Bollux

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from Farmington, ME

  • Activity

    • How depressing

      12 years ago

      Bollux

      friday night, and I'm doing homework, of which I don't even have enough to keep me from getting bored…

    • Love

      12 years ago

      Bollux

      What a touchy subject. Anyway, I've had a lot of poeple tell me that I don't know what love is yet, because I'm not old enough, or experienced in life enough. I used to believe them, and laugh at couples who I knew wouldn't last a week. I didn't even belive in love. My comception of it was purely one of a name given to an artificial feeling that was conforting for poeple. It was never anything real. It was never truly felt by anyone. They were just wishing it was. I'm not sure if I believe that anymore. In fact, I'm dead positive I don't. There was this girl at school. We had a class or two together, but we weren't frinds, and we didn't talk much. Then she joined the school jazz band, which I was in (first alto. I rock). At our huge annual Al Corey Band (famous in Maine) concert, we started talking. The other band was playing and we had nothing to do, so I was wandering around. We started talking, and getting to know eeach other, and someone gave us a trash can and asked if we would collect some of the empty water bottles lying around. Afterwards, we went outside and sat on my truck and talked for probably a couple of hours. Ever since, we've been inseperable. It's driving me crazy. The first time I tried to ask her out, one of my very annoying friends came over and would not stop talking. She had to leave to catch the bus. That weekend I almost died. We've been on a few dates, and it's wonderful; I feel sick every moment we're apart. Anyone who tries to tell me this isn't love can die a horrible and painful death, because I've never felt this way before, and it goes completely against my character to be so cheesy, but I would be in heaven if I could spend the rest of my life with her, just staring into her eyes…

    • Jazz

      12 years ago

      Bollux

      Anyone heard of Bill Mc Henry?

    • Yay

      12 years ago

      Bollux

      I just bought a new hat today and it's awesome

      …I have a thing for hats

    • …eww

      12 years ago

      Bollux

      I just had a revelation, and I decidedly hate porkchops. Seriously, I despise them. They're on par with pretzels.

      If they were a person instead of a food, I would punch them.

      Post if you agree (or if you don't)

    • Religious ideas from my novel

      12 years ago

      Bollux

      God created the universe in seven days. Before that, if before can be used appropriately, as time itself was not yet present, all the matter of the universe was compressed into the smallest of things. It was called a singularity, and it was the physical embodiment of God: everything in nothing. At His will, it began to expand. As the bubble of existence spread, it brought with it everything we know today, from time to matter to the very human conscience. This would later be known as the Big Bang. Remember, this was done in absence of the fourth dimension, so that seven days spanned the eternity that is now. The universe will expand and contract many times over, to the rhythm of God’s divine heartbeat, and the seven days will never end, the seventh day will never come. Seven days, seven years, seven eternity's, what difference does it make? Why bother over such frivolities as this?
      As life evolved, it became more and more to resemble God. The ancient primates were void of human qualities, incapable of such emotions as love. But when Love first arrived, being the seed of God that embedded itself in the hearts of all to come, humanity was born. These first true humans were named Adam and Eve, and although virtuous, they showed the basic sins that we all cope with. This included the most basic of all: desire. And for that, like little children before a scolding parent, God punished them. He did this not with force or insult. He did it with Doubt. For just as the seed of Love was that of God, Doubt was the tool of Lucifer. He was already an Angel now, and had been since forever and before doubt, but he found a way to use this new thing. He used it against the truth and against God. He used it and created a parallel dimension, and this was named Hell, for it was a place for those who deny. Those who doubt. He was corrupted by this newfound power and rightfully cast out into his own kingdom. I was among the cursed who chose to follow him with desire, the first of the three true sins: desire, doubt, and denial. We have been led to believe that there was a war between the Angles and the demons. We have memories of great battles fought, even before the birth of Hell. These are farse. They are the memories created by our own guilt, of the fights within our hearts that we so violently lost. Heaven did nothing to oppose us. God let us oppose ourselves by living in a world devoid of truth.
      If religion is to be reconciled with science a few points must be clarified.
      Q: why are dinosaurs not mentioned in the bible?
      A: why would they be? Have they anything to do with us?

      Q: why is religion considered Holy if it causes so much death?
      A: because humans are not perfect. Our hearts are filled with God; the rest is filled with stupidity.

      Q: Why would God just sit back and let terrible things happen on Earth? How can he let my grandmother die? how can he let the Holocaust happen? How can he love us and let such atrocities go unhindered?
      A: suck it up and solve your own damn problems. God created life, is that not enough? Must he solve every little problem? God didn’t kill your Grandmother, cancer did. God didn’t let Hitler persecute the Jews, ignorance did. If God were to solve one problem, he would be inclined to solve all. He would bear the blame for everything bad that happened, and receive no credit for the good. Good would be expected and nothing less accepted. Free will would be shattered. If you want that, go ahead and join Lucifer. He’ll be glad to shatter your will.

