Felix_Blak

Male
from Omaha, NE

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    • Space Concerns

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      So... suck. Some of you who have been awesome enough to live by me have known this: I love hosting events. Why is this, though? Because of situations like the one I currently find myself in.

      Throughout MOST of High School and ALL of college- I was not an invitee. People weren't quick to say "Hey, we're doing something, come." I either had to invite myself, thus feeling like an incredible ass, or... no, usually I just... stayed home. It gave me the time to get involved with Swimming, Theater, Orchestra, Mimes, and a bunch of other stuff but... that was because it was "Get Involved or Face The Abundant Amount of Time Wasted Not Doing Things."

      When I left college, I vowed that I wouldn't let that happen to me again. That is why, when I started making friends at work... I would invite them over, host parties, and the like. Because... damnit, I wasn't going to be left out anymore.

      My apartment in law school is too small to host anything. Oh, I can have Glasford and Blackford over to watch movies and stuff... but nothing like "Hey law school friends, c'mon over!" And therein lies the problem. I hear the scuttlebutt of people going to basketball games and hockey games, going to bars, and all of that. Even one of my best friends here keeps saying "You should come out with us sometime" but never gives me details so that I actually could go with them. It got to the point where I am scheduling Study Sessions at the school so I can "hang out" with people.

      It always makes me wonder... what is my social defect that makes this a constant issue? Because I'm not foolish. If there is a consistent pattern amidst changing variables, find the constant and you should find the cause.

    • NO! That's not true. That's impossible

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      So... just found out TERRIBLE news that I can't post to Facebook because doing so might draw too much attention.

      Facts:
      (1) To Cali a class in law school means you got the highest grade
      (2) Getting the highest grade does not mean you broke the curve
      (3) Getting the highest grade does mean that you have established what the A level is
      (4) Setting the A level means (obviously) you got an A but...
      (5) Getting an A in law school means you are better/smarter/more employable than anyone who did not

      There is a very attractive woman in our class that has managed to Cali most of our tests. That means that there is an attractive woman who is now considered THE MOST employable law student in our class.

      Instead of using that power to become a multi-millionaire in private practice; she wishes to become a County Prosecutor. In essence, she wants to do the job I came to law school to get.

      Short form: I am directly competing with a hottie who Cali'd everything for work.

      Shortest form: I am screwed

    • You Gotta Be Kiddin' Me

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      Sometimes... I want to tell law school to eat a dick.
      Just spent forty pages reading about "Parol Agreements" and... well... I was damned confused. Until AT THE END OF IT, they said "such an oral- or parol- agreement"... so.. you're telling me that lawyers needed a special kinky word just to say Oral?
      Which makes it even more appropriate that I say
      EAT A DICK!

    • The Real Reason?

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      The truth- the real reason why I so desperately want to do prosecutorial law.

      People are always curious. One of my friends is convinced it is because I want to be 2-Face; one of them thinks it is an extension of my religious background (the God as Judge theory), and other friends have other theories. But sadly- it is more personal and more disturbing. It boils down to a simple, frightening truth. If I can’t do it, you can’t do it. Trying to break that down a little..

      If I can’t do it- common argument: but you can… the law doesn’t mean you can’t, it simply means that if you do there’s a chance that you might get caught and if you get caught there’s a chance that you might have some kind of punishment. And yes- from that perspective there are a lot of if, might, and maybe. But not for me. Anyone who is familiar with the Phoenix Saga in X-Men, I hope, knows of the Shi’ar Royal Guard and their leader Gladiator*. That is my sense of justice. Gladiator obeys the will of the law, even if he disagrees with it, even if he disagrees with his ruler. Why? Because it is the law. There need be no other reason. THAT is why “I can’t do it.”

      But the frightening aspect? Days like today. We don’t know if it is a side-effect of my medication, if it stems from a brain/nervous system that is constantly attempting to manage pain, or if it is something else entirely… but periodically- I am a very very angry person. For no reason. Days like today, for instance. I’ve been BOILING with rage all day. To the point of swallowing my rancor to keep from trembling with fury during class. I desperately want to take a baseball bat and start swinging until everything in a 2 mile radius is destroyed, broken or bleeding. And I don’t know why I’m angry! There’s no logical reason that I can find for my emotions. I just… I am exerting specific energy and willpower to keep myself under control.

