from Sartell, MN

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    • I'm still here

      13 years ago


      Yes, I'm still here. And still cancer free thankfully. Having a little issue with my knee, but orthoscopic surgery is the worst that can get so I'm not too worried about it.

      Yes, you were right -- being cancer free has made me go out and do more things. Well, mostly just work out more and have more sex. Woo. Speaking of which...

      ...At the moment I am sitting in a kickass hotel room with my boyfriend who is working on some preparations for the steak we're eating for dinner. Spring Break trip. We were going to go to Texas, but a room with a full kitchen and a Whirlpool jacuzzi (that's right, you heard me) bath in for 4 days and 3 nights was the same price as one of our tickets to Texas. So there was little debate in that one.

      I'm here until Friday, and will probably be updating often because of that. I want to post some pics of the place -- but I don't know how to do that in a journal entry.

      So fuck off if you're going to make a girl comment. Hello and I love you if you're going to offer constructive help. :) You will be modded.

      Thanks for the happy thoughts boys. Miss you kids. Need to get on here more often.

    • Les Mis and Less Cancer

      13 years ago


      So Les Miserables was beyond amazing. We got to tour backstage, see all their neato contraptions, and I was speechless as the cast walked past me (idiot!). At any rate, it was quite the evening. I cried 6 times during the performance, including a long weeping session at the very end. Then Nick and I took a walk through the Winter Carnival park outside under all those cool lights and checked out the ice sculptors at work. Then we went and tried to find a place to get coffee, but alas, we settled for eating McDonald's in the car. When we finally got back up to St. Cloud and got to bed -- we were both so tired, and I had to be up so early that we just went to sleep. But not before he told me he loves me. (!!! >-< !!!) I had been saying it to him for about 2 weeks, just because I couldn't help it. (It violates every rule I have about saying it -- but what can you do when it's the truth?) I didn't want to push him to, so I constantly followed it up with "Don't." But that night, I said it and said, "Don't." and then started to roll over to got to sleep; but he turned my head back toward him with a gentle hand on my chin and looked me in the eyes and said, "I love you." Mmm. It was like a movie scene or something. Just awesome. So I'm happy and head over heels in love. Not-afraid-of-diamonds-anymore love. (That's quite the step for me.)
      And about the cancer. On Tuesday, I went back to the doctor for my 3 month follow up about my ovarian cyst. GREAT news. Doc says it has NOT gotten any bigger, and that it is most definitely what they call a "simple" cyst. In layman's terms -- the kind of cyst that is 100% positively NOT cancer. That was quite possibly the best call I've gotten in a month.
      So anyway...those are the big updates. Thanks Cloud for the love. And trekkiewheel as well. I'm in love, and that means I have lots to share with you! *Mwah* *Mwah* *MWAH!*

    • Back in the Saddle Again

      13 years ago


      Back to school. Which means a second stab at calculus, my last semester of physics, and finally back into a chemistry class. I'm only taking three classes this semester, but they add up to 13 credits and two 3 hour labs so I think I'm set.

      Getting up at 6:30 everyday is going to get really old, really fast. But hey, maybe it'll force my ass to be productive and use my time wisely or something. Optimism never hurt anyone.

      I am desparately trying to move the hell out of my parent's house. My mother didn't speak to me (literally didn't say a word to me) for four days before Christmas because she thinks I'm a drunk lush. First off, I've never been to the bar more than 2 times in a week, so how am I a drunk? Secondly, she asks, "What do you think people are saying when they see you and Nick walking into the dorms together?" My answer, "Well, they probably think we're dating...which is okay because we are!"

      My older brother was somewhat socially inept so I think she's just having a hard time dealing with the normal social life of a college student. My dad, thankfully, takes my side and so I really haven't had any restrictions put on my behavior. But I still get comments and my mom still makes me feel bad about going out and having fun. So I'm moving out as soon as I am monetarily able to do so. Hopefully in the fall -- perhaps later, we'll see. Its hard to justify taking out loans to move out when I have absolutely no debt right now. If it comes down to it though, my last year of school I will. Just to get the fuck away.

      Other than that...not much new. I miss being a sponsor but I'm fucking poor. And you don't even know how poor I mean. Like I said -- I have no loans. Oh, and unlike the rich kids, mommy and daddy don't pay for my school. I do. So I have absolutely no debt, but that means I have absolutely no money. Woo.

      Life is good. I miss you kids. Look for a journal entry about seeing the last tour of Les Miserables down at the Ordway sometime after I see it on Wednesday night. I am beyond excited. I will be leaving a stain on the seat I'm in (12th row, dead center). ;) Much love to my homies...did Joshie get my Xmas card??

      Cloud, you are my new favorite. Followed closely by trekkiewheel. *Mwah*

    • Holy Shit

      13 years ago


      School will finally be over for the semester at 4:30 today. Oh my, my, oh hell yes. (I think I'll put on my party dress?)

