FuckedUpCat

Female
from Wonderland

  • Activity

    • Deleting

      6 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      So im going to be deleting my profile soon and if anyone would like to contact me please contact me. Im going to be deleting this profile in a few weeks. either message me on here for my fb account, add me on xbox or even my new email. (my old email had spam going to it so i dont use it anymore)

    • If i wasnt feeling bad enough...

      6 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      So everyone knows im getting married in june and we are trying for another baby...well my dr called me because there was something wrong with my levels....They want to put me back on a medication that i was on when i concieved Harmony....the first thing that came to mind is YAY...then i realized i might have a chance of losing that baby too....I just recently lost a friend (our best man for the wedding died) and his wife is in florid right now....i really dont have anyone to turn to about this.

      Yea i can talk to my hubs but he wont understand, He's never seen how upset i was with my last two miscarriages. Yea he saw it when i was pregnant with my son how scared i was (think bubbles and giggles he said) well he never saw how distraught it made me. I locked myself in my bedroom daily just to cry...im just afraid it will happen again...

    • SO BIG

      6 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      Yesterday Conner turned 1 years old!!! I cant believe it!!! today we open xmas presents and relax. I just cant believe its been a year.

    • 1 year!!

      6 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      Conners bday party is this saturday!!! I cant believe it!! He will be 1 years old at christmas so were having an early party. Hes walking attempting to talk and everything else. Bought my wedding dress, veil, necklace set, bridesmaids dress and necklace. So far we have a lot of wedding stuff besides whats listed.

      5 months 3 weeks and 6 weeks to go!!!

    • Finally!

      6 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      This month has proved wonderful for Conner!! He has 5 teeth all grew in at once, trying to walk, stands on the furniture very good, He's talking he can say dada, mama, gampa, bob and all that. 10 months old yesterday!!! Still trying for another one. My hubby wants to have twins, he thinks it would be awesome.

      On a random note, been getting in touch with some of my ex's seeing how their doing. well....only a few of them. I finally deleted everything about James on my computer. pictures, voice clips everything even emails. I cant stand being hurt by them anymore. I moved on and found the love of my life...i thought i loved him but when my eyes stopped being glossed over i realized my hubby is the one im meant to be with. June 8th is coming up quick and i have so much to do and its already half done. ^^ i cant wait to spend the rest of my life with my son and hubby and future children.

    • Crawling and Standing

      6 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      Boy oh Boy Lil Man has been growing. He's making leaps and bounds with his milestones. Teeth are struggling to come in though. Its getting colder outside and it feels nice but its just getting closer to conners bday. I want to just review the year...like watch it on video but i cant. theres been so many things i miss. having him, brining him home, first rolling over, first solids, first grabbing his toes, EVERYTHING. and this October 4th wouldve been Harmonys first birthday....hard to believe my two lil girls are watching over there brother.

    • Milestones oh Milestones

      6 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      I cant believe Conner will be 8 months old tomorrow. He's hit so many milestones and made me proud at every turn. So far with me ill be 23.

      Lately I've been thinking of every birthday i've had for the past almost 3-4 years. I miss those days. I told Matt all i want is maybe some flowers or a nice dinner but...i feel somethings missing. Nothing materialistic just....something and im not sure. I feel empty inside....I think the thing i want most beside wishing the one person i trusted was still here is i want a bun in the oven for a bday present.

      Everyday i look at my email and just feel a bit off because that use to be a good thing, now all i have is junk mail from stupid websites. I've been focusing on my son and school lately that i just wish i had someone else to talk to besides Matt and the few friends we hang out with.

      Why does my birthday have to be so sad...June 29th was so sad to me too....It wouldve been my first daughters birthday....wouldve 4 years old. And also it use to be such a great day. I guess thats why i clung onto my friend so much was because it was already a significant date.

      Oh well....we dont talk anymore and i know i can always contact them and them me but its impossible because they hate me.

      Well I have my Conner and he makes me so proud right now im watching him play with these balls i bought him and hes rolling them all over the floor trying to crawl. He actually took one of his dirty wipes and ate it. LOL hes so silly. This morning he sat up in his bed all by himself. Theres been so much going on its just unbelieveable.

      Of is anyone has Steam you can add me on there and on Xbox live

    • Painted Nails

      7 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      Yep i painted my nails today. I was so bored and just felt like doing something nice. i just cant believe Conner will be 8 months soon and i will be 23 WOW. Took my first two opks this month and so far hoping for a good sign. Im hoping we get our + this month. we just want our home filled with love and a growing family. I never thought i could love someone as much as my lil man and my wonderful hubby

    • The stress

      7 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      So went to the doctor and i was so stressed out about my lab work to see how my PCOS is turning out and found out everything is normal. For people who dont know i have insulin resistant pcos which is a major factor in my weight and it can have an emotional and physical toll on the body. Well if everything came back normal and im negative we're confused because it could be i am no longer IR or they told me what it means. i will always have pcos but i can control it. Im starting a new diet of whole grains, rice, chickens, raw veggies and steamed veggies. hoping this will help me shed some pounds and help conceive easier. on the brighter news we might be expecting finally ^^ we're really hoping this is our month. if not when i see my dr at the end of this month we'll find out. Lets hope babydust!!!