      So that’s the truth. If I have to fight myself on a daily basis to “keep the peace” those who refuse to do likewise should be punished. But don’t misunderstand… I don’t agree with the Iowa Definition for Not Guilty by Reason of Mental Disease or Defect. (This actually happened) An individual struggling with multi-layered depression and schizophrenia shot someone dead during one of his episodes. The motive? His delusional belief that this man was molesting him with an astral form in the night. The Iowa Court deemed that “Mental Disease or Defect” was not an acceptable defense because the young man knew the difference between right and wrong when he committed the crime. To me… that’s a little too strict for a definition of mental-disease or defect. I would much prefer a definition that allows for the very real possibility where a person simply does not have the mental ability to contain himself… for instance, a person who genuinely believes that he must kill someone to protect himself- even if that belief is completely unfounded.

      So there it is. If I can’t do it, they can’t do it. If they chose to say “fuck it” to fighting against their darker natures, I want to pin them down and force justice down their throat. BUT genuine illness needs to be treated like genuine illness.

      *http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gladiator_(Kallark)

    • Note To Self

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      This is mostly a note to myself to remember what to talk about with my law professors if I get to come back in the Spring.

      All week the first week of finals, I kept feeling like I was doing terribly. I am sure that the feeling is common among students, but I am usually fairly astute as to my own successes and failures, strengths and weaknesses; and I was definitely showing up weak. It was only after taking my contracts final that I realized what the problem was. The contracts final was open-note, so accessing the information wasn't a problem. Also, considering the amount of time I've put into my reading and note taking, I wasn't concerned with the accuracy or level of detail in the notes. But the problem I experienced in the Contracts Final, I realized, was the problem I had experienced on all of my finals. Or to be more precise- problems. 3.

      1) As I have discussed with my Legal Research professor; I am still very hesitant around Case Selection. When is which case appropriate precedent? For example, looking over the Contracts exam- specific performance seems to be the question, but do I analyze it through (a) specific performance cases (b) cases that have similar fact patterns (c) cases about the same subject (d) none of the above (e) all of the above or (f) mostly some of them? I've spent the hours reading and understanding the cases but... clearly, the exams aren't about the cases but how you can use them... how do I know which one to use?

      2) How can I properly express the case once I've discovered it? On a lot of my exams, I was able to say "This case is like X in that X involves the following law." Is that the "proper" way to play the cases off the fact pattern or is there some way of saying "Element Y of Case X is like Element Z of the fact pattern>"

      3) And largely, the reason why I feel most likely that I have been receiving the appalling grades that I really have been putting in too much study time to justify is the writing itself. After reading the writing of Poe, Wells, and Socrates in my personal time; and the opinions of Marshall, Warren, Burger, Reihenquest, and Roberts... is it any wonder I feel like my writing is poor? But what's more- I am a writer. I love writing and have often been complimented on my ability to write well without losing a sense of "voice." No such claims can be made for the essays I have written for my exams. I honestly feel like my writing profficiency has slipped back to the days of 3rd grade writing where "Noun+Verb+Conclusion" is as complicated as the text gets.
      Especially compartive to my friends and colleagues. My notes suggest "Executive power cannot outweigh criminal justice" and my friends write "Executive powers implied through Article 1 are not protected against the enumerated rights of the judicial branch."

