DormantUlcer

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    • Monday

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      I become another year older. As I close in on 30, my mind still feels in its teens. Perhaps because I'm only now in college. I'm in a position now where most of my high school classmates were almost a decade ago. Granted, I hated damn near everyone of them, and they can all go to hell for all I care, with the possible exception of Amber Bartush (fuck I wish I coulda asked her out, does anyone know her and how she's doing?). I went through 4 years of HS not knowing what I wanted to do, much less how I would figure out what I wanted to do, and CERTAINLY not how to go about acheiving what I want to do once I figure it out. Goddamn Norwalk High, fucking place should be burned to the fucking ground, along with about 90% of the faculty.
      Any-fucking-way, I'm in school now, I have a goal... no, I have GOALS, and for shit's sake, I'm gonna follow through with em. When I look back on my life, I won't have to waste any breath thanking high school for preparing me for the 'real world'.
      Do I seem a little angry? I am. A little. And sad. I'm moving on, but alone. I look at my friends, the ones that still live in Fairfield County, and I see the distance between me and them growing ever further, and not just geographically. Here I am, in school, going for a bachelor's degree in Marine Sciences, and there they are, working their shit jobs 5-6 days a week, living at home, staying out late every night at diners and Dunkin Donuts, coming up with any excuse to have a party and get fucking blitzed. They do it now, they did it years ago, what're the odds they'll be doing itey ars from now. Am I ever so glad I'm not a part of it anymore. But hey, that's their choice, right? As it was to stop complaining about where my life was and do something to put it where I want it.
      "And just where is that?" I hear you asking. Well once I get my bachelor's, and rest assured I fucking will, it's off this continent. Don't get me wrong, I'm an American, and it's the greatest country on Earth, and I woulda joined the military and fought for the freedom I have so richly been blessed with if my mental instabilities didn't hinder me so, but the goddamn people here suck, and I just can't take it anymore. Thus, the Marine Sciences, working underwater with fishies and such. The traffic, the atmosphere (thus the weather), the mentality and priorities of today's society, it's enough to make me wanna go on a rampage. And not a Coach Z rap rampage, but a Lizzie and George rampage, or whatever those crazy beasts names were in that kick-ass old-school game. Ya'll know what I'm talking about, oh yeah. That game kicked all kinds of booty: break shit, eat people, continue, repeat. Genius, fucking genius.
      Ultimate destination #1: Austrailia. What better place for someone who hates people, than somewhere where there is NO ONE ANYWHERE?! Not to mention the place is an island, which means there should be plenty of work for someone in my profession.
      Ultimate destination #2: Japan. Now, I know what you're saying: "but D, where you not just saying how all these people are getting to you? There are few places in the world more crowded than Japan." This is true, but Japan is a magical place. It is rich in tradition and culture, something I would like, no love, to experience. Not to mention, island.
      Ultimate destination #3: Hawaii. Aloha, mother fuckers. This one is what it's all about. Paradise. On. Earth. If you've never been, fucking go. As of right now as I type this, it's 45º outside. In Honolulu it's 74º. Tomorrow it'll be 78º. Tuesday it'll be 79º. Then 80º, 80º again, finishing off the week on a nice 79º sunny Friday. Highest it'll be this week here? 55º. Oooooo, someone get me my shorts and sandals. I HATE THE FUCKING COLD! Oh yeah, and do I need to mention the island-ness of Hawaii?
      This has become a lot longer than expected. Anyway, everyone have a good week. I have a job interview on Wednesday, wish me luck.
      =)

      Oh yeah, did anyone catch the season finale of Battlestar? That was awesome how the fleet up and peaced outta there like that, I was rollin!

    • Mid-terms

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      Just got the grade back on my oceanography mid-term. 96.5%, tops in class. Also have a 93% as an average grade in the class at the halfway point, also tops. This is a first for me. It's kind of a strange feeling, to realize that all those people in the past were right when they said all I had to do was apply myself and find the proper motivation and I could succeed. Now if only I can find a job and prevent myself from being evicted and staying in school.
      That is all.

    • Oh yeah, I have a journal

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      I log on here everyday, and everyday I think 'I should write something'. But, as one can tell, I don't. Well not today, baby. Today, I WRITE!
      Yeah, so anyway, when last we spoke (we spoke?) I was living at home working at a woodworking shop doing nothing with my life. As of January that all changed, as I moved out, got an apartment in New London, CT, and am currently enrolled at the UCONN at Avery Poiont in Groton, CT. I'm taking some non-degree classes so I can build up enough credits to transfer in as a degree student, then go after my bachelor's in Marine Sciences. I wanna work underwater with sea-life, cuz humans are a mess. I wanna be one of those guys you see on Shark Week, who swim in the Galapacos with the chainmail on and preach about how precious the shark population is and how much humans suck ass for destroying it. And mid-way through this semister, I'm doing REAL well, surprising myself, actually.
      Problem is I don't have a real job still that can pay my rent and bills. The money I had saved is just about run out, and the job I do have is so horrid it won't pay a half-end of diddley squat, not to mention it's interferring with my schoolwork. I have a big federal tax return on its way, and that should cover me for a little while longer, but it's getting bad. I've even considered going back to some kind of retail position, which has been deemed bad for my health.
      It's a little funny how when I first did this, I figured I'd get a job and just work to pay bills, no sweat, and I'd struggle in the schoolwork itself. But it's turned into the exact opposite.
      Luckily the job I have right now, which is delivering newspapers at 4 in the morning, supplies me with an extra one everyday, with classifieds in them.
      I guess that's it. Bye for now.