      BTW if anyone here wants to add me as a friend on FB can you shoot me a comment or message so i can add you. I miss all my friends on here and im more on there lately. this place brings up a lot of bad memories. just i dont want to be here usually because i know this is something very significant in my life that now hurts me and doesnt bring me much joy.

    • The date has been set

      7 years ago

      FuckedUpCat

      June 8th 2013 we're getting married. I have started trying to get my GED and CNAs!! Also Conner is going to be 7 months old in 18 days!! Wow times been flying by. Conner is in the 90th percentile in height. He's going to be such a tall kid. We also have been talking about having a lil girl someday. hopefully soon? smiley8.gif but dont get me wrong i want a few more after we have a 2nd so dont say 1 of each and done. I hate that phrase. Well time to go. TTYL smiley12.gif

  • Comments (6506)

    • MasterPyro22

      6 years ago

      why your name fuckedupcat!?

    • fire_rain

      6 years ago

      Paws your face" wow I been out of the loop congrats on the baby and I wish you well on your wedding I miss ya chicka^_^

      • FuckedUpCat

        6 years ago

        Paws giggling* Yea you have been you havent been on in awhile and i dont know if you have a fb. thanks hes a joy and thanks we need it. Miss ya girly

    • ConnieEdogawa

      7 years ago

      lol. you're a silly.

    • ConnieEdogawa

      7 years ago

      lulz. >w>

    • ConnieEdogawa

      7 years ago

      :3 :P X3

    • ConnieEdogawa

      7 years ago

      :3

    • ConnieEdogawa

      7 years ago

      i meant to wish you happy birthday the other day. sorry i forgot to. ^_^;

    • irvipat10

      8 years ago

      lol, the cookie will come

    • irvipat10

      8 years ago

      your cookie is in the mail

    • Shadow_Skarr

      9 years ago

      sorry got that from a nostalgia critic video

    • Shadow_Skarr

      9 years ago

      SARAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

      *points at you dramaticly*

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      *kisses smiling nuzzling gently licking* I wish I was there to love. Thats great love hope your making good use of it

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      how are u

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      giggles at u

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      smiles and giggles softly*

      " your so silly at times. but i like freinds that can make me laugh when they are silly"

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      hands you it*

      " it's passion fruit"

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      smiles and drinks a juice box

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      hands u a cookie

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      mew*

      gives you 10 stroage trucks full of different cookies*

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      ya.

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      yeah i know but they both suck to have.

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      smiles faintly*

      thanx but now it turns out that i have broncitis.

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      Awwww YAY puppy wants to be with you to love *kisses smiling*

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      my toncils are swollen and they hurt a lot.

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      me not's feelin well to day"

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      walks over to you*

      " may i sit with you?" i ask softly.

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      sits and waits

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      looks at you with a soft smile*

      " it's okay"

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      massages them softly so they don't hurt*

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      nuzzles you softly*

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      *kisses cuddling gently smiling* I did love I have it again today but it's just during sport so I'll be on at the normal time

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      takes out the throns gently and bandages up your paws softly*

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      gives you a monster cookie and a white rose* white rose's symbolize new beginings*

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      *kisses happily* ok love you so much Sarah

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      *Kisses smiling cuddling happily nuzzling gently* I love you so much Sarah.
      I have footy trails after school today love I forgot to mention this morning love.
      I'll still get on MSN before I get down to the fields I love you so much Sarah

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      giggles softly*

      may i have a hug?"

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      gives u a big cookie

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      ^_^

      thank you

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      i want to be your freind but it ios up to you if you want to be mine.

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      ya it dose T_T

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      *kisses smiling happily cuddling you nuzzling happily licking softly pawing* yep yep schools out in an hour. I love you more than anything

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      about me getting beatten up .

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      i said that cuz i am not sure if you are still mad at me and don't really want to talk to me and you were just being nice or if you really ment what you said. i am not trying to be rude or any thing i am just un sure if you ment what you said cuz you were mad at me.

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      thanx i think?

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      i just spent my only day off cleaning the house and playing a game for a hour.

    • alucardjr

      9 years ago

      how was your day?

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      kisses smiling happily nuzzling gently licking your nose* I love you so much Sarah. I'll see you soon love

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      kisses cuddling happily nuzzling pawing softly licking happily numming your nose* I love you so much Sarah

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      *kisses cuddling holding you pawing gently licking happily nuzzling* awwww thats good love can't wait till after school I love you so much Sarah

    • jaybattler

      9 years ago

      hey love hows you day love?

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