    • Plan and info

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      So- my plan for the day is to grab some food (we are mother hubbard in here) and work my ass off studying... not really a change but clearly something that needs to be done. AND because I am freaking out so hard core, I decided to look up rules and procedures:


      FAILURES 4.1 – 4.6
      4.1.1 A grade of D- or higher is required for passing each subject. A grade of F, AF, or XF is a failure. A student may earn credit in a course the student previously failed in the following manner: In required first-year courses other than Legal Research and Legal Writing I, if the grade was not an absence failure (AF), a student may sit for the next regularly scheduled Fall or Spring Semester examination by the same professor in the subject failed. If a student does not take or takes and does not pass the next regularly scheduled Fall or Spring Semester retake examination by the same professor in a required course, the student must reregister for the course, meet the attendance requirements, and pass the retake examination the next time the course is offered. If a student receives a failing grade in an elective course, the student may earn credit for the course by passing a retake exam in that course any time the course is offered. All students must notify the Dean’s Office of their intention to retake an examination at least three weeks before the date set for the examination.

      A passing grade received on a retake examination shall be averaged with the earlier failing grade for the purpose of computing the student's cumulative grade point average. (See also Rule 2.5.)

      (a) Any student, whether full or part time, who fails to achieve a grade point average of 2.0 at the end of the student’s first semester of law school is on academic probation. Any student, whether full or part time, who fails to achieve a cumulative grade point average of 1.85 at the end of the student’s second semester of law school will be dismissed for academic deficiency. Any student, whether full or part time, who achieves a cumulative grade point average below 2.0 at the end of the student’s third semester or any semester thereafter will be dismissed from the law school for academic deficiency. The law school will define the conditions of probation for students on probation, including, but not limited to, the courses that probationary students may and may not take.


      A student will be automatically dismissed from the School if, at any time during the course of study, the student accumulates more than 12 (13 for students entering between August 1989 and August 1993) hours in failures. This rule applies even though the student subsequently passes the course pursuant to Rule 4.

    • To My Friends!

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      So... here's an interesting thing. I've been getting my ass handed to me in finals (meaning: I thought I would do a 60% and I felt like I did a 40% on one than I felt like I did a 33% in my next test) BUT here's the rub-

      So... I should be studying my ass off. BUT I figure that I've been putting in about 1120 hours (give or take 5 hours) on classes. And... on the days before the exams I put in 5 to 7 hours studying again. So what happens is I study. Then I play video games trying to clear my head to study some more. And study more. And you know what that means?

      I am bored and lonely. Which is ironic because I could just hop on XBL Chat or something and talk with y'all or play with y'all but even as I am playing the games I feel bad for playing the games because it is time I should be studying and I really should be studying because apparently all that hard work I put into things during school isn't what they are testing for. So... blah, Grag, zah and a little bit of magh

      In short, I'm feeling lonely. I'm feeling down about finals. And I won't feel better about finals until February because that is when we get our grades back. And that in itself scares the piss out of me because it means that I'll be in class, thinking "Okay, we're good. At least we're in second semester, eh?" AND THEN get the potential failing grade. Not happy at all. It's just... yeah, it is an easy time to get depressed right now, I suppose.

    • WTF?

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      So- they tell us, since we have finals all week, to not focus on the final you just left since it will distract you from your other finals. I do want to say though- shit. Yeah. Today was 1 of 2 tests that I felt I wouldn't fail. There are 5 tests in total. I worked hard and I really analyzed the practice questions... like this for example:

      Defendant is a motorist who passes by an accident that is blocking the road. Plaintiff is a motorist passing
      Defendant in the opposite direction and approaching the accident scene. Without a warning from
      Defendant, Plaintiff will likely crash into the vehicles already involved in the accident.
      Duty ________ No Duty

      BUT the actual questions for the exam:

      Provided that defendant motorist has passed an accident that is blockng the road, defendant spots a motorist passing in the opposite direction and approaching the accident scene. If defendant does not warm plaintiff motorist
      A) he is liable as he had a duty of reasonable care
      B) he is liable as he had a duty of foreseeability
      C) he is liable for potential damages but not required by law to intervene
      D) he is not liable as the cause of action is not certain
      E) he is not liable because he did not cause the accident
      F) he is liable to other motorists in general but not this specific passing motorist

      So....... you see how the Practice Exams the profs told us to study are a wee bit different from the exam we actually took?!