      So the ovarian cyst is going to be checked on again on February 7th, but I have done some running and it doesn't hurt so bad anymore. I don't know what's going on, but less pain is always good.

      The old boyfriend is an ass. One of those breakups where I was totally for getting back together, until he decided to be a drunk, smoke weed again, and generally be obnoxiously happy without me. Well fuck that. I got better things to do with my time.

      Like Nick. :) New boyfriend. Hotter, takes better care of himself, and better care of me. Hell yes. And the best part is that our group of friends that hangs out before, during, and after hockey games includes both Brent (the ex) and Nick. For awhile we kept it low-key to keep the drama down. But I've stopped caring. If he can be a bitch, so can I. He ain't never gonna date nothing as good as me again anyway.

      So, in conclusion, life has gotten better. I don't feel like quitting life every other day. People have stopped dying and getting sick and I'm feeling better. w00t.

      Oh, and Joshie -- the Xmas card is coming!

    • Yes I'm still alive

      13 years ago


      Thanks for all the birthday wishes kids. I'm fine. I actually haven't got incredibly blitzed since I t urned 21. Too much going on. My birthday I was pretty happy on martinis, but otherwise I've only socially had a few. And now I am not allowed to drink for 8 days.

      See I don't know if anyone remembers, or if I even posted that here a month ago, but I have a cyst on my left ovary. Little painful. My doctor said, "Eh, if you're still having pain in 3 months we might look at it again." Unacceptable answer so I went to an OB/GYN for a second opinion.

      The opinion is that my cyst is so small that she would be afraid to operate. She said she might not be able to find it and would then have to remove my whole ovary (definitely not what I want). So we're going to watch it for the three months and see if surgery can become a more viable option. The cyst I have is the kind that will not go away on its own so it will eventually be either A) it stops hurting and I can just live with it, or 2) it grows or moves or something and surgery becomes easier.

      At any rate, I'm on these absolutely disgusting tasting pills for 5 days (they have titanium in them...eeeeck). I can't drink while I'm taking them, or for three days afterwards. So grr.

      But I am much happier and feel better about it because I actually got some ANSWERS.

      Morale of the story: OB/GYNs have to make you feel pretty good because they get to violate you.

    • Its my Birthday Bitches

      13 years ago


      Today is my 21st birthday! Love me because I <3 whiskey!

    • Damn you wraith88

      13 years ago


      It really did come out accurate. And because we're all insecure and it is for all of you to try it.


      try dis!sr-e fo t being so long.

      your instincts has






      This is freaky as anything...DO NOT



      will kick yourself later) I was a little

      skeptical trying this, but if you follow the

      instructions to the "t" you'll be


      All of my answers were accurate. We'll see

      tomorrow if the wish comes true. I'll let


      know. Take 3 minutes and try will


      you out! The person who sent it to me



      wish came true 10 minutes after they read


      mail. BUT NO CHEATING! This game



      funny/spooky outcome.

      Don't read ahead...just do it in order! It


      about three's worth a try

      First..get a pen and paper. When you


      choose names, make sure it's people you


      know and go with your first instinct.

      Scroll down one line at a time...and don't


      ahead or you'll ruin it!

      1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in



      2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write

      down any

      two numbers you want.

      3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the



      members of the opposite sex.




      4. Write anyone's name (like friends or

      family....) in the 4th, 5th,

      and 6th spots.

      5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10,




      6. Finally, make a wish.

      And now the key for the game.....

      1. You must tell (the number in space 2)


      about this game.

      2. The person in space 3 is the one that



      3. The person in 7 is one you like but




      4. You care most about the person you

      put in


      5. The person you name in number 5 is




      knows you very well.

      6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky


      7. The song in 8 is the song that matches


      the person in number 3.

      8. The title in 9 is the song for the person



      9. The tenth space is the song that tells


      most about YOUR mind.

      10. and 11 is the song telling you how



      about life

      this is so accurate this bulletin (dont reply) within


      hour... IF you do..

      your wish will come true...

      If you don't it will become the opposite

      u must post this in another room in 3 hours!!!! GOOD LUCK

    • Rest In Peace

      13 years ago


      They found the body of the girl who went missing, Andrea Arriagada. They found her in her car in a field in Monticello. She apparently shot herself. That's not official yet...but as soon as the autopsy is done I'm sure it will be.

      I went to high school with her. I was going to college with her.

      Temporary problem. Permanent solution.

    • Keep on the Sunny Side...

      13 years ago


      I'm trying at least.

      Its hard to know that in all reality you might have the beginnings of cancer. It'd be ironic wouldn't it? I want to someday have a job to help fight cancer, and here I might be getting it. But honestly, its a very remote chance.

      I'm going to set up a consultation with my doctor because the nurse did nothing but make me cry for an entire day. A day when I had a quiz, an interview, and a meeting with a prof. Bitch. She said about 30 words which can be summed up in the following 14: "You have a cist on your left ovary. Call us back in three months."

