Demon76

Female
from Wisconsin

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    • Holy Monkeys!

      8 years ago

      Demon76

      I haven't been on here in 2 years. I was bored today and figured I'd check it out. Boy was there a lot to change! Just posting a new entry to let ya'll know I'm back on here. Though there isn't many people I really talked to before anyways.

    • People's Problems

      10 years ago

      Demon76

      Why do people have so many problems? Not only that, but why the heck do they always come to me about them? I know I'm a good advice giver and that I'm willing to help usually, but lately that's all people come to me about. I try to help them as much as I can, but lately it's been too much. It's like word gets around about how I help people and now random people (still my friends) are coming up to me asking me for advice. I'm usually willing to give it, but right now I have enough problems of my own. I don't know how much of it I can handle. I have my personal problems at home, my school problems, and then I also have a boyfriend. That for me is a lot to juggle. I have had so many problems in the past that are still coming back on me today. I don't mind helping most people, but not it's getting out of hand. I have my problems and they add their problems to mine. I get really frustrated and it's getting harder. I really do like helping people though. It makes me feel good, although I don't take my own advice. It's kind of funny really. Do any of you ever get that problem? I mean, I've had someone tell those people off for me, but I think it's just getting worse. I'm not a psychiatrist and people seem to think I am. I wanted to become one, but my counselor told me that I don't have the ability to do so. Aren't they supposed to support you on your decisions though? They told me I couldn't do a lot of things. Just like my mother. No one really supports me except those friends of mine that are in college and who actually care about me. Usually that doesn't happen. I have a very select few that actually do care about me and I'm happy to have them in my life right now. That's about 6 people. Which is a horribly low number, but I love them as if they were my own family and blood. My family isn't even a true family. So anyways, I got off topic. I don't understand why I'm just the one person to go to for advice. I know I give great advice and I help so many people with such horrible problems. I know I'm there for who ever needs me, but it's getting hard and out of hand. I will still do what I do in spite of what happens, but I do need a little break to catch up with my own life. I have no life right now and dealing with other people's problems is the last thing I need. As long as I have some time to catch up with my own problems I will probably be fine and can help after a while. Any advice on what I should do?

    • You ever get that feeling?

      10 years ago

      Demon76

      Do you ever get that feeling that someone is watching you? I get it most of the time. I don't know if I'm just one of those paranoid people or what, but I always feel like someone is watching me. I used to have an ex boyfriend that would stand outside my house and watch my every move. When I first moved into my house I always had people coming to my window trying to get my attention. This is a small town and I know almost all of the people that live here. I still feel like someone is always watching me though. It's either inside my house or outside. My house makes funny noises sometimes like someone's in the house but it has all wood floors and the sound is probably the wood expanding. This is a very old house. There are also times though that I hear louder noises coming from different places. A lot of the items in my house come up missing and doors are opening without anyone opening them. When I'm home alone I just try to watch my back and I can always sense when someone's near me, so that helps a lot. When I'm either in my room, on the computer, my basement, or my crawls spaces is where I feel like I'm being watched the most. I have a walk in crawl space on each side of my room and windows all around my house so it's easy to see whatever goes on at my house. Knowing that my ex boyfriend used to sit outside my house and watch me makes me wonder who else could be doing the same thing. He wasn't alone when he did it either. I may be young and paranoid, but sometimes I don't think it's just the paranoia. I feel like I'm being watched as I type this. It kind of creeps me out.

    • I don't understand...

