BowDownToMe

Female
from In Front of Mowed Cornfields, Indiana

  • Activity

    • All we are

      9 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      is dust in the wind.

      I'm over this lack of motivation and creation.

      I need something of interest. Something... worth figuring out.

      I'll forever feel nauseous of the things I don't know or understand.

      I guess I wish I could just know if I'm wasting my time or if this love is something... long lasting.

      Something... worth savoring.

      Why do I have to be such an affectionate person?

      I wouldn't be half the nuissance I am, if I could just tone down my need for romance.

      A life without love isn't much of a life at all, but it seems a life with love is more complicated.

      Conundrums forever bog my mind.

      Thoughts are eternal entities of a spotted mind.

    • I am so close.

      9 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      SO CLOSE.
      sO CLOSE.
      so CLOSE.
      so cLOSE.
      so clOSE.
      so cloSE.
      so closE.
      so close.

      ((so close))

      *fade to black*

    • I don't exist.

      9 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      And that's the point.

    • A Brush with Mortality

      9 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      I've never lost a friend before, at least not in the death sense. However, on March 2, 2010, that changed.

      Herbert Novell aka Sherbert:

      You were only 19 in years, but old in spirit-your wisdom was definitely beyond your years. I miss you man, and I will always remember the hilarious laughs and deep conversations. We may have lost a member of the Graphics family, but you brought us all closer together in your death. Love you Sher-bear, always and forever in my heart.

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      So this is a brush with my mortality, and the mortality of those around me. It feels like we have forever to figure these things out, and we don't. It feels like we've got all this time to make things right with ourselves and other, and we don't. So I take this moment to attempt to let everyone know where they stand with me, and to be as caring as I can to those who deserve it. My heart is open, my arms are accepting, and now it's time to realize my mortality, and embrace it.

      Peace, love, and hugs everyone.

    • Being sick

      9 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks.

      I just wish all this shit would clear up and go away. I want to wake up and have nothing staring me in the face about how it hurts to eat certain things or how I don't want to smile.
      FUCK
      ICKY
      SICKNESS
      that appears out of nowhere.

      And the best of luck to my Grandma, who has a lesion on her brain.
      I love you Grandma :]

    • Just so we are all clear:

      9 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      Everyone has AIDs.

      Or ya.

      Guess who's birthday is this Thursday?
      [Get this wrong, and I shank you.]
      [Hard.]

      Other stuff and things that typically go in a journal
      blah, blah, blah, etc.

      YUP!

    • Thanks for all the mods.

      9 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      And even though it was a shit ton, I'm still only | | <~~that close to getting to +37 haha. It hasn't changed.

      By the way, sorry I haven't been on in a while. I kind of forgot that RvB existed since I don't have an xbox to play halo, which reminds me of RvB.

      My life begins where this ends, and I'm approaching ithe finish line fast. I will push through this-my strength is my strongpoint, and I'll use it to its very last drop. I may be young, I may be in a sea of unknowing, but there's an intuitive thing that lies in every bit of my heart and bones, so I know what I need. This isn't it, because it hasn't ended yet.

      The point? A change of scenery is the perfect antidote to this chronic infection. And I'm sure of it. :]

    • Mod My Stuff Good!

      9 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      Why?

      Because for the past year and a half I've been stuck trying to get to +37 on my Karma Level, and I'm tired of seeing that red bar this far | | from the end. :]

      You know you love me which means you want toooo. <3

      Or, whatever.

    • Bursting With Awesome. [Edited]

      10 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      I'll edit this later. now.

      Well Shit, I can't even remember what I was going to write in this journal entry anymore. Three days ago may seem short, but it feels like a lifetime. Maybe all this thinking I've been doing is causing time to prolong so much so that it's ruining my perceptions of it.

      So in short, my life is no longer Bursting with Awesome. It's rather dull to say the least. I thought I had a few special events happening soon, but instead all I've got to look forward to is my wisdom teeth being pulled and school. Which are both exciting, but I feel emptied again. I'm not depressed, but I'm not sucking in the sweet Happy air either. Things will turn around. It's just a matter of which side of myself I need to focus on.

      Oh and I have become painfully aware that my dancing is fail. I am not "loose" enough, but I chose not to look like I'm having sex on the dance floor with every guy. Why is that so hard or so inconceviable for my latino friends to get?

    • Mmm

      10 years ago

      BowDownToMe

      I love how the only alerts I get are from RT.

      Shit sucks. I wish there was such a thing as literal happy pills that lasted for years.

      Life would be so much simpler if your true attitude could match what you can pretend.

      Yes, I am a drama queen - but only when shit sucks.

      Suck my dick. :)

      ---:::Editedit:::---
      By the way, I start college at the end of August. I am looking forward to getting started on my art, however the school seems so nazi in the dress code. Apparently, they WANT me to live uncomfortable. Seriously? Business-y type outfits. -death- I guess all those years spent NOT being girly are biting me in the ass... And! I'm not allowed to have piercings that aren't my ears. WTF. So long lip or eyebrow or w/e piercing I wanted to get. Looks like I will have to make up for the loss through more tattoos! (when I start getting them that is :P)

      Bitches.

  • About Me

  • Comments (527)

    • SolidusNinja

      9 years ago

      Just figured I'd take a second to say hi, and that our conversations are missed. I hope all is well for you.