    • Huh

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      So... huh, I'm sitting in class right now working on my outline and people are talking about how they've worked on their outlines for 17 hours and are on page 36 and... I mean, yeah I've put a lot of time in here but my outlines are 20 or so pages? And I took a practice quiz today and totally bombed it. So... it is funny. It is this cat and mouse game with me right now where
      -(1) I go to class and feel hopelessly outmatched
      +(2) I study and work on my outlines and think "yeah, I've got this"
      +(3) I talk with colleagues and they are convinced I will do well because of my attentiveness to class and understanding of the readings
      -(4) I talk with colleagues and feel they are much better prepared as they have outlines that could run circles around mine
      +(5) I am pleased because I have 5 days to study for my first exam and 14 days to study for my last exam
      -(6) I am still shaky because I need to get "Expert Level" in that time and still do things like (a) Eat, (b) Sleep, (c) Occasionally shower, (d) Go to Class... y'know, the kind of things that tend to eat up 11 to 12 hours a day.

    • Pissing Me Off

      7 years ago

      Felix_Blak

      SWTOR is really pissing me off. So... they haven't gotten back to me (even their automatic We Have Received Your Concren) since Friday... despite two e-mails in 4 days saying "Hey-I can't access my profile; here's the situation and here is what I am hoping you can do for me.... is that possible?"

      So they failed their goal in e-mail form (to quote their page) "Our goal is to provide response as quickly as possible, with a 24 hour maximum response."
      Which means... durring one of the busiest few weeks I've got, I have to try to do the phone call support at some point when I can find time.... and that's hoping that WORKS! (Because... there are no certainties in this anymore.)

      Of course... they have no problem getting me my "Beta Testing" invite AND (this is what is weird) they have no problem recognizing me as FELIXBLAQ and letting me Accept Invitation. So... I can play, but I can't access the site? Wait a minute... was I banned for some reason that nobody told me about?!

      Ironically... I am getting upset enough that I've developed contingencies. For instance... if nothing comes of the phone call and I have to start an entirely brand new profile:
      Felix Blaq dies on the unknwon Sith ship while looking after Cadae; but before he dies he makes friends with a captured Jedi (or one of the Sith non-force users). That way, somebody can finish his stories and someone new (with the same or similar skills) can become part of the Seventh Virtue................ if needed. Of course, I would strongly prefer that it not come to that.

  • Comments (89)

    • halosavior

      8 years ago

      Your journals just hit "halosavior status smiley13.gif "

    • Shotgunchief

      8 years ago

      So he's not so much of a faggot? XD I'm kidding, I thought he looked pretty cool.

      We're agreed on the sword, then?

    • Shotgunchief

      8 years ago

      I can't find a picture of the bomb. smiley2.gif How about the Energy Sword? I've got that.

    • i_r_caboos

      8 years ago

      Print screen, paste into paint, upload to Photobucket, post URL
      BAM

    • halosavior

      9 years ago

      You could try hiding or not buying alcohol and see how angry she gets...

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Oh God... that would suck.

      By the way, if you're still on, Josh, Caboose, Connor and I are on Skype watching RotJ on Spike. XD

    • halosavior

      9 years ago

      MONDAY, MAY 31 12:00AM CST!!!!!!!!!!!

    • halosavior

      9 years ago

      hehe I caught that as well lol!

    • QuackJAG

      9 years ago

      Yeah it is. Its a shot of good ol' Zeratul.

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Definitely, July 5th 2:30 at Wells Fargo. It will be AMAZING!

    • QuackJAG

      9 years ago

      Lol, they have made MANY debuts on April 1st. its Red vs Blue's birthday, remember?

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Um...I didn't forget...Of course not... XD

      But yeah, the Halo thing will only be a half hour, and I don't have many classes Wednesday so I won't have much going on that night.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      You were joking about that being the Death Star, right?

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      Yes, that is Katy Perry.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      Oh. I see...

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      Uh....what are we talking about, here?

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      smiley2.gif

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Wow, didn't see your image comment until now, a Brumak is a giant dinosaur lizard thing from Gears of War.