      I lived once as a demon. I was reborn an Angel. I was forgiven. Why? Love. Still trapped in my unholy visage, I will fight fight what is righteous. I will close the gate.
      © Nick Beach 2006

    • change of plans

      12 years ago

      Bollux

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      Decidedly I'm buying this one instead. It has a lot more features with regards to recording and ease of use. Plus it kicks ass.

    • mmmmm

      12 years ago

      Bollux

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      Hopefully my new synth. Around $795, which is a pretty good deal. There's a "better" one for $995 with a few more sounds and features, but it doesn't look as cool. Funny that I care more about the look than the money…

    • …oops

      12 years ago

      Bollux

      I got mad and stabbed my sword through my closet door. Seriously, like right through it.

    • Stonehenge:

      12 years ago

      Bollux

      one of the greatest henges in the world. No one has built a henge quite like it ever since. But nobody knows what the fuck a henge is! Before that they built woodhenge and strawhenge, but a big bad wolf came along and blew them down.

      Eddie Izzard rocks

  • About Me

  • Comments (284)

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      i know what you mean. That was always the worst part about dating. Me, i went a bought a christmas tree last night. Decorated it and everything. Now, im at work trying to find out if my Vikings are gonna win

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      how u been man?

    • Jhunterqueen

      12 years ago

      so was I right?

    • 0000000x7

      12 years ago

      stink.gif
      JK

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      just a bit

    • Bollux

      12 years ago

      lol

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      i thnk you are trying to make me hate you.

    • megafire

      12 years ago

      I have honestly no idea, but we will leave that time behind us

    • syonide31

      12 years ago

      it took you that long? grrrrr..... rawr on you

    • syonide31

      12 years ago

      thought i would be your friend here seeing as your on the other site too ^_^

    • churchTEA

      12 years ago

      by the way are u going to be in the RP of megafire?

    • churchTEA

      12 years ago

      cool, how it's in sell here in mex

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      thanks, i fixed that awkward line.

    • churchTEA

      12 years ago

      DAMIT, don't you know were I can find it, is it in stores?

    • churchTEA

      12 years ago

      hey bollux how d I get the game of ONI?

    • Pennywise276

      12 years ago

      "yeah. There will never be an end. It's a paradox, and the mere fact that something founded on love is so much the seed of hate proves the folly of humans as a whole. You can hate religion all you want, but it will never go away, and I can love it all I want, but it will always stay the same. In movies and stuff good always wins, but in real life it doesn't. Evil wins, because its very presence defeats good, and it will always be there.

      And it all stems from the amount of incredibly stupid people in the world. People who think they're doing something for a cause and for a purpose, but who are just too stupid to understand how bad they're fucking up the world.

      …"
      Unfortuantly, it's going to take a few million dead in the name of religion to change minds. Evil doesnt win, Good doesnt win, it will always be a stand still battle, because I've learned from expericance is that for every bad person there is a good person willing to help out.

    • Pennywise276

      12 years ago

      "For the most part, I agree with you. I think that religion is important, and don't think it should be abolished, but something drastic needs to happen now, because as it is, shit happens. If certain groups don't smarten up fast, the world is in some serious bullcrap. Separate something: There is good religion and bad religion. My church believes in peace, and using it to help people, which is why we do missionary work. We don't even try to spread our religion or impose it on people, we just help them. But religion is too easy for sick people to exploit, and you're right that it causes more harm than good, because it is easy for a few poeple to kill thousands in the name of their God. The entire problem lies with the extremists. Anyone with extreme views on something as powerful as religion is bound to fuck things up for everyone. (please nobody get mad at me) I belive that we would save billions upon billions of lives if we mercilessly killed all radicals. It would prevent them from spreading their twisted ideas and prevent them and their decendants from committing murder. That's the horrible statistic."
      But the problem with killing the radicals, is that the followers of the religion who arnt radical will become radical and wage war, thus just creating more problems. To me, there are too many other religions to know which one is right, each one claims they are totaly right. There is no compromise, and religion changes with times, when it shouldent. Like you don't know if your going to go to hell because back in the day when it was made, you could go to hell for the most mundain thing, and man doesnt know the will of god because "god can't interfear" so how do we know? We don't, so screw it, why live in serveice when you dont even know for sure? there are so many different versions of the same religion, it makes no sense.

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      check out the new posts on the writers site

    • ChupaHunter

      12 years ago

      thats a pretty big rock

    • Pennywise276

      12 years ago

      "I want you to understand something: Religion is not evil by nature. It is a powerful tool, and like all tools, is manipulated by the poeple who use it. A screwdriver can be used to murder. So can religion. There are plenty of ways that it can be used for good, like my youth group travelling to Honduras and building houses for homeless people and children. Don't hate religion, simply hate the people who misuse it to cause terrible things to happen. The Bible is a book filled with messages of love. People who are bastards and use that as an excuse to do evil deserve nothing but damnation, but they're the type of people who, without religion, would find other tools for their deeds."
      The problem that I have with this tool, like government can just be used by those in power to get what they whant, and to live comfortably. The dark ages is the perfect example of that, you only servered the church, you have no life. And now religion scares and offers salvation to those who are sacared of these battle scared times. But religion only causes conflict, because no matter what religion your from, there will be raticals that hate other religions and use terror to back up their belives. It gives some people help, but it's stupid to watch people pledge their faith in somthing that they don't understand. And if it takes a religiouse group to get people active in helping people out who are less fortunate then I weep for my generation. Humans shouldent be using this tool, no one can use it properly. And I HATE it when religion makes their veiws MY laws and protests everywhich way against peoples rights, like the right to chose. I don't care if people worship (well I do but I cant do nothin' bout it) but just leave the world out of it.

