FemSpartan

Female
from Colorado

  • Activity

    • Minneapolis College of Art and Design

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      www.mcad.edu/

      I live in CO. I have no money, but I do have the DVR to pay for the actual collge. I want to go there. Any ideas?

      LOOK WHAT THEY HAVE!!!

      www.mcad.edu/showPage.php?pageID=1135

      This would be the perfect school for me, IT HAS COMIC BOOK ART FOR A BACHELORS DEGREE!!!!!!!!!

      Say a prayer for it, please smiley12.gif

      And just remember The SchoolGirls and MobleSuit Workshop they have that I don't D':

      Help me make this the rest of my life

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    • Hey, I'm Shadowoni. . . .

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      . . . . go to my Deviant art site; shadowoni.deviantart.com/

      Or you will see this

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      Or actually you won't. You won't see the colored ones either!

      Go look! smiley0.gif

      Blood and kissing await smiley8.gif

    • Xenosaga: The Animation YES!!!

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      You Have To Get This PEOPLES!!!!

      It's a great Anime! If you didn't like the game because of the long, boring cutscenes, than this fixes it! It's quick and to the point, but still is clear and precise!

      KOS-MOS is awesome (she's the main action hero. . .ine ;) Granted, you won't get fight quality up to par with Elfen Lied or some of the higher end anime's, but it is still so worth it!

      The story, characters, and action are INCREDIBLE!!!! The character designs are neat and very unique. Just rent it if you don't believe me!

      www.animetakeout.com/

      Right there! Search "xenosaga"

      It's not a sissy anime, it has it's share of blood smiley1.gif

      Amazon.com is the best for non-bootlegs and cheap prices ;)

      Xenosaga: The Animation. GET IT!

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    • I feel like Sakura! D:

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      I hate Sakura (from Naruto). She's weak, irritating, and useless.

      But I suddenly had a rude but pleasant awakening to how similar I am to her two weeks ago.

      I had gotten into a major deppression. I had to willingly leave the college of my dreams for reasons that cannot be reapeted, and my life just crashed, I couldn't even drive it was so bad.

      My hair had finaly grew as long as I wanted it, but it was ratty and disugusting. I was going to just start hacking and then shave it (it's in a few journals back), but then my own mother begged me to just let her take a go at it. Reluctantly I did.

      Strangely enough, I had seen the "change" episode with Sakura the last Saturday before, where she actually makes a change and does something for herself and gets stronger. It was pretty cool, but it was like a bell went off in my head, and granted; I didn't take a shurukin and hack my hair off in the midst of battle, but it felt so similar.

      I later had a massive change in my life, and while Sakura's problem was wussing out too much, mine was having too much rage.

      Now, I feel calm, peaceful, happy. I'm getting to a place of emotional strength and stamina, like Sakura did with her abilities.

      I thought about it weeks later (that's how long this whgole process took), doesn't Sakura get super strength? smiley8.gif jk, jk.

      I feel like my life is starting to make progress that might actually not slide back this time, you know?

      I know it sounds silly, and it might not make sence, but it does to me. Praise God, thank You smiley12.gif

    • I just got back from the hospital ;)

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      So, yes, I was suicidal. I almost killed myself. Luckly, my mother saved my life and got me into a psychiatric facility before I did.

      I was in there for a while. I got the flu in there, so it slowed things down a bit, but the psychaitrist got me on the perfect combination of medications, and now I am calm and feeling great! They're even the tinyest littlye pills for once!

      I don't want to hurt peope anymore; I'm not angry, or at least not enjoying it smiley8.gif

      I feel like my 18 (out of 20) year struggle with this Bsquik is finally starting to wind down a bit, and I can start to head up and actually make progress!

      I amn still lonely, and I am having side-effects like violent hic-ups, and burning skin, but that can be worked out. But I just wanted to let you know I'm all okay x3


      I have found so much beauty in things that I took advantage of before I went in, and my art has grown tremendously smiley12.gif . And most importantly, I feel closer to God, since he delivered me through smiley7.gif

    • I can't take much more

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      all i was able to do is sleep today. i'm afraid i'm going to hurt someone. i want to kill myself.

      no one can help me. they don't know whats wrong, but the want to drug me for stuff i might have. we've been doing that for 14 years, and it has only made me miserable.

      my mother wants electroshock therapy for me. it could wipe out half a decade of my memories. she doesn't care.

      my only friend moved about 40 miles closer to me, and talks to me less than ever.

      i can't leave my house because the noise is so loud everywere i go taht it puts me into a rage.

      hospitals have made me worse every time. going to one of them wont help. fuck, the food they serve is often a "blt salad"; iceburg letuce with bacon bits and a ton of mayo.

      they don't even have therpists there, or fucking counselors. just nurses, who tell me to "encourage my roomate to come out to them" in the middle of the night when she is saying what guns she would use to kill herself.

      in my adult life, the only time i attacked someone was at an ER. that's how helpful they are when i am suicidal.

      no one knows what do do. what do i do?