    • Tahkoon

      9 years ago

      Sup mang

    • Conneticut78

      9 years ago

      Hey I modded everyone of your images to help your karma level hope it helps

      And PS going through your photos made me realize you're quite the cutey smiley0.gif

    • kevoh12926

      10 years ago

      lol i've been great. I dont think we've met before.
      I'm kevin :) Nice to meet you

    • trukerrocks1

      10 years ago

      hey wassup just checkin up on you and giving u an alert thats not just from the rt staff

    • kevoh12926

      10 years ago

      Hello there :)

    • Ezekillz

      10 years ago

      calm down i was making a joke...lol...

    • Ezekillz

      10 years ago

      a reply would be nice lol

    • Ezekillz

      10 years ago

      Casey...are you alive?

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      You are solid C Dogg, You'll figure shit out. As always, I'm here to talk and shit if you want to! I don't hear enough from my casey, I remember when we used to talk about everything. I miss it, haven't had a good conversation in a while.

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      Tis good to catch you on! How are things chica?

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      Then you can talk to me... If you first decide to not punch me in the jaw that is. It's been forever since we've talked, we need to again.

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      By fun I mean, just generally not sucky. Even though it is not always so, as of lately it has been a little less...

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      It does make sense, and I agree.

    • SingurSorrow

      10 years ago

      check your messages please!

    • SingurSorrow

      10 years ago

      Hey wanna talk?

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      whooowly shit you just happen to be on. lol. It's a work in progress.

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      I keed :)

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      Do other days count? :D

    • DEATHROW

      10 years ago

      You know...all the fighting that I've done today, has made my leg a little sore. So bowing is going to be a little difficult for me. HI!

    • SolidusNinja

      10 years ago

      Well... be gentle, is all I request, and I'm looking forward to you hunting me down. That makes things rather convenient for me.

      The job is rather sweet, having a decent amout of setbacks but were still taking off. But mmmyeah, and I reckon one of these days I will... 2 days wasn't enough, imo. I most certainly misses mah Casey... we don't talk enough homie. Have a T-Day of sobriety and excitement mi paprika.

    • animecrazy

      10 years ago

      hi

    • Meridox21

      10 years ago

      lol well u can have the world its one shithole of a place to run.

    • Meridox21

      10 years ago

      lol thats a strait forward screen name. usually that is unspoken in a relationship but always happens.

    • TheMatt

      10 years ago

      Hi, nice to meet you.

    • Broly2458

      10 years ago

      Hi my name is LT and i will like to be your friend
      and on sunday i turned 19 i'm so happy

    • c0nques7

      10 years ago

      Oh, I know it is...haha

    • LlHimsaLl

      10 years ago

      are you online cause i seriously can't tell

    • LlHimsaLl

      10 years ago

      Hey

    • c0nques7

      10 years ago

      The math of people cannot be named in simple factors...we shall have to delve into QUAANNNTTUUMMM FAACCCTTOORRRRSSS *say in big voice*

    • c0nques7

      10 years ago

      Casey > Scientology

      Do you, however, factor well with others?

    • c0nques7

      10 years ago

      Thats probably the most vague answer I've ever heard. Kudos for being more confusing that Scientology!

    • c0nques7

      10 years ago

      Aka, only a few small factors in life, and youre still breathing? Thats awesome...I don't think I even mentioned it, but I'm actually planning on becoming a pastor, so I know alllll about finding that peace you talk about.

    • c0nques7

      10 years ago

      what changed?

    • kahnefan001

      10 years ago

      This is why I plan on buying a UPS (Uninterpretable Power Supply) not the guys in brown suits, to keep the power going.

      Post edited 10/14/08 9:07PM

    • _Nuge_

      10 years ago

      haha, im not a sir, i work for a living ;)

    • _Nuge_

      10 years ago

      alrighty then haha
      well still
      it sounds good =]

    • Peiodroz

      10 years ago

      sup

    • _Nuge_

      10 years ago

      lmao
      Yeah seriously it wasnt that bad, it was even a simple surgery hah =]

    • LlHimsaLl

      10 years ago

      haha thanks for the image comment

    • hatfierc

      10 years ago

      i like your art, it beautiful. you are obviously very talented

    • c0nques7

      10 years ago

      how about I just write it in my palm pilot and set an alarm? I keep it in my back pocket, so my left butt cheek will have to suffer from the radiation of a electronic device. :P

    • runegold

      10 years ago

      hi u

    • caboose1836

      10 years ago

      I was going to send rfr, but considering i have to talk to you first, let's talk then!!.........oh and Devildriver RULE!!!!!!!!! \m/

    • Conneticut78

      10 years ago

      Ha ha nothin much school just started for me basically and I don't think any of my classes and teachers could be anymore chill. You?

    • Conneticut78

      10 years ago

      Friends are another kind of family in a way but yeah for the most part I don't even think it's being a teenager thing it just add on to it for the most part my family is busy or someone is just in a bad mood and that kind of makes everyone have a bad mood. SO we care we just aren't all that close like you said.

    • Balian

      11 years ago

      Hi :)

    • Chupra

      11 years ago

      lol oh, not much, i slept for two hours and then... well, i went on RT lol
      what about airplanes? are airplanes up?... well, i guess not all of them but what about currently flying airplanes? lol

    • Chupra

      11 years ago

      eh, alright, im bored to death, it could be interesting to talk to you
      sooo... whats up?... and dont say the sky

    • Chupra

      11 years ago

      huh? im totally lost, sorry, im a little tired, why are you telling me this?

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