    • Pennywise276

      12 years ago

      "Your opinion stated in my journal, though respected, was stated in a very offensive way, which is why I'm sorry not to feel bad for it getting neg modded. Feel free to say what you want, but try to be respectful of people who love God."
      Meh, we don't live in a dictator ship yet
      I got neg modded? I have more mods than I did yesterday though... oh well

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      theres actually alot more than that...ill message you tonight with the theorys and let you mull it over

    • 0000000x7

      12 years ago

      Its a way they prepare it.

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      the writing forum for the group...please add to Faveorites if you are gonna be involved...and check daily at the least...
      s2.excoboard.com/exco/index.php?boardid=25046

    • gruntsniper7

      12 years ago

      LOL.

      nice. gave it a few mods.

    • darkmatter22

      12 years ago

      i like the cactar... so there was 7 mods for you

    • churchTEA

      12 years ago

      AWESOME THANKS DUDE,

      eres de lo mas chingo (caption: You're the best)

    • darkmatter22

      12 years ago

      thanks for waiting... heres 25mods....
      thanks for holdinh mu watch bar...

    • darkmatter22

      12 years ago

      awsom... you got it... the watcher bar thing... im honest to you... i would give you 10 mods for having it...... but im honestly srry that i only have 1 mod... so here you go...
      dont delete this message. if you can show it to me when i get mods... then you can use it as an IOU... cuz i OU 9 mods

    • darkmatter22

      12 years ago

      thanks for the mods..........!!!
      btw...... my watcher bar is auto matically updated....and for some reason yours is not...... so go to my profile and use the link that my watch bar is using....
      or
      replace it with this
      http://www.freewebs.com/lostion/Untitled-1.gif
      thanks again Nick !!!
      ~darkmatter22

    • Jhunterqueen

      12 years ago

      Hey me too. But I didn't see you in there.

      did you like it and why / who did you go with?

    • Jhunterqueen

      12 years ago

      Hey Nick,

      I saw you at the movies last night. What did you go see?

    • 0000000x7

      12 years ago

      It all depends on the goal.

    • theoldgods

      12 years ago

      a webcomic you might like: www.sluggy.com/. it has inuendo, a killer bunny rabbit, and multiple kill counts.
      Yay, kill counts!!!!

    • ChupaHunter

      12 years ago

      gotcha

    • TehPantsFTW

      12 years ago

      Hrm...
      OK, it'll work in my opinion
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    • exniner

      12 years ago

      exactamundo buddy. Its good to speak to someone that isnt a flaming retard.

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      stupid people and people who believe in NOTHING piss me off. If you cant believe in something, than why is life worth living. You have to believe in something, even if it isnt in the status quo

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      Bollux, you understand. I accept you as an intelligent person in a world of boobs. I would gladly welcome you to my magical utopia of Opalindar.

    • pskyopath_42

      12 years ago

      warriors can be placed in either eliets or HQ at the players choice (equipment dosen't matter) also you can either have a vennom cannon or a barbed strageler in one brood not both rending claws cause an automatic wound on a 'to hit' of 6 (the enemy gets invulnirble saves thow) and the X dose mean the creatures base attacks and it dose sounds like you had a points advantage (i don't know if you did or not but it looks like you might have)

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      im a litle scizo, and its a short story

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      if you ever get a chance you should read The Yellow Wallpaper. Its a trip.

    • dougss FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold 10 years

      12 years ago

      0_0 LUKY how was it?

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      u writing it? let me know so i can see it. I wrote one for school once. it was kinna like day after tomorrow, but i wrote it before the movie. I also wrote one, well part of one, about an insane assylum. It was supposed to be 15 chapters long about the 13 inmates, each section was from a diff point of view and perspective. it was fun. i loved doing that stuff, now i have a real job that takes all my time....eh

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      man, ive been soo busy...no writing in almost a week. but i will try to start again like tonihgt

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      how u doin man?

    • megafire

      12 years ago

      In my country, this works a bit different, at age 16 you can legaly drink beer, get a scooter drivers license, but a drivers license of a car, well, that is only for 18+, and I could buy games, but not the real cool stuff

    • AlphaWolf727

      12 years ago

      hey guess what... im level 20 and as a specail surprise im giving out mods... since youve been such a bad-ass friend ... im giving you +10 it will go on your latest journal! Thanks to all of my homies who helped! YOU GUYS ARE RAD

    • exniner

      12 years ago

      the Dove is a title for the main villian

    • alphauneric

      12 years ago

      wait advisory i have that at my school

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