    • My life has been wasted the whole time

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      I don't know. My whole life has been just 20 different misdiagnosiss' and about 50 different medications. Nothing works, and I am a slave to my illness, which nobody can figure out what that illness is.

      "Oh, it's Ausburgurs!"
      "No! It's ADD"
      "Oppositional Defiance Disorder!"
      "Generalized Anxiety Disorder!"
      "OCD!"
      "Dythsmic Deppression!"
      "Bipolar!"
      "Schizoaffective disorder!"
      "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder!!!"

      In that order, too.

      Medications have done nothing but sustain my illness, as opposed to helping me.

      I'm nothing but a microphone to my friends; they just talk into me about what they like, and shut me off when I try to talk about anything I like. My only friend Jeff even interuppted me just to say "I'm not listening because I don't care!" And he thought it was so funny.

      I keep reaching out, but nobody will reach back.

      I just don't want to talk about getting druck, blowjobs, or gossip at all. I don't do that type of crap, and I don't want to hear about it.

      I'm sick and tired of doing all the work to make any friendship last, and being forgotten the minute I'm no longer in sight.

    • I think I have fleas and my hair sucks!

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      I woke up this morning and there were bites all over my body that itch like crazy!!!

      They're on my fricking face too! They are little red lumps (like almost a centemeter squared), and when I itch them, they turn white.

      I know they aren't mosquito bites because A) they are in places that I have covered if I go outside and B) I DON'T GO OUTSIDE!!! Especially not at night!

      I would take a picture, but my camera has no batteries! smiley4.gif

      I might hack my hair off as well. It's gotten so dry and the ends are split 6 times on one strand. I also died the front part of my hair red, but the die BLEACHED MY HAIR >O
      Now I have a bunch of very light orange streaks in the front of my hairline.

      The only problem with that is my hair is so thick that when it grows out a bit, I look like one of the beatles it's so freaking poofy.

      Here is a pic of me (in all my lavished beauty smiley0.gif ), tell me; what would you think if I had very short hair?

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      Here's what I would want it to look like.

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    • Internet Fight! Shaolin ninja style!

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      BEIJING (Reuters) - China's Shaolin Temple, the cradle of Chinese kung fu, is demanding an apology from an Internet user who said its monks had once been beaten in unarmed combat by a Japanese ninja, Chinese media reported on Friday.

      Shaolin Temple, in the northern province of Henan, became famous in the West as the training ground for Kwai Chang "Grasshopper" Caine in the 1970s "Kung Fu" TV series.

      Ninjas -- professional assassins trained in martial arts -- date back to mediaeval Japan.

      "The so-called defeat is purely fabricated, and we demand the Internet user to apologise to the whole nation for the wrongs he or she did," the Beijing News said, citing a notice announced by a lawyer for the Shaolin monks.

      Relations between Chinese and Japanese are sensitive at the best of times, with emotions still running high over Japan's invasion and occupation of parts of China in the first half of the 20th Century.

      The Internet user, calling themselves "Five Minutes Every Day", said on an online forum last week that a Japanese ninja came to Shaolin, asked for a fight and many monks failed to beat him, the newspaper said.

      "The facts that the monks could not defeat a Japanese ninja showed that they were named as kung fu masters in vain," the Internet user was quoted as saying in the post.

      The Shaolin temple "strongly condemned the horrible deeds" of the user, the newspaper said.

      "It is not only extremely irresponsible behaviour with respect to the Shaolin temple and its monks, but also to the whole martial art and Chinese nation," it quoted the monks as saying.

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      Wth?! Talk about stupid!

      Damnit! I can't find a good "fighting on the internet; whoever wins, you're still a retard" picture! CRAP >O

    • Okay, time for a Jessie dog hail thread!

      11 years ago

      FemSpartan

      This is, the great BEAST OF BURDEN!!! Toiling day and night, no gosles in sight. She has been forgotten for years; and nobody remembers her name.

      It's Jessie!

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  • About Me

  • Comments (73)

    • Recoome

      10 years ago

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    • Recoome

      11 years ago

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    • Draglon FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Biology, Physics, Chemistry and maths... :'(

    • Recoome

      11 years ago

      hey whats up?

    • Recoome

      11 years ago

      i know..I cant beleave it

    • Recoome

      11 years ago

      hey hows it going?

    • CountCaboose

      11 years ago

      Good. And yourself?

    • Trentmann

      11 years ago

      ya no problem! ya its a pretty funny picture. smiley0.gif

    • compdead

      11 years ago

      How's are you doing?

    • Trentmann

      11 years ago

      What's up?