      Anyway, after doing some research, I'm probably fine. Freaked out. But fine. In pain. But fine. Might not be fine. But fine. So that's kind of where I'm at. Plus there's the boyfriend, but that's a whole other eight pages of explanation that I'll talk to someone about it they really care.

      Anyway, there is far too little love in this world so I'd like to say that I love all of you.

      Except for Jason...because I can't have his babies.

    • So I haven't been around in awhile

      13 years ago


      Yea, sorry about that. I've had a hectic time while I try really hard to fail calculus. That and I happen to be secretary of the DPC and nominated to Homecoming Court and I work a normal business hour job...

      ...and oh, I have to get checked for CANCER.

      Sorry to scare people, but I'm scared. The doctor said that 90% probability that that's not it. I don't have a history of it in my family, nor the lifestyle to promote it. But still, people get cancer for no good reason. If perfectly healthy 28-year-old athletes can fall over dead, then perfectly health almost-21-year-olds can get cancer.

      So anywho, I go in for a pevlic ultrasound tomorrow morning (oh yea, and did I mention that the reason for all this is some weird pain in the region of my left OVARY) and then I'll get the results on Wednesday. I have to drink like 32 oz. of water beforehand and I can't pee. Something about a full bladder stays out of the way of the ultrasound...I dunno.

      So please think some good thoughts for me, okay? I need a lot of support. It's a scary thought to think that A) I might have cancer, and B) If I have cancer and live through it, I may not be able to have kids. So good vibes, good karma, good whatever you want to call it is greatly appreciated.

      Thanks and Love,
      the Testosterone Junky

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  • Comments (27)

    • Melstar

      9 years ago

      KATHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You haven't been on here in 4 years!!! That's okay, it's been a looooooooong time for me too! :) Love you! See you in a few weeks and thanks for the fun on Saturday!

    • nweasel

      11 years ago

      :[ smiley12.gif

    • Rowen

      12 years ago

      Hey, it's Cloud.

      I got my ass b&, so I made a new account.

      Add me back, dear. <3

    • ujsc004

      13 years ago

      Hey Hey, how are you???

    • Wheelz_TTV

      13 years ago

      HEHE have fun ;)! *tucks u in*

    • Wheelz_TTV

      13 years ago

      LOL HAHA nice work

    • Wheelz_TTV

      13 years ago

      sorry u just wernt online lol but ur back now if u accept

    • NyCoN

      13 years ago


    • Wheelz_TTV

      13 years ago


    • Wheelz_TTV

      13 years ago

      Welcome! :)!

    • wraith88

      13 years ago

      Hey, you should check out my Dream Theater thread. Some guys posted DT's covers of Number of the Beast and Dark Side of the Moon.

    • ionbubbles

      14 years ago

      Hey! Long time no say anything! Maybe we (meaning you, Melstar, and me) should get together one day in St. Cloud for lunch once the school year starts. Like our own little mini RvBMN.


    • wraith88

      14 years ago


      The Game of Tag
      If I tagged you... HA! You now have to follow the rules of the game:

      -You cannot tag someone who tagged you
      -You should tag at least 5 other people (those with 4 or less will be punished by flogging or any other way I can think of)
      -Random tagging is accepted
      -All tagging should be done in the personal comments section on the homepage of the tag-ee
      -Do not eat a live chicken
      -This game is only fun if people participate
      -The goal is for everyone on the site to get tagged EVENTUALLY
      -If you decide to participate, post the rules in your journal or link them to this journal
      -I have a space monkey in my pics section
      -There is no violence until I change the game to capture the flag
      -When capture the flag breaks out, the teams will cluck like chickens until I am satisfied (....???)

    • wraith88

      14 years ago

      Dream Theater, awesome group.

    • ujsc004

      14 years ago

      why hello there!, i am doing pretty well. Teh amy is doing good as well (though she is very busy smiley2.gif ). how are you?

    • MiddlWstWndr

      14 years ago

      had lots of fun at RvB MN...... hope we all do the same next year....... with more people.......

    • deafguy

      14 years ago

      You came online and didn't even say hello.....well i never! I said good day!

    • QuikSliver

      14 years ago

      Be All My Sins Remember'd

    • Brakus

      14 years ago


    • deafguy

      14 years ago

      You are a team killing fucktard. I mean that in a friendly ....uh.....deaf.....uhhhh......ahhh fuck it I hate you. Answer the phone when I call ya asslick.

    • Dragon04

      14 years ago

      Yo. I got pretty much the same thing in my Fav TV shows section Check it out!

    • FlotingAxhed

      14 years ago

      New socks kick @$$.

    • vash

      14 years ago

      cool, Sartell, I live in St. Cloud.

    • vash

      14 years ago

      Hello, fellow Minnesotan. Nice to see some local folks here

    • slightly

      14 years ago

      welcome from me as well!

    • Microbe

      14 years ago


    • Melstar

      14 years ago

      lol i cant believe you forgot 311 in your favorite music!

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