you SOOOO much ^_^ smiley0.gif

      Well it looks like I've finally lost my subscription *sighs* oh well no biggy anyways sorry I havent been on once again I've moved.... again.... I moved in with some friends so rather then couch surfing at my oldest sisters house I'm in my own room. Also I've been looking for a new job my current one at shitway has got to go... so yeah... thats pretty much it for updates on me sorry again for not being on much lately... I hope you guys dont hate me heh... ^^;'

      Oh and PS....

      I LOSE! And now so did you! *grins*

    • ALERT RAPE.....again!!!!

      11 years ago

      Blade51

      I've been in the process of moving into my sisters house... I'm behind on alerts so please forgive me I will wade through it soon enough... Yeah thats pretty much it...

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  • Comments (712)

    • lostone

      7 years ago

      hope you are doing well

    • Stonesword

      9 years ago

      Merry Christmas!

    • DocRossim

      9 years ago

      Hello fellow friend of Zankaru and admin of the Dragons group.

      I'm wondering about starting some kind of comic for the group, and was wondering on your opinion.

      Also, I need a writer, as I'm stumped for actual ideas.

      Your thoughts?

    • Zankaru

      10 years ago

      hey, if you ever get back on I made you a admin in my dragon group

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      Hey. Hey you, where are you

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      HI. it makes me sad i havent talked to you lately smiley2.gif

    • Zankaru

      10 years ago

      RvB - Dragons Group

    • Stonesword

      10 years ago

      Merry Christmas!

    • FaintFox

      10 years ago

      Icewolf's Gym

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      nah its fine no big deal...

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      oh its okay i know how that is.. works been giving me hell..

    • FaintFox

      10 years ago

      the outfit came with the pack i got ^.w.^ thx by the way

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      you too goodnight

    • supersmurf

      10 years ago

      sleep well

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      Hello. its ok im just glad to hear from you again smiley0.gif . and congrats on the job last time we talk i dont think you had a job. next time you get a chance we should catch up again

    • supersmurf

      10 years ago

      all is good hug

    • halofoxgod

      10 years ago

      its cool

    • supersmurf

      10 years ago

      hi

    • halofoxgod

      10 years ago

      yo

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      hello

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      im pretty good.. i moved back with mah mums..

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      Dear blade
      first off HHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and
      if i wasn't so fucking tired i would stay up and talk but i am ready to fall asleep and not wake up for a good 8 or more hours so on that note goodnight and sweet dreams to you home to talk to you sooner rather than later

      love
      irishkid

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      * laughs * so how are you?

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      it is understandable you know i am here if you ever want to talk about anything at all

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      RAWR! * smirks * i gotta mohawk nao... and i look like a punk dike

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      what happened anything you wanna talk about

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      hey how are you

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      * smirks *

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      it goes good how about yourself

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      hello

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      i just think we would get along way too well... >.>

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      all your turn ons are like all of mine...

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      lmao awesome.. love to learn more about 'em then

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      :P i have a lot of turn ons and fetishes

    • MissJaded

      10 years ago

      kekekeke! sorry ... Tripp get me horny ...

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      goodnight and sweet dreams

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      i would offer to stay and talk about it but i need sleep sorry we can talk next time if you want i just wanted to say hi before i went to bed long week

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      alright how about yourself

    • irishkid

      10 years ago

      HHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111

    • EliteinSkirt

      10 years ago

      Lol I'm alright. Just got home at... >.> ... 7:00... PM... from doing nothing... BLEH...

      Other than that I'mma doin' okay.

    • EliteinSkirt

      10 years ago

      ^_^

      And how are you doing this fine evening?

    • zombiefied

      10 years ago

      true

    • zombiefied

      10 years ago

      to me its between theres no such thing and our actions is what cause it and karma

    • zombiefied

      10 years ago

      wow well i guess your very lucky then.... even though i dont believe in luck

    • zombiefied

      10 years ago

      wouldnt hurt =) so how about you anything interesting happen as of late?

    • zombiefied

      10 years ago

      nah nothing really im on a blank spot in my life again

    • zombiefied

      10 years ago

      half and half really but i guess thats good enough

    • MilesLycanas

      10 years ago

      Sweet, the thing I got closest to that is are some black pants with red plastic clips and straps, they're like way to big for me but it looks good like that for some reason, especially when I'm wearing a black shirt. anyhoo, sweet, yea, like that!

    • zombiefied

      10 years ago

      hi blade hows everything?

    • OnlineGames

      10 years ago

      thats always fun

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