DreamFairy18

Female
from My Own Musical World

  • Activity

    • stuck between them and a hard place...

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      wow am i confused. no seriously i am so confused right now. i really like this one guy..and he just happens to be a good friend of mine (just my luck). but, i still love my ex even though he really screwed up...i still love him...but my friend...he makes me feel great when i'm with him. he can always be there to make me laugh..but he doesn't know my secrets and i don't think i could ever tell him. but my past lover knows just about everything about me and i mean EVERYTHING. how can two great people make me feel so confused you ask? i don't know, but i need to figure out my feeling before they over power me.

    • As She Passes Him

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      Every day she passes him by

      And tears well up inside.

      She wants to let them go

      Just let them out and let them flow.

      But she doesn’t want to show weekness

      she doesn’t want it to disrupt her calmness.

      She walks by and glaces in his direction

      and in her mind is nothing but a confession.

      She loves him still

      but she can’t go against her will.

      Just to kiss him one last time

      Will make her better inside.

      So she passes him by

      With tears in her eyes;

      Trying to forget all the happiness he brought her

    • soulless

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      i'm no longer a life filled body, my soul has been taken away. i walk and do in a mindless state. never knowing what is going on. not knowing what i see. for i am soulless. nothing can affect me. i stay dull forever now.
      huanting the ones around me. loved ones crying for me wondering why i became the lifeless person i've become. for i not know myself. i just became what i am. emotionless.
      never to show how i really feel. never to feel anything anymore. nothing. all i'm left with is nothingness. emptiness...
      a souless body that walks the steet with nothing to show.

    • scary

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      so i was on my myyearbook account and was asked by one of the people to talk on my yahoo messenger to them..so i did....I'M NEVER DOING THAT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! First they wanted me to call them and then they wanted to know EXACTLY where i live..i told them i lived in spokane...i live FAR away from there so they aren't even close..ahaha fooled them...but still scary. he wanted me to call. and i was all no, and he ask me why and i was like my mom needs the phone...and then wanted to know if i had a cell phone..i've never been more glad in my life to addmit that i don't! and appearently the guy lives in tocoma which is near me..FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • gut feelings

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      damn these stupid gut feelings.
      they always seem to cloud my mind.
      and my mind just can't seem to get past them
      not until i figure out the reason for these feelings.
      I get the feeling they may not be good
      but i hope they are wrong;
      sadly, they usually are right.
      what's going to happen?
      what's going on?
      i want to know the truth damn it!
      tell me!
      why can't i know!
      if only my gut could talk and tell me what's going on!
      then maybe i wouldn't have to suffer trying to figure it out.
      why, why me?
      why does it torture me so?
      please stop, STOP!
      i want it all to STOP NOW!
      i can't take it anymore!
      Tell me,
      show me what is wrong!
      just tell me the truth
      i'm tired of guessing and worrying about it.
      just make it go away
      take away these gut feelings of mine
      stop my mind from clouding over. please.

    • a falling star no longer falls

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      Pinch me, i must be dreaming
      there's no way my life could be going so great.
      yet it is.
      I feel great and lifted;
      lifted away into the sky from my depressing dull state.
      I'm free once more
      and this time nothings getting in my way
      I'm going to make sure of it.
      I was falling through skies of confusion and despair
      until i was caught
      no longer am I a falling star.
      I've finally been caught
      and brought into the night sky to shine bright.
      I can do nothing but thank my catcher
      and by doing so i fell in love.
      if only he knew what i really felt inside
      this feeling of love pooring though my body
      just wanting him to understand
      i don't want to leave his side and he not leave mine
      because if it were not for him
      I'd still be falling to my despair
      and not shining as brightly as i do now.

    • Thoughts....

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      "Am I doing the right thing?
      ....I think I am....Wait...I know I am....so my heart says.
      Maybe I should let my mind speak out and maybe lock my heart up; staple it's mouth shut to stop it from taking over????
      Thing are always going from good to bad when i let it speak, in the end that is.
      .....I just don't know.....
      I have one person saying it's ok, but other people think I'm an idiot and stupid for giving him a chance to prove himself....maybe they are right....but i think i'm right.
      I don't under stand this; I don't understand myself. What is my problem? Am I really that stupid? Should I just let him suffer? but if I let him suffer, I'll only be making myself suffer and why would i do that to myself? If i suffer anymore there will be twice as many cuts on my arms as there are now. I mean look...if the scars on my arms don't show that I've suffered then why? Is it just my stupidity? I give people too many chances, I care to much and is broken easily.....does this make me stupid? I think much, but maybe thinking isn't what i need to do. I have such strange thought......and my heart well it speak a lot. Heart on fire, Mind on ice.

    • She's Missing Him

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      her heart yerns to feel his touch
      the soft whispering of "I love you" in her ear
      the force that brings her lips to his;
      that's all she wants to feel again.
      She's missing him but she won't let these feelings out.
      She wants to hear the words that will make things ok
      wants to hear the words that will send her hear fluttering to the sky
      and to hear herself speak how she feels;
      She want's the sound back again.
      She's missing him and his calming voice.
      His smile is what she wants to see
      his love reflecting in his eyes and hers in her own
      Someone happy and carefree again
      She wants the sight back in her life.
      She's missing him and his handsome sight.
      To taste his kiss again would bring her to life
      the taste of his cheek when she kisses him goodbye;
      she want's the taste back.
      She's missing his taste on her lips.
      To smell his sweet sent will send her to the clouds
      the smell of his jacket aroung her will lift her
      she just wants to smell again.
      She's missing his smell too.