      10 years ago

      Demon76

      Society is going to hell. No one appreciates anything they get anymore. No one can see what they have anymore. All the kids take things for granted. There are a few people out there that really do realize some of the problems we have, but open your eyes people. Society is going to hell and taking us along with it. If you are ever in a crowd of people in the near future, just sit and watch how people react. Realize all the movies we are encouraging to little kids. I had a music special today at school for Christmas and no one even appreciated what our students and teachers went threw to put it together. We came up with 250 gifts for kids in the school. More than any year yet. None of the kids really cheared on the little skit our school put together. It's horrible how we humans can treat each other so horribly. I'm sure not everyone out there is too horrible, but come one people, wake up and make a difference. I'm not a goodie too-shoo, and I've done a lot wrong in my life, but I still care about what's happening around me. Do you see how young kids are now-a-days and they have cell phones? It's crazy! If global warming don't kill us, someone else will kill us first. Society has taken a big crash since the past few years. Kids think they know what they are talking about when they have no idea. It's always been like that, but now they want to grow up WAY too fast! I suppose it's always been like that too, but kids are just kids. They don't know any better. I'm still a kid yet myself. Well, "teenager" is what I'm called. That's no different from a kid. Some adults are children themselves. They haven't learned how to grow up. Men that are now 20-30 still act like they are 12. I've seen a man that was 40 that was wishing a 14 year old was 18! I've seen some pretty damn bad things out there. It all gets worse as we go too. I'm not saying that I'm trying to be the perfect one, or that I am, but I do see that our world is going to crash sooner than we thought if we don't realize these things. A lot of kids now-a-days don't even have something they want to be when they grow up. They just think they are going to live their lives off of their parents. Some parents that have kids like that shouldn't even be parents. I've seen some pretty bad things and probably not the worst of things, but it's still bad. SOCIETY NEEDS TO CHANGE!! MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!! WE ARE KILLING THIS PLANET FASTER THAN YOU REALIZE!!!

    • How I truly feel!

      10 years ago

      Demon76

      Before this starts I should say that ( CJ ) is my ex boyfriend. It'll make my story make a little more sense.


      I know there will be more arguements in the future and I'm not always going to be here to be the middle person, but I try to help as much as possible. Yes, I do care about CJ, but I don't want to tell him yet that I'm pretty much over him. It'll just hurt him even more. I've tried to tell him 3 times and each time he said it hurt really bad. So I lied and said I was joking. I feel bad about lieing to him, but I don't want to hurt him so bad. I'm sure you know what it feels like to like someone and have them not like you back. It sucks! I don't want him to feel that. I am just waiting to tell him. My boyfriend and I are really close and CJ don't know how close yet. I neglect to tell him anything anymore. He wants me to tell him and he asks me to tell him, but when I start to tell him at random about how it's going or what we do he gets upset with me. It's like I can't talk about my boyfriend unless he asks me too. He thinks it's ok to talk about other girls with me, but I can't talk about other guys. It doesn't bother me so much when he talks about other girls, but when he thinks it's ok that I'm going to go on his command of telling him things, he's wrong. I am my own person and I keep a LOT from him now. I hate how he is with words. He takes everything as a self inflicting emotional pain. CJ asked me last night how big my boyfriends dick was because he wanted to know who's was bigger. I'm not telling him that personal information. If he really wants to know he can ask himself. I won't even tell him the real reason how I know. I'm trying my best to keep CJ out of my new personal life. It's complicated with him. I want to tell him, but anything I tell him will just hurt him, so I neglect to tell him much of anything anymore. Does that make sense? I'm sorry, but CJ is just a depressive annoying cry-baby lately and everyone in Tomah is getting sick of it. All he does is call up his friends to cry to them. I can understand that he needs someone to talk to, but it's every phone call for the past month that he's done this. I don't want to deal with it all the time. It's none of my business of what happens in his personal life now. I want to help him, but not if he's going to be like this. I like to see him happy, but it seems that every other day he's depressed and I can't stand to be around someone that's like that all the time. Especially when I have my own life and I'm happy as hell and he just brings me down all the time. It's lame! lol I've never had a guy complain so much like a woman to me before. It's....odd. I want to eventually tell him, but most people that know me well (like you've heard) know that I don't have the heart to do it. I'm way too nice to hurt someone with such horrible, but truthful, words. Oh, and I'm sorry, but I had to vent. I really had to get that out of my system.