      Oh yeah, and a big congratulations to COMMANDER Lee Adama.

    • Since I no longer visit AF.com MB...

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      think I'll just vent here.
      Never have I been witness to such an atrocious NFL season. Being a Falcon fan since 1992 (Chris Miller, Mike Haynes, Chris Hinton, Moe Gardner, Jesse Tuggle, Darion Conner, Scott Case, Neon Deion) I've seen some bad teams. But they were usually bad from start to finish. Not 6-2 to start the season, 2-6 to end it. Pathetic. I will not accept injuries as an excuse. Cuz there were none offensively, which doesn't explain why they scored a total of 20 points in 3 crucial losses down the stretch (8 of which were in garbage time). I will, however, question the abilities of offensive coordinator Greg Knapp. Both he and Vick cannot get on the same page, and one must go. I think I have a clue on which it would be. Saying a team ultimately can't be effective with a QB like Vick is horseshit, and I'm not saying that to be a homer. He makes plays that moves chains and scores points, especially when it counts, like in the 4th quarter. But when the ball is taken out of his hands, like 4th and 1, and given to a 260 pound piece of shit running back who still, after 4 years in the league, tip-toes to the line and quits after first contact, then there's a problem. They keep saying they need to surround Vick with playmakers. Well, as far as I see it, Brian Finneran is always on the fucking sidelines, and all he does is make first down catches and out plays DBs when the ball is in the air. Not to mention his toughness in run support with his blocking. But no, let's keep Jenkins in there, so he can continue to not fight for the ball, not go any kind of extra inch for the ball, and pretty much drop easy ones as well. As far as Roddy White goes... congrats kid, we'll see you next year.
      Injuries on defense, well, it hurt losing Kevin Mathis I suppose, but the guy is like 5'9", how good is he gonna be anymore. Hall and Webster on the corners played very well I thought this year, but oh man, it's been a long time since I've seen such poor safety play. They looked like an expansion team at that position. For a veteran like Keon to consistently be out of position like that, and whiff on tackle after tackle. And Bryan Scott, wtf happened my man?! Since you were drafted you have gotten better and better, this was supposed to be your year. YOU WERE FUCKING BENCHED! And as far as I'm concerned, you're future with the team is in jeopardy. Rod Coleman was a ghost the second half of the year, as was the entire d-line down the stretch. Can't say enough about the play of 56, though. He actually earned this trip to Oahu.
      Special Teams looked like they took a step back as well. Losing Rossum hurt on the return side, but he was losing his touch on kickoffs, anyway. But not punts, and that's where he was missed. Coverage didn't allow a score, but they gave up big returns in crucial situations, and that's a killer. Rookie punter Michael Koening was a wonderful surprise. Todd Peterson was a relief, if only for the sake of not having to deal with Jay Feely and his bullshit. Although having a 28 yard chip shot in overtime blocked, with playoffs on the line, leaves a huge question mark over ones head. "Are you fucking kidding me" can be found right in front of said question mark.
      They needed 3 wins in 8 games, if anything to finally be relieved from the title of being the only sports franchise without back to back winning seasons. 3 wins in 8 games. I stopped going to the message board on the Falcon's website cuz I was criticized and insulted because I felt it was wrong that Vick didn't play against New England, and they would have won had he played, and the organization needs to stop coddling him, and as fans we need to stop accepting such coddling. They called it a meaningless game against a meaningless opponent, and why risk the man for that. Fact: all games in the NFL are meaningful. And I bet they had that fucking win now, don't they?
      I question the toughness of Vick.
      I question the abilities and decision making of the coaching staff.
      I question the effectiveness of the front office to reverse this season come next.
      I question the NFL for being corrupt in ways. (If the Colts win it all, my questions will be answered.)
      I question my medication, and if it's working anymore.
      I question Dick Vermeil, and wether or not he's actually a man.

    • Ever wonder what mediocrity looks like?

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

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      And I don't mean the picture, cuz it's cool. I mean what the picture represents as a whole.

    • Something about Christmas?

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      Happy holidays.



      Let's go Colts.

    • It's like Cube said..

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      Today was a good day.
      Found a place to live in New London, nice, quant (small) apartment, close to school, and OUT OF BRIDGEPORT. I'm out of here so fast, my own fargin head is spinning.

    • sigh

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      Is it time for Spring Training yet? When do catchers and pitchers report?

    • Dumb fucking luck

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      When last we spoke I mentioned some digits I scored at a party. Well, said digits belonged to the friend of one of my closest friends girlfriend. And now, said closest friend and girlfriend have broken up, after nearly 3 years of dating, and over a year of living together. And said closest friend's now ex-girlfriend is staying with said friend who's digits I scored at said party. So now if I acted upon said digits and called said closest friend's now ex-girlfriend's friend, plenty of weirdness and awkward to go around.
      Then there's the emotional crisis he's going through.

    • Words I never thought I'd say

      13 years ago

      DormantUlcer

      Went to a party tonight and got a girl's number.
      More details to follow.

      Maybe.

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