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    • The Death Of The Life Of Cristobal

      7 years ago

      CristobalJay

      This week I bought The Old Republic. Like my friend (who also bought it) said... "I used to have a life like you, then I took and Old Republic to the knee"

    • Life is important

      7 years ago

      CristobalJay

      After another bout of philosophical thought I've written this journal. My Friend committed suicide just over a week ago. Katherine Bernard was 17 year old and I've known her since she was just 12 when she started high school and became friends with my younger brother. In reality she was one of his only friends as experiences as a child left most incapable of having normal relationships. Nonetheless she was always good to him. Then for reasons unknown to myself she ended her life by putting herself in the way of a moving train and in a fraction of a second a young life with so much potential was lost. Don't think I'm trying to make people feel down with this story/ I'm turning 20 this year and only starting to realise what's important. At the core is family and friends. What I'm trying to say is try avoiding fighting with them, because any second they can be taken from you and you'll be filled with regret. Miss Bernard is now in a place were she can't suffer. R.I.P.

    • I'm not dead

      7 years ago

      CristobalJay

      I'm not dead, just fell off the face of the earth.... damn. If people would actually read what I write then maybe I'd write more often. Cristobal is feeling blue... needs a hug

    • A snapshot of Life, A moment of Change

      7 years ago

      CristobalJay

      So I de-activated my Facebook account. I just could not be bothered talking to people I don't even like, all the people I do like I talk to on the phone anyhow. So Facebook is gone. I've also booked in my driving license test, sent my application for Australian citizenship and re-enrolled for university next year. All in the space of a week. One moment everything is as was then everything starts to change, slowly but surely. Rooster Teeth was just a place that did Red Vs Blue for us originally, then other Machinima, now shorts, Immersion, podcasts, events, achievement hunter etc. The agents of change are always at work and when you look back you always remember the way things were, be it good or bad. What I'm trying to say is that we must not be afraid of change, weary yes, but not afraid. Peace

    • How I Sat my Psychology Exam

      7 years ago

      CristobalJay

      I got sick the other day. Really damn sick. I was radiating heat like a furnace. I was my own little sun! Anyhow I had to go to work and so my awesome mum being a nurse gave me a cocktail of pills and capsules and tablets and tea in order to stop me from going supernova and allowing me to work without melting the little kids I coach. I'm about to sit my Psych exam in an hour and a half and so far here is my tally of things i have taken in order to survive thus far:

      13 tablets
      14 capsules
      19 Litres of water and lemon juice
      9 cups of tea
      5 Slurpees

      This is in time span of just under two days.


      I WILL SURVIVE

    • Meeting Burnie Burns

      7 years ago

      CristobalJay

      Went to the RTOZ BBQ the other day (Friday me thinks) and had a kick ass time. We chilled met new people and then.... BURNIE SHOWS UP!!!!! A real stand up guy, really nice and I never realised how much of an accent he has. Anyway my brother couldn't attend because he was sick so instead Burnie calls him and talks to him. My brother was so excited that he later confided that he had no idea what to say on the phone. Thanks Burnie and thanks Katie for organising an awesome night!!

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    • Painkillers (Poison)

      7 years ago

      CristobalJay

      Hey I felt a little inspired today after listening to the album Tha Carter IV. It's really good so have a listen to it when you can. Anyhow feedback would be great!!

      The music is blasting
      People are jumping, girls are grinding
      This ain't no short gig, this be everlasting
      Strobe lights flashing in your eyes, man it's blinding

      Liquor is flowing
      Making people want to dance, party ain't slowing
      Like everyone else the liquor is numbing my brain
      At this point we can all forget our pain

      I'm staggering, I can't even hold my bottle
      I'm a jet at mach 5 and I'm going full throttle
      I trip over my feet and land on the floor
      Worst part is this party is next door

      I stagger to my feet
      Through these walls I can still hear the beat
      Been able to walk at this point is a great feat
      Eventually I crumple down on myself and accept defeat

      This happens maybe twice a week
      Solace and redemption is what I pretend I seek
      The truth is I'm just fucking weak
      My memories just leave me meek

      At the bottom of this bottle is a good hiding spot
      I retreat there quite a lot
      I hide there when my mind is full of thought
      Couldn't stand the fire cause it was too hot

      I tried to drink till the pain was over
      But really what was worse
      The pain or the hangover
      I seemed dedicated to end in the back of a hearse

      The posion in my veins is liquor
      Makes my skin a little thicker
      Makes these memories just a flicker
      It also makes me sicker

      I'm not strong enough to face these memories
      Liquor is my type of therapy
      But then my world began to flip
      I couldn't concentrate, moments began to slip

      I had walked this path of self-destruction
      When I came down the emotions came over my like an eruption
      No matter the scale of my consumption
      My life had halted construction

      It's been over two months since I last poisoned myself
      No more liquor sitting on my shelf
      I poured it down the drain
      Now I have to man it up and face the pain

      But the pain is now easier to bear
      Life is harder but at least it feels like a semblance of fair
      One day I'll destroy my demons and be normal again
      I'll just tough it out till then



      Now thats pretty rough but yeah. It's true which makes it to me a little more relevant but I just want your thoughts cheers guys :)

  • Comments (9)

    • jack FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Like Lego

      7 years ago

      It takes a lot of patience. Thanks for the support.

    • Caiti FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Velvet Scarlatina

      7 years ago

      Hey mate,

      There's no limit for people attending the BBQ on Friday so I hope you can come along and join in on the celebrations!

      Cheers!

      • CristobalJay

        7 years ago

        AWESOME my friend and I have been long time fans so we will do everything in our power to be there

    • Joel FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      7 years ago

      Probably should be. Not entirely sure on what the schedule is at this point

      • CristobalJay

        7 years ago

        Thanks Joel!! You responded which made my day. Well if your there then so are we :) Peace

      • Caiti FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Velvet Scarlatina

        7 years ago

        You totally will be there. I know this, because I know.

    • hellokitty68

      7 years ago

      you feel special?? I feel special! I'm number one!

    • Shashi

      7 years ago

      Thank you so much for the comment and voting on my song :)

      • CristobalJay

        7 years ago

        no worries :) I shared it to try and get it some exposure

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