    • Yesturday-Black Day

      10 years ago

      Demon76

      Ok, yesturday was long! I woke up at 9:00 am and went from Camp to Tomah and back. Then I went from Camp to LaCrosse and drove around in LaCrosse for a while. I ended up getting 6 awesome new pairs of pants and 2 nice new shirts, but that's besides the point. I drove back from LaCrosse to Camp. That's about a 2 and 1/2 hour drive all together. Don't forget that yesturday was Black Friday. So traffic was bad. In LaCrosse it was worse than Tomah. Cars everywhere! I know I'm not supposed to be driving on the interstate, but it was so much saver than driving threw LaCrosse. Well I ened up getting home about 3:30-4 ish. I got online and my boyfriend sent me a message. He wanted to hang out. I ended up going with him to see the Tomah parade and stayed at his house for a few hours. I didn't get home until about 11:45 pm. I was so tired! I called my boyfriend for a few minutes and went right to sleep. I didn't wake up until noon today. Yesturday was so long, but it was so worth it! I had a good time for the most part. I got some new clothes that I've been needing and I got to see my boyfriend for a few hours. Plus I got in a lot of driving. I only had one small bad moment when my boyfriends family mistaked me for his ex-gf that they heard all about. Yeah it hurt for a while. It still does, but I know that I still love him and he loves me. I just hope I'm not mistaken again. It just really hit my hard to hear that they thought I was her. Anyways, LONG day yesturday. I'm still tired and waiting for tomorrow to come. Just waiting for the next plans to start.

    • Questionable love...

      10 years ago

      Demon76

      Ok, dating people left and right is how I went for a while. Now I started having longer relationships. I've gotten to my current one which happened very oddly. You see, I've like my best friend for the longest of time. He liked me at one point a long time ago but got over it quickly. He had found a girl that stole his heart. He loved her deeply. Well, one thing lead to another and you can guess it. They broke up. Then him and I started to talk a little more again. Well, I told him I still liked him after he told me that he liked me as well. We started to talk and we ended up dating. We really like each other and we have a lot in common. We don't have any problems yet and we are pretty happy. It's funny how this relationship started. I still think about it all the time. I guess it's true what they say about your best friend who's there for a few years. Love does happen with best friends, but even with that love, it doesn't always work out until the end. I hope this one does. It makes me happy that I finally got the one I've been holding on to for 2 years.

    • Days...

      10 years ago

      Demon76

      Days go by and everyone asks me for advice. They ask me for advice on everything. I don't mind giving advice, but sometimes people take my abilities to help overboard. I don't get any me time hardly. When I'm with the one I love I get pulled away because someone is having trouble in their relationships. So I get no me time!! I need people to stop asking for my advice so much and deal with your own damn problems. I don't mind talking about them, but stop asking me for help if you're not going to listen and your not going to take my advice. It makes no sense to ask me even. GET OVER IT!!!

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  • Comments (24)

    • BlackiceD

      9 years ago

      Am doing geat I have a gf and thing are good !

    • BlackiceD

      9 years ago

      Hey hows it going ?

    • crzyrbbt

      10 years ago

      hey i wanted to say great stories on the walked in thread :P

    • fullmetal309

      10 years ago

      i am still livinl ol

    • fullmetal309

      10 years ago

      good and you

    • fullmetal309

      10 years ago

      hey

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      if all goes well, ill be back in cali though. that is if me and chase do well as filmmakers.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      A hell hole town in oklahoma

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      Burn or treefolk for me. and on occasion fae decks.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      Cheatyface!!! I love that set. I pretty much stick with standard though. I gotta keep writing this script/plot.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      thats how chase is. except Krystal plays as much as he does. so do I. we're a bunch of nerds.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      im NOT touching his balls. im gonna shoot him with a paintball gun. or rip his damn magic cards.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      that is a bit uncommon. btw, Bishop left a few months ago, havent seen him since.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      Well im glad you got caught up on everything. hooray for us advice givers!

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      he knew he deserved it. he even said that were even now.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      I got my revenge today! my brother is the idiot who shot my eye last night. I popped him in the lip and nose.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      its pretty good lately. got a new phone. but i did get shot in the eye with an airsoft gun.

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      hehe. yeah. I am getting a real hookah for my birthday! im so happy!

    • shikamaroo

      10 years ago

      as of lately, yes. i havent been able to talk to Kat lately, so ive been really bored.

    • stupidcupid

      10 years ago

      Seriously people, stop asking her what color her panties are and if she'll take nude pics for you. She's not a whore and she's not single.

    • fullmetal309

      10 years ago

      yo

    • stupidcupid

      10 years ago

      You seriously need to post more stuff. You don't even have a single journal entry yet.

    • GothixGamer

      11 years ago

      Never mind about the question I asked. haha

      vvvv

    • gothlegend

      11 years ago

      lol, i was trying to be funny and different

      What was the drawing of ?

      Post edited 2/15/08 10:29PM

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