    • Draglon FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Halo 3... is pure brilliance... I can die happy now...

    • compdead

      11 years ago

      I'm pretty good, and no, I didn't get Halo 3. (Don't have a 360)

    • Recoome

      11 years ago

      that awsome

    • Recoome

      11 years ago

      hey whats up?

    • Draglon FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      tired, u?

    • compdead

      11 years ago

      I've tried not to think about colleges since I got my degree...

      But Ganonstower's working out good. It's pretty much me and one other guy posting news and occasoional reviews. The two administrators needed some help so they pretty much drafted the most loyal members of the site to be staff. But it's been nice.

    • compdead

      11 years ago

      Great! How about yourself?

    • Recoome

      11 years ago

      thats weird and funny...lol

    • Gin_Ichimaru

      11 years ago

      They are. That was one of they're masterplan smiley0.gif

    • compdead

      11 years ago

      Thanks for the picture. I DID like it.

    • Trentmann

      11 years ago

      Nothing Much here, how about you?

    • darkpapo1

      11 years ago

      I've just been getting for high school, nothing new really. hope you find your shoes.

    • darkpapo1

      11 years ago

      Hey, what's been happening?

    • Trentmann

      11 years ago

      Not much, how are you?

    • calvinsehrt

      11 years ago

      Great, how are you?

    • fullmetal309

      11 years ago

      wats up

    • Skullman2013

      11 years ago

      true

    • Skullman2013

      11 years ago

      never mind and no you dont sound like an idiot

    • Skullman2013

      11 years ago

      nvm

    • pugsley11889

      11 years ago

      ah koool
      i lived in greeley and limon

    • bunig

      11 years ago

      Oh NO, i feel gay!

      roll.png Whats up girlfriend? lol lol.png

    • bunig

      11 years ago

      She never sleeps o_O

      wtf.png I'm a guy!

      Right now it is only 8:41 pm where i live.
      So that's why it looks like i am always on. wink.png

    • pugsley11889

      11 years ago

      what part of colorado are u from

    • Akakuro

      11 years ago

      To sum it up, A boy meets a girl and names her Shana. The girl first doesn't like him. But the more she stays with him, the more her feelings for him grows. Then they have some fights and stuff.

    • compdead

      11 years ago

      I haven't even applied for a design job yet, I'm planning to quit my job at Best Buy Customer service when I do, though.
      I'm also moving out soon like it says in my journal, so I'm kind of drowning in papers.

    • Duste

      11 years ago

      Excuse me Fem, but I was wondering if you could extrapolate a bit on a quoted post of yours in the Christian Discussion thread.
      Thanks.

    • rencarnacion

      11 years ago

      hope you dont mind deleting the other comment, would you? thanks.

    • rencarnacion

      11 years ago

      That is a ton of math to do, there. Made me realize that I have forgotton how to do subtraction with 4 digit numbers on a piece of paper, which cannot be good Dx


      i should have included a pop-up calculator. hehehe

    • compdead

      11 years ago

      Favorite Books:The Bible. Wow. It's really nice to see someone on here who's open about being a christian like you.

    • dreamcast717

      11 years ago

      Indeed.

    • CountCaboose

      11 years ago

      Well, the quote at the top of my profile is from Calvin and Hobbes.

      If you want to join S.A.R.G.E, report Here.

    • fullmetal309

      11 years ago

      yea but i do feeel sorry for wrath

    • fullmetal309

      11 years ago

      yea but i do feeel sorry for wrath

    • madmanmoe Keeper of Shenanigans

      11 years ago

      Muchas Gracias for the comments.

      I'm glad that you got the jest of what I was trying to say. People twisted this out into the whole "only evolution" or "only God" thing. I may not thing that People evolved from apes, but that doesn't mean i dont believe people naturally evolve. The same for animals. I believe animals evolved, but I believe God initiated the existence and the ability to evolve.

      As for FMA, yeah, its a real shame what they turned Hughes into in the movie. But i guess that's the point of the whole alternate universe thing. Nevertheless, Hughes dying really made me feel like crying. His daughter crying just really broke me heart.

      Thanks for the comments.

    • Draglon FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      To put the pics above your journal you go into edit profile, and then put image tags "[img]" [(forward slash "/")img]" around the link of the pic you want.
      I've been pretty good thus far, how bout you?

    • Me_Dude

      11 years ago

      what's up?

    • Lady_hanyou

      11 years ago

      gone off Yu-Gi-Oh! so that is why I dont put any pictures of it up, and Dark is hotter then Yugi

    • calvinsehrt

      11 years ago

      heat days are modified days because it is over 95 degrees.

    • ZeroLegacy

      11 years ago

      nah u didnt neg mod me

    • Me_Dude

      11 years ago

      What? o sorry

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