Cyborg18

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from Augusta, GA

  • Activity

    • Two weeks.

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      Osama Bin Laden is dead, and we're getting married in two weeks. Actually, one week and six days.

    • 72.

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      See that number up there?

      Yeah, that's how many days it is until we get married.

      We're looking at places to live, and rings, and all sorts of bizzarre stuff that I never thought I'd actually sit and look at with someone. I always thought I'd be the first to get married out of my group of friends, and then only because I got pregnant and HAD to marry him, and here I am the last of my friends and willingly choosing to hook my caboose to someone else's engine. Wild.

      Anyway, invitation list is almost done, planning is almost done, going to pick out rings tomorrow.... It's like Life happened so suddenly.

    • Wow.

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      I'm getting married in 84 days.

      Wow.

    • Navy

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      He takes his last test today. He should find out his rate (job) and ship-date for boot camp by mid-week.

      We're hoping we'll have time to get married before he leaves. When I told him I was worried we wouldn't (he could be gone in two weeks!), he said "We will."

      And I was like woah. It was just like when he said "You're next, and sooner than you think." There was that note of finality about it.

      It's snowing down here, you know. I told God I'd marry Evan if it snowed, and the night of our anniversary, we got an inch of it. Evan knelt in the snow and asked me to marry him, and by the morning, it had all melted.

      God is weird that way.

      And it's snowing again, except this time, it's a blizzard that's blanking out my entire region. You should have seen the lines at the gas stations and local super-stores. You'd think people never saw snow. It's white death, hurtling from the sky! What... What is this... Strange, foreign, cold stuff? THIS MAKE NO SENSE. I guess God really wants me to marry Evan, if He's sending blizzards our way.

      I love it when it snows.

      I'm also exhausted. I've been working a lot and trying to plan a wedding when I don't even know if the groom is even going to be there. He might be at boot camp for it. We might end up going to the priest in a week and saying, "Hey, we've done everything except this one thing, so can we get married and do this one thing when Evan gets back from bootcamp? Thanks!" and then at the alter later that day. I have no idea. I have no idea. It's crazy. It's like Mr Toad's Wild Ride, up in here. And I don't get nearly enough rest.

      So on that note, adieu.

    • EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      HE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM.


      ....



      I SAID YES.


      THAT IS ALL.

    • Woah.

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      I haven't been on RvB for WAY too long (over two months!). I've finally gotten a chance to check in and it looks like some layout things might have changed? Anyway, things are alright here. I'm keeping busy.

      I dropped out of college. I was an international honor student and got good grades and all, but eventually I just stopped showing up to classes or turning in work, and I'm sure as heck not going to stick around and waste my time, my professors' time, and my dad's money, just to say I got a degree. It's just not that worth it to me, especially since I plan on becoming a house-wife anyway. I'll probably end up going back eventually and finishing it out. People keep telling me I'm making a huge mistake, but to be honest, it was the first decision I'd made in a LONG TIME that I actually felt peace about. I know that this is the path I'm walking for right now, and later is another story.

      I have a new job, which I love. I mean, all jobs have rocky places, you know, but this one is really great. It keeps me occupied, pays really well, is full time, and has full benefits. In this economy, it's like a dream job! Who am I kidding, it /is/ a dream job. The people are nice, the hours are regular and I know what to expect. I'm also good at it, which is oddly fulfilling. Most people would just see it as boring, repetitive work, or like it's beneath them or something, but I really like it. I work in the office of a retail store and I basically do paperwork all day and check other people's paperwork for mistakes. The only crap part of the job is having to deal with angry customers, but even that usually ends up going to my manager. I say a prayer and let it slide like water off a duck's back. Sometimes it gets to me, but I try to remember that if I spent THAT MUCH money on something, I'd be upset if it arrived broken, too.

      Evan's military thing is coming along pretty slowly. I maintain that his recruiter just isn't that interested in helping. I'm also secretly glad about it. But I've also adjusted to the idea, and to be honest, supporting him (nevermind how scary this all is for me) is important to me. I told him I'd be willing to road-trip to another city to see a recruiter there, but I think there's a part of him that's happy to not be joining, too. We'll see. I can't say I've warmed up to the idea, but at least I'm not as frigid about it. Also, if he gets the rate (job) he wants, we'll be moving out to California, so that's something else to be excited about. I'm trying to stay positive, and I can tell that it's a lot easier on him when I am. I know it probably stresses him out to see me upset. Besides, he's so happy when he talks about the Navy that it's hard not to be happy with him.

      I also strongly suspect he's going to ask me to marry him for Christmas. I'll tell you why. Some friends of mine got engaged over the weekend and I told him about it, and he said, "You're next, and sooner than you think." Also, I found a card for a jewelery shop on his desk. Yikes! Equal parts awkward, romantic, and terror-inducing. The 26th will be our second anniversary (excepting that two week period that we were broken up but neither one of us wanted to be broken up but we couldn't figure out how to communicate again - which by the way is much better). Even with all the rough-spots, he's still the best Christmas present I've ever gotten.

      Speaking of Christmas: first Christmas as an official Catholic. I'M SO STOKED. I've been a Christian for two years (November 17th, 2008) and this Easter I will have been a Catholic for a full year, but this Christmas will be the first one that I'll get to take Communion with Evan and I'm excited for it. Celebrating the Lord's birthday is great.

      I miss Paris.

      Uh...

      I guess that's it.

      How are you?

    • ASVAB

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      He got a 98 out of 99. They were trying to get him into the nuclear program.

      He told them no.

      I'm not happy about the military thing. The one thing I told him was that I didn't want to be a military wife, and now it looks like I'm stuck with that shit, and I'm angry about it. I don't get a say in my future here, and that's not okay. But he has good points: we do need the health coverage (I have some issues that need care), and he didn't find a job anywhere else. We'd get to travel. You know, these are all great, logical reasons, but all I can think of is how pissed off I am at him for ignoring me.

      Does that make me a bad person?

    • .

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      We've been back together since Friday. He's seeing the recruiter tomorrow about joining the Navy.

      Game time.

    • Sunday.

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      Tomorrow will have been a week since Evan and I broke up.

      This blows.

      A lot.

      I FUCKING HATE THIS.

    • Well, fuck.

      8 years ago

      Cyborg18

      Is it possible to cry yourself into oblivion?

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  • Comments (378)

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      8 years ago

      I'm doing alright. Keeping real busy too. Though looking forward to a bit of a break at Christmas.

      It's cold up here. Not too much snow, but a little every day. Has a nice winter wonderland thing going on.

    • Charlie

      8 years ago

      :) yeah... I seemed to forget how to click on the redvsblue tab on my browser too. It's nice to know there are still people here that I know. I was afraid everyone else had left too. How have you been dear?!

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      8 years ago

      wow, haven't heard from you in forever. How you been?

    • DumpsterMutt

      10 years ago

      BUDS is a tough school. Being a SEAL doesn't make for a tougher life, it just makes for a much different one. A better one in my opinion. Special Operations troops are better trained, better equiped, and vastly better informed. They don't do dumb training, and very very rarely do you and him have to put up with any dumb shit. smiley8.gif

    • inov8iv

      10 years ago

      I'm BAAAAAACCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK...........

    • rue_morgue

      10 years ago

      it makes me feel special :]

    • Gee

      11 years ago

      that would be horribly gross.

      Spider-Man sold his marriage to Mephisto to save Aunt May's life.

    • Charlie

      11 years ago

      She really does take some awesome shots... I'll have to show you some of the others sometime. smiley0.gif I'm proud of her.

    • Gee

      11 years ago

      I'm pretty tired, apparently, since I just fell asleep as soon as I signed on. I'm sorry. :(

      also, I am experiencing really bad allergies. it's NOT fun.

      also also, I wish I trusted other people enough to let them help me pack. it would make life so much easier. sigh.

      and how are you, my precious?

    • DumpsterMutt

      11 years ago

      You should ignore/delete my previous comment, it was ridiculous. Utterly. smiley8.gif

    • DumpsterMutt

      11 years ago

      Ok, you must understand why I thought the way that I did. I would tell you that's ok, except for the whole sobriety thing. I never believed that alcoholism was a disease. Of course I don't believe that most psychiatric diseases exist. I certainly don't think that PTSD exists, and I don't believe that ADD/ADHD exists. But that's just me. smiley8.gif

    • DumpsterMutt

      11 years ago

      The Lionheart said I should watch you, because you're a cool chick.
      I like Red (as you might have guessed) I am a soldier, and I'm a bit of a smartass. Ok, I'm a lot of a smartass. smiley8.gif

    • TheLionheart

      11 years ago

      All this talk of hive minds is making me nervous... I can just hear little Flood noises coming out of my PC now...

      OH NOES! I see red Flood filaments coming out of my case window! They're-- oh, no, wait, nevermind, that's just a bunch of red twistie ties.

      Excuse me, I'm going to go buy a shotgun now, thanks.

    • TheLionheart

      11 years ago

      Ah, okay.

      Never knew that. I like how you chose "too" instead of "2". smiley6.gif

    • TheLionheart

      11 years ago

      Originally posted by: Cyborg18
      Huh.

      It really kind of weirds me out that you wrote an entry for me.


      Did it? I apologize, no weirding out was intended, but, I did want to let you know that I care. Some things are worth risking being labeled weird for. :) And you are one of those things. smiley7.gif

      I thought that you already knew because of what I posted here:
      http://rvb.roosterteeth.com/members/journal/entry.php?id=1982865

      Either way, I hope that it helped. smiley12.gif

    • SirDeeSee

      11 years ago

      No, I don't use any others. What email clienty thing are you using?

    • SirDeeSee

      11 years ago

      It's a myth, you know.

    • SirDeeSee

      11 years ago

      o_O

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      11 years ago

      Can you masturbate in one of those suits?


      nope, they just got a 'feelings of love' thing going. No getting it on... it's the spartan way. To be a spartan you gotta be cold, single minded warrior.

    • Gee

      11 years ago

      the song made me sad, no depressed. I'm becoming a lot better at learning the difference, and accepting that it's okay to be sad sometimes. In fact, it's necessary.

      don't you worry my friend. I'm doing aces. With the occasionally moment of sadness.

      how are you doing?

    • beckyfruit

      11 years ago

      awww!
      you still loves me!

      smiley6.gif
      thanks girlfriend
      mwah mwah mwah!

      hope all is well hottie smiley7.gifsmiley12.gif

    • beckyfruit

      11 years ago

      smiley12.gifsmiley7.gif

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      11 years ago

      sometimes red, sometimes green - but usually purple

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      11 years ago

      nope - this is a first for me. WHOO HOO!!!

    • beckyfruit

      11 years ago

      i've been decent
      bored

    • beckyfruit

      11 years ago

      wow i havent talked to you in FOREVER!!! howzit goin?!

    • SirDeeSee

      11 years ago

      Heh.

    • SirDeeSee

      11 years ago

      Have mine! It's yours!

    • Charlie

      12 years ago

      I did paint cars for a living... but then I injured my knee and wasn't able to do that anymore. I had to find another job that would pay me as well and that put me smack dab in the middle of a cubicle.

    • SirDeeSee

      12 years ago

      Way to miss the point.

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      12 years ago

      I'm sure I'm not the only one that's ever asked this, but... Why are all the Lukes in your pictures bandaged, bruised, scraped up, and generally in a state of disarray? I wonder, is this a reflection on your mental state? And who is the lady on the bench with you?


      meh, bandages are fun and crazy looking, that's about it... adds more flavor. Who's the girl? I dunno.. let's say you.

    • SirDeeSee

      12 years ago

      Well in that case you're forgiven. Speak soon.

    • Jeskid FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      Sorry been super busy. When things clear up a bit - some coffee in the city would be cool.

    • Noah13

      12 years ago

      and you are?

    • Wraith_7 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      *recline*

    • Spiko117

      12 years ago

      *huggle* smiley12.gifsmiley8.gifsmiley0.gif

    • Cheesiest

      12 years ago

      Impending doom? hell, that's a countdown till the day You get to rape ME! Don't be fooled by the "I'm Legal" part... smiley8.gif

    • Glod

      12 years ago

      Library! That's EXCELLENT! I'm sure many books will be read, and if the weather's as good over there as it is over here, hopefully they'll be read outdoors where at least you can think of me in my windowless lab and snicker from time to time. smiley6.gif

    • Glod

      12 years ago

      I'm sorry! Just goes to show my stunning grasp of geography and trivia... *eye roll*

    • Jeskid FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      Welcome to NYC!!!

    • SirDeeSee

      12 years ago

      You were mean?

    • SirDeeSee

      12 years ago

      *Salutes*

      I'm going to bed now. Hope you're well.

    • Gee

      12 years ago

      I wish you luck. Not that you need it. You will blow New York away with your awesomeness.

      All the best to you, my dear.

    • MurryBob

      12 years ago

      New York City? you gonna become one of them City girls an't ya?

    • SirDeeSee

      12 years ago

      I are tired.

    • SirDeeSee

      12 years ago

      Slightly pre-emptive?

    • GWChupaCabra

      12 years ago

      i like me too.....well not really sometimes, but mainly when i have food, cause i like to share

      but not with myself

      i rarely get to actually eat because of that

    • Cheesiest

      12 years ago

      megan!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • SirDeeSee

      12 years ago

      Er...

      It's a good point.

      COVERT MODE.

    • SirDeeSee

      12 years ago

      Not true. When you fall out of a plane, it's not the falling that kills you. It's when you stop falling really fast.

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