      Here's a good example.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      I'm going to pretend like I understood that comment you left on my image about Iowa.
      *pretends*

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Haha, Spawn is also an epic song.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      trust me... watching any type of video will now be a much more pleasurable experience

      I can't wait to watch porn on this thing! XD

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      I would laugh if you did that.
      Then I'd be like, 'Wait, how did he get my number?'

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Yeah, I figured it was 5am. Are we on Holiday hours now?

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Hey, what's with the weird hours? I heard right, didn't I, 5-9 tomorrow?

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Which one was the guy I met when I was home about two weeks ago and he'd only been there two weeks?

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      The only things I really need are the ones for getting all the outfits.
      And for completing a level with 4 peeps.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      Awesome. See you on Monday, then?

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      YES!
      ABSOLUTELY!!

    • QuackJAG

      9 years ago

      Hey there Chris, how ya been man? Havent talked to you in a while. But yeah, I found out the days ill be up in Iowa for my aunts wedding, which is the 18th to the 20th. The thing is, if you come to visit me you may only be able to see me for maybe just a day, so ill understand if you don't want to make the trip.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      That is, indeed, Zooey Deschanel.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      I'd definitely be willing to help you.

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      That was just something I pulled out of my ass and wrote in about ten minutes. My works on fanfiction.net are much better than that in my opinion. Thanks for the comments, though. smiley0.gif

      By the way, the thing with the characters has been slightly delayed with the arrival of ODST. But, I shall continue to work on it once it settles down a bit.

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Did you e-mail me? Because I may have accidentally deleted it... XD

      It was in my spam folder, and it wasn't until after I deleted it that I realized that it might be you. My bad.

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      You could e-mail them, if you want to. Here's my e-mail (not sure if you know it now or not):

      Tigers4786@aol.com

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      Any time you can get on is good.

    • QuackJAG

      9 years ago

      Your a mean face.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      Ah. I was hoping it would involve the word 'dark'.
      But at least I know now.

    • Felix_Blak

      9 years ago

      That is a good question! I've heard two different answers. The one I like best is: the first showcase title for the small company in the mid to late 1930s was Detective Comics. It is in honor of this fact that they are called DC. HOWEVER- from an official source in the 1960s, it was suggested that the ditribution company was Diamond Comics Distributing... thus DC comics. For many reasons, I don't like this latter explanation as much as most... primarily- because that means a literary institution is guilty of the most common grammatical faux paux of our time=== acronym related redundancy. ATM Machine (where Automatic Teller Machine IS the acronym), a PC Computer (a Personal Computer Computer) and then Diamond Comics Comics if the DC theory is correct.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      What does DC stand for in DC Comics?

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Hey, I just thought of a place where you can show off your achieveables that I completely forgot about.

      Go to 360voice.com. Tis a good place.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      I saw that coming from a mile away.
      But, it might be a while before I can get it. Because all of my money currently is going towards Halo 3: ODST and Modern Warfare 2. And then after that, I have my senior year to worry about. But, I promise I will get it as soon as I can. Also, I think one of my friends has it so, I may be able to just borrow it for a while. smiley0.gif

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      By done, I meant, "Fuck this, I am not getting 100% and that stupid lightsaber achievement won't unlock for me."

    • Shotgunchief

      9 years ago

      Here's the armor I told you about at work.

      And the Exoskeleton.

      Post edited 7/15/09 10:15PM

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      Sweet action.
      I will definitely have to get that, then.

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      So, you said you'd help me get GS if I got MUA.
      Exactly how much GS are we talking here?

    • QuackJAG

      9 years ago

      OMG I love you! For some reason I cant open via my saved files in my e-mail. If you could copy and past all the text from all 3 documents into an email and send it to quackjag1990@yahoo.com id love you forever!

      I mean, I all ready do for letting me live with you. But you get the idea. smiley8.gif

    • QuackJAG

      9 years ago

      You wouldent happen to have the Creepy Crawlies Documents still on your desktop, would you?

    • i_r_caboos

      9 years ago

      HEY!
      YOU FACE!!

    • i_r_caboos

      10 years ago

      Roffle

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