A lot can change in 5 years. I’ve gone from a jobless gamer, milling about my own head whilst I ran around imaginary worlds to a full time salary man with a partner to share my life. I’ve done lots of jobs over the years, but this job I have now I find that I’m good at it. Done various roles for the same Department, and I’ve found that I’ve adapted quickly and accurately enough that people who have had the same amount of training as I have coming to me for help. Never had a job like it, where I’m fully confident with what I’m doing, and actually have the confidence to guide others, never something I thought I’d find myself doing either. Gaming can teach you confidence in ways you don’t realise; Thank you Vault of Glass :P
And then, 16 months ago my partner and I added something to the world that I truly believe has been the culmination of my life. I’ve never wanted anything, or knew myself to want anything out of my life, other than this. We’ve had a son, and he is without a doubt the single greatest thing in my life, perhaps the only good thing that I’ve ever brought into the world in the last 30 years. I often consider myself a somewhat selfish individual, but have sworn to myself that our son will grow up to the be the person he was meant to be, something he himself decides. I will never allow him to become just a copy of either myself, or his mother, who has her own problems. We guard each other, and call each other out when we need it, but never will our problems, become his. Selfish of me I know, but I believe a child should be something more than their parents, not just a copy.