    • corner of light

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      She sits in the corner of her room
      with a dim light shing down upon her.
      She looks down at her arms
      remember why those new scars are there.
      As much as she would like
      those memories are not at all far behind her.
      Every now and then they creep up behind her in the dark
      making her sad and feel all alone in the world.
      She thinks if she stays in this corner of light
      the sadness won't creep up on her again.
      And she won't have to scar herself again
      but sadly it keeps coming back
      even with the slightest step into the shadows.
      So now she starys hidden in her cacoon of light
      never to come out and experience dark and light as it should be
      afraid of what come out to get her.

    • confuzzled

      11 years ago

      DreamFairy18

      I don't know what to do anymore. I'm afraid to trust him. I don't want to let him back into my heart as more then a friend again unless i know she is just going to be a friend and nothing more. I don't want to feel that same pain again and then beat myself up for giving him a second chance. Now do you see my dilema? And on the other hand, this guy is waiting for my reply and i don't know what to say. He is a good friend and undulls my days. but i'm not looking to have another relationship. and i don't want to rush back into my old one. but i feel almost if i don't act soon I'll lose it all. And it makes me feel horrible inside for some reason..... I guess i need to take some of my own advice; but like that will ever help...so i'm stuck in this hole of mine for a while i guess...

  • About Me

  • Comments (925)

    • george4

      11 years ago

      well if u like music then ull love this: ur such a classy lady i think i want so....i think i love u baby...i think i love u too....u want to be my girl....come in the reds world....i want to teeth at u....eat my nutz just like a squirl....i want u to be my grill....cause i got a chill...i think i want u baby...welcome to georges world!! hey surgar dad, back at school i was a big fat clown...im all slim now....#1 demon in this town i dont wanna hav a girl with a relationship...two big tits,im all evil u stupid bich,clean out the box were i took a shit,so tell me im the man,kiss my ass,just like me ull be white trash.......ok lets not go too far!

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *kisses*

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      sorry i think im a little stoned lol

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      lol spork rymes with quark

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *pokes with a spork*

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      oh goodie goodie gum drops. so many random things i could do it may take a while 2 decide...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      sorry felt like doing something a little random. i couldve done alot worse tho

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *glomps*

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      np lol.
      *pokes*
      so bored!

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      kinky eyes!

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      si

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      single for 18 years... kinda sad...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *holds up hand*
      single five!... i just made meself sad...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      yay! ye agree! most ppl dont want to do anything kinky with me! always say: i have a boyfriend or i dont swing that way

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      gauge each others eyes out! it will be VERY kinky!

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      if i has 2 see that again im gauging oot me eyes...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      lol yeah
      ...eeeewwww watching the daily show and there is a 74 year old pornstar in japan...thats a major turn off...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      sorry i gets perverted when bored...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *pelvic poke*

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *pokes*

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *drops pants*
      ok its just alot cooler w/o those on

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      what else is there to do then?

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *puts on pants*

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      aaww that beath what they all say. even the manwhores...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *thinks*
      well i shall ask ye what i ask all me friends: wanna have sex?

    • harpie19

      11 years ago

      and grow it out slightly

    • harpie19

      11 years ago

      Die it darker :)

    • crystal_drag

      11 years ago

      kay
      talk at ya some other time

    • crystal_drag

      11 years ago

      really?
      thank you
      not to many people say that about me
      you're really cool too
      i've met alot of really cool people on rvb
      i really feel like i belong here

    • crystal_drag

      11 years ago

      yah
      and i hate this
      a couple of people have deleted me as their friend
      am i all that bad?

    • crystal_drag

      11 years ago

      ha ha ha
      sorry
      i know how it feels
      i do it too

    • Zexion2552

      11 years ago

      Me? hell no....Jake is the type of person the can't decide between the blue sjirt or the red shirt...I'd just buy both and figure it out later...
      But I can see you with #2 or #5..but that is just me....
      Lisa is trying to convience me to join marching band...makeing two people...

    • crystal_drag

      11 years ago

      she is doooooo cute and pretty?
      wtf?

    • crystal_drag

      11 years ago

      very good question
      when you have an answer tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
      XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

    • crystal_drag

      11 years ago

      you gotta love bad ass guys with dragon tattoos! <3
      XD

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *pokes*
      now just to pass the time...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      goodie goodie gum drops

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *thinks*
      perhaps some sort of deathclock...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      we can think of some new trick!

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      although they probobly wont fall for the same trick twice...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      yay!
      *runs around in circles then glomps again*

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      yay!
      *glomps*
      sorry ive just got energy now!

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      yay! ye be me new best friend! wanna go glomp some japanese school girls and school boys?

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      touche salesperson. and most ppl i hang out with are perverted...so ye be a super pervert?

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      least i got a laugh for that, ppl either back off or call me a perv when i say something like that

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      and no1 wants to have sex! hang out!

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      oro?
      *pokes*
      now 2 find something 2 do...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      *pokes*
      now to play the waiting game... that takes forever...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      although... i wonder how amazing friday will be...

    • ihateukyle

      11 years ago

      yes i did! i